I was in those wavy stars for what seemed like an eternity, gazing at the distant dots painted across the world. The little planets that danced around their solar systems with cheer, like they were partying after a great victory.

How I wished to join them in their dance, but every time I tried they would throw me away, but still, I tried. Time and time again I prayed and begged them to let me join.

All they did was laugh at me, I would begin to cry and ask them why they hated me so much.

'why-why do you hate me?', I never felt like I said those words, no, I thought them to the little dots, to the little dots who were so much smaller than me, but that I still longed so much to just be able to be within their presence.

My desperate pleas only made them dance with more joy, yes, my suffering was their great victory!

I wanted to scream at them, to say how much I hated them for laughing at me, but instead, I would crawl into my deep corner of the stars and cry to myself. Where were they, the people whom I belonged with?

Did they abandon me? Then I hate them too! I would say to myself, that I hated them all, but, that didn't explain why I cried even more after thinking about it.

That same thing happened over and over for what seemed like an eternity, I would never receive an answer from the little dots, only laughter.

I never stopped crying either, every drop that left my eyes felt like the tears were mixed with sand.

That only made me cry more.

'Mommy, where are you?'

'Daddy, why wasn't I good enough'

These questions forcibly rolled themselves around Shinji's head.

His sobbing continued, the dots danced more.

For the dots, this was such a fun game! 'Hey momma, look at the watery big guy', a little dot giggled out to the bigger dot while they did their fun little dance.

'Oh, pay him no mind honey!', the wisdom-filled big dot warned to the little dot.

'after all, he doesn't deserve the attention.', the big dot further explained to her precious little dot. She could never let her precious little dot meet that awful thing.

'*giggle, okay momma!' the little dot said, unable to contain her giggling against her mommas stern tone.

And so all the little dots continued their fun dance to the whimsical music that was the big child's unending sobs and tears.

For 10 years, the child lay in his puddle of tears, until one day, there was a hole.

An unstoppable black hole that sucked up all the little dots.

And left the child alone.

For the child, there was no more dancing for him to try to join, no more laughing. But his tears continued, for 4 more years, his tears grew and filled up his starless world.

Once the tears filled up all that surrounded the boy...he drowned.

In his tears, he began to be unable to breathe, he began thrashing and kicking around.

'no-no-no I'm sorry please don't kill me!', he begged, once more he begged not to die.

'please...please...please...', slowly... the boy's eyes shut what, deep down-unannounced even to him, the boy hoped would be the last time.

He was wrong like every other time he thought. He was wrong when he thought that, if he begged enough for the dots to let him dance with them, they would let him. He was wrong when he thought his miserable little tears would stop and run out.

Slowly... he opened his eyes... and was met with an unfamiliar ceiling.

Authors notes: this was just a short preview for my story. The next chapters will definitely be longer but I don't know when it will be out. Thank you for reading my garbage story.

P.S. please comment in the review section below the story, whenever I get a comment it really motivates me. Feel free to be as brutal as possible in your criticisms of my story.