Rated: M for suicidal conditions and future… I can't think of the word. sigh :P
Warning! If you don't like depressing stories I don't recommend this fic. I do hope I write a happy ending though, But I know just as much as you about the ending. Also, There are some really depressed people in my fic. (i.e. Naruto) so if you don't approve or just aren't interested please read anyways. lol
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It was hard for Naruto. He'd help his team mates train and help in the missions, yet he was still treated like an outcast. Through the time he saved Kanoha from Gaara to the time Sasuke ran off to Orochimaru's place to find power he was always treated like dirt. While Sasuke sat through all his praise and Sakura said "Thank you." happily, Naruto wondered, "Why is everything like this? Why am I ostracized so? Why do I even have to go to these celebrations? It's not like anyone's actually going to talk to me." No matter how much Naruto has grown and no matter how much he behaves and wants someone to notice him it never works out that way. But no matter what he cannot show his tears to anyone, for he has to show the people of Kanoha how strong he truly is. Naruto sits outside till Kakashi tells him it is an appropriate time to leave. He has to wait every single time for Kakashi even though nobody notices that he's there.
"Naruto, you may go now." Kakashi says after an hour of waiting.
"Yeah, ok." After being excused Naruto headed strait for home. Having had to sleep on the ground for the last two and a half weeks Naruto couldn't wait to get home so he could plop down on his bed and have some good ol' R&R.
As Naruto was walking to his apartment he heard quick footsteps coming his way.
"Not you again." Naruto mumbled as the familiar footsteps came closer and closer.
"Oi, Naruto! I thought you were going to wait for me." Sasuke yelled while running up to Naruto.
" I know, but I'm just not up for sitting and waiting right now. I just want to get to bed."
"But we were going to-"Sasuke was cut off.
" I know, I'm just not in the mood right now." Naruto tried his best to show that he was becoming annoyed.
"well, then do you want to come to my place? We could just hang out." Naruto started to grin mischievously.
" I get your bed then."
"You know that that thing can hold more than two people. You're not having it all to yourself."
"yeah, yeah, I get it. You want a bed tonight too."
"Yes, I can't wait till I can just lay on it. I want something other than the ground to sleep on tonight."
"Why am I coming over to your house then?"
"Well, It would just seemed a little lonely by myself. I'm used to sleeping with other people around now that we were all camping out together during our mission. Besides you can sleep on my bed so you can't refuse!" Sasuke had
"Well, I guess I can't say no to that!" Naruto said with a huge smile on his face, "Your bed it just that comfortable."
After what seemed like hours which was actually only five minuets Sasuke spoke in a concerned voice. "Naruto, you don't have to sleep over if you don't want to you know."
"no, that's not it at all. It just seems weird to sleep in the same bed with someone else." He stated hastily.
"Oh, I see." Sasuke was no looking down in thought realizing just how weird it really was for a couple of teens to be sleeping in the same bed.
The two of them continued walking in silence until they reached their destination. As they approached the Uchiha household Sasuke reached for his keys. Naruto slowly and hesitantly set his hand on the other's shoulder. As Sasuke turned to look at the blond behind him, Naruto spoke with a smile on his face, "Sasuke, can we get something to eat before we get to bed?"
With a small laugh Sasuke said, "Yeah, If that's what you want to do."
After the door was unlocked they approached the kitchen. Leaving a trail behind him showing that Naruto could do the same. Instead of leaving a messy trail down Sasuke's hall, Naruto piled all his things up against a nearby wall pushing it with his feet to try to make the pile more compact. When they were both in the kitchen Sasuke asked in a soft wandering voice, "So, what do you want Naruto?" He knew what the blond was going to say, but it was just polite to ask.
"Just some Ramen I guess, there's not much else I've ever really had." Naruto was now wandering around the Kitchen.
"I was right." Sasuke thought to himself with a pleasing smile before speaking. "You can have anything, but Ramen. You eat that stuff way too often. You need some real food or you'll fall ill.
"Fine, fine." Naruto said not paying much attention to Sasuke. Circling the inside walls of the kitchen, looking at all the pots and pans, fancy cupboards, and food. All neatly in their own place. Sasuke's way of life never ceased to amaze him. "Sasuke, why do you have so much stuff you don't ever use?" He asked, still looking in admiration at the sparkling black countertops.
"Most of it is my parents. I don't use much of it. Most of it you probably shouldn't use anyways. I just can't find myself getting rid of any of it. It'd be like throwing some of them away each time I put something in the garbage." Sasuke paused reminiscing the days he still had parents. When he tried so hard to be better than his brother. The Traitor who killed all the Uchiha clan except for his little brother. He wanted someone like his parents he could count on. After these thoughts Sasuke was snapped back to reality by a load SMASH!
"Crap! Sasuke, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to break it! Really!" Naruto yelled to Sasuke. Pleading that he wouldn't be yelled at for breaking another dish. The last few times Naruto had been over at Sasuke's house he was cursed at for breaking precious momentums of Sasuke's family. Instead of yelling, Sasuke just thought to himself with a content smile on his face. "Naruto, you always break something when you're here. But that's one way I know it's you and not some ninja from Orochimaru's place or someone else.
"It's fine Naruto, It's didn't have any value to me. I'll go get the broom. Sasuke said. He was perfectly happy with Naruto right now. He didn't know the exact reason though. He just felt safe.
"You're not mad this time?" Naruto asked while Sasuke walked out into the hall. He didn't know why Sasuke wasn't angry. "Maybe he's sick" Naruto though while Sasuke was in the hall closet getting the broom. "You always shout at me for breaking things though." He said when he seen Sasuke come back into view.
"I'm used to it now so I can't really get irritated from something you do so often. It just lets me know it's you I guess." Sasuke grinned at Naruto. "Besides, this place is now Naruto proof. I put all the things that are valuable to me that can easily be broken in the basement so you can't get to any of it.
"Well, I guess that's good." Naruto laughed nervously when he noticed that Sasuke was actually being nice to him. He didn't not like it, but it made him kind of edgy.
While Sasuke swept all the glass he asked once again, "What do you want to eat beside Ramen?
"Well, Naruto started to speak while scratching the back of his head. "Anything that's easy to make I guess."
"How about spaghetti and meatballs than? It sounds better than anything I've had for the past three weeks." Sasuke said with a slight laugh. Slowly picking the right pot knowing Naruto wouldn't mind.
"Sure, sounds easy enough." He gave a small shrug.
'I was right again.' Sasuke's thoughts continued. 'I'm sure he would have said yes to having liver, gizzards, and hearts for dinner. I would have loved to see his face when he had a taste of that. Too bad I don't like that food.
"Oi, Naruto. Go take a shower before we eat. And go ahead and use anything in there. Be fast about it too."
"Gosh, you might as well be my long lost mother." Naruto said with a snort. "I guess I could use one though." Naruto said looking down at his used to be orange and now brown sweatshirt. "And hey, you should take one too. I'm not the only one with mud caked behind my ears."
"Yeah, I know. I'm busy making your food though." Sasuke knew Naruto didn't want to take a shower right then, but he couldn't help but notice that they both needed one. They hadn't had a proper shower since they left for the mission. All that they could do was rinse off in the nearby lakes and rivers. In truth, Sasuke thought they both smelled worse than rotten milk. Being that he usually took two showers each day. One after the morning exercise and one after he got home from training with the group.
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Heading towards the bathroom after Sasuke's last comment Naruto had a frown set on his face. 'I'm sorry Sasuke. I just can't take this torture anymore. I hope you find me after I'm gone. You'd be better off without me anyways.' Giving a soft sigh Naruto closed the bathroom door behind him. Marveling at the beautiful spacious room before him. Naruto laughed to himself. 'Sorry Sasuke, for messing this room up. I'll make it as clean as possible so it's easier for ya.'
Leaning against the inside of the bathroom door and heaving a sigh Naruto said to himself. 'Let's get this over with.' Pushing himself off the door he immediately started scrounging around in the cupboards. 'Man, I don't even know if he has one.' Looking a bit longer he finally came across what he was looking for. One bottle of pills and a pack of razors. One in each hand he wondered which would be harder to heal him of afterward. Deciding the pills would be easily overcome he put them back in it's proper place among many other medicines.
Finally taking one of the razors out of its case, he held it delicately in one hand and held the opposite hand's wrist out, palm facing up so you could barley see the large vein in front of him. 'Now that the time's finally come I don't know if I can actually do this anymore.' Pausing a few seconds to think he came to a conclusion. 'I have to do this. For Sakura's sake… for Sasuke. I don't want them to think of me as a hindrance anymore. Without me they will have an easier time with the missions and Sakura will probably find it easier to get close to Sasuke without me always hanging around. I'll miss you guys. Especially you Sasuke. We always fought, but I could relate to you.' A single tear ran down his face. Stopping him from going any further with the razor.
A yell from the kitchen didn't even faze Naruto. He also didn't hear Sasuke's footsteps coming down the hallway towards him. Naruto was finally awakened from his daydream-like-state as he heard loud knocking at the door.
"Naruto, you've been in there for seven minuets already and I haven't heard the water come on the whole time. What's going on! You fall in and get stuck or something?" From Sasuke's voice he could tell he was irritated, but you could hear a hint of concern in it as well.
Looking in surprise at the bathroom door Naruto wiped the tears that had fallen from his sky blue eyes, sniffed loudly and said. "Yeah, I'm fine. Sorry. Just got lost in thought I guess." Naruto's voice was huskier than he thought it was and Sasuke could obviously tell something had happened.
Sasuke didn't know what had happened, but it must have been bad to make Naruto cry. Throughout the whole time Sasuke knew the blonde troublemaker he had never seen, let alone heard him weeping. "Naruto, I know something's wrong." Trying the handle Sasuke found it was locked. Banging loudly at the door he yelled. "Naruto, open up!"
"Sasuke, I'm fine. Don't worry abou-" Naruto was cut off by Sasuke's roaring voice.
"Naruto, I know there's something wrong. If you don't let me in there in three seconds I'll make a path myself… And you know I can."
"You're overreacting Sasuke!" Naruto yelled hoping he would get away with it and be able to carry on.
Settling down a bit Sasuke took a deep breath and let it out in a sigh. "Naruto. From the time I met you I've never heard you cry. Never. And now, I don't know what it is that happened, but I do know this. You're locked in my bathroom and there are a lot of harmful things in there if not used correctly. Now, if you don't get out of there right now I will come in there." Without letting Naruto know Sasuke activated his Sharingan to see what Naruto was really up to. Sasuke's eyes widened at the sight of Naruto on his knees, wrist outstretched with the other hand slightly above it holding a small metal razor and pressing it against his tanned flesh.
"You know I wouldn't do anything like that Sasuke." The razor was cutting through his flesh at this point and Naruto hissed and the cold metal inside him. Making his voice as normal as possible he continued. "You know I'm not like that."
Slamming his fists on the wall Sasuke yelled in anger and disappointment "Then tell me what your doing right now Naruto!" Sasuke's voice dropped to a whisper. "I can see you right now Naruto" Sasuke could see Naruto's head snap up as he was taken by surprise. "Open this door right now! God! If you don't I will… " Sasuke slid to the ground fists still on the door.
"Naruto slowly lifted the razor from his wrist and looked down. Seeing all the blood that had spilt from his wound already his eyes grew wider than he had ever imagined possible. Taking a deep shaky breath he quietly called out. "Sasuke…" Another breath. "What's happening?"
Sasuke knew this was bad. Since the Kyuubi, the nine tailed demon fox that healed most of Naruto's wounds had been removed over a year ago was gone. Naruto couldn't heal as fast as he used to. He could actually die from this. "Naruto!" 'Gods, please don't do this! Don't let him die!' Quickly getting to his feet Sasuke kicked the door, but it didn't budge. He kept kicking and kicking finally noticing that it wasn't going to open just by being hit a few times. Throwing himself against the door he could hear Naruto quietly calling for help on the other side. His shoulder throbbing from the harsh beating Sasuke tried to stay calm. He took a deep breath, but the quiet calls from the other started to drive him crazy. 'Think Sasuke think! Naruto's in there bleeding to death! You have to do something! Chidori could hurt him, so could my fire jutsu. God, think! I can't just keep throwing myself against the door when I know it won't budge.' Hitting his head on the door he called to Naruto.
"Naruto, you have to unlock the door. It's the only way I can help you." Not seeing Naruto move from his spot on his knees he called again. "Naruto! You have to do this. Please! I can't lose another friend. Don't make me go through that again Naruto." Staying quiet for a couple seconds Sasuke let Naruto know what was happening by sobbing loudly. "Please, Naruto."
Sasuke could see the blonde look slowly towards the door. "There's so much blood Sasuke. You don't want to see it… I don't want you to see this." Taking slow even breaths Naruto started to slump over.
"I won't look Naruto. Just as long as you unlock the door. I'll let you do anything if you just unlock this door." Pressing his head against the door Sasuke cried. He didn't want this to happen to Naruto. Naruto was the strongest person he ever knew and look what was happening. Finding a hopeful strategy to help his friend he deactivated the Sharingan. "See Naruto? I can't see you right now. How would I see you if you just unlocked the door? I wouldn't be coming in."
"So if I just unlock the door you'll go away?" Naruto asked in a confused tone. He had lost just enough blood that he wasn't thinking right and would probably believe anything the Uchiha told him.
"Yes, If you unlock this door I'll leave you alone to do whatever you want." Sasuke hoped with all his heart that this would work. Once Naruto opened the lock Sasuke would run in before anything else could happen to his friend.
Surprised to hear the lock click open and a thud immediately after startled Sasuke. He was scared to open the door. He didn't want to see Naruto like this, not in a situation like this one. 'Please let him be okay.' Sasuke squeezed his eyes shut as he opened the door. He opened his eyes slowly and then they shot open after taking in the sight of Naruto, lying on the almost black marble floor, blood staining the right side of Naruto's clothes. Sasuke slowly walked to the boy's side and carefully picked the blonde's head up to rest it on his lap. "Naruto, why would you do something like this? You could have talked to me. You could have come to me with your troubles, but you didn't. Why? I don't understand you Naruto." Sasuke finally noticed that Naruto had hit his head while he fell. He was bleeding all over the place and it just kept flowing out of the blonde's body. 'I didn't even know that you had this much blood Naruto.' Picking the razor up himself and looking down at the boy in his lap. "Do you think I have that much Naruto? Let's call this our last competition." Sasuke gave a slight laugh at that comment and started to lift the razor to his own wrist. What brang him to a abrupt stop was the sight of a pink haired girl standing in the doorway with her eyes as wide as the moon it's self.
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TBC
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Yeah the girl is Sakura, but whatever you do… don't think of her eyes on her body actually like… really really big. It's kinda scary if you do. Lol. anyways. This is my first fanfic ever so… feel free to leave a review. o I don't like flames, but if you feel like leaving one go ahead. I mean. You can think whatever you want and it's your choice whether to voice that choice or no. If you know what I mean. Lol Well. I hope to update once a week and I write two pages in my journal for this story everyday (even if I don't like the idea of what I'm writing I keep writing it just in case I find a way to use it later on). So you might not find that there are a lot of pages, but I hope I can entertain you guys.
Shitaki