There is a reason she distances himself from them, despite the fact that she needs them more than they will ever know.
It's because they might begin to understand that they're not the only ones in need that she keeps herself away from them; because if they realize that they'll be free.
In this way she is required not to love them too much, because if she does, they'll leave, and she would lose his edge over Ren. That bitch.
The curse is hard on her juunishi, but they will never realize just how hard it is on her.
This is what runs through her mind as he sees Yuki turn to him with what she now recognizes as Kureno's eyes, and her anger is at herself for not being strong enough to hide her heart as much as it is at Yuki for not being stupid enough to believe what she tells him.
This anger wraps its hand around her hand, making her pick up the sake bottle and smash it on the table, making her reach to gouge out the distant eyes so Yuki will not leave her, so they will all stay with her forever, like they're supposed to.
They're not allowed to find anyone else.
That's why that woman, that stupid woman is a monster; she's taking everything she's ever had from him.
She's too nice to ever understand, and his bitch of a mother is too cruel to loosen her claws so she might catch something else on its way down from where she sits, atop her high horse where she can't reach, because as it turns out she is still a child, and she has always been the first to see it.
The only person who loved her, who really loved her, was her father.
Isn't childbirth supposed to kill the female? she wonders. Isn't it?