To this day I still can't explain why I didn't go for it. Why I just didn't get up the courage to tell him how I felt. Why I didn't just be who everyone wanted me to be instead of the scared and insecure Tori that I really am. Maybe that's one of the reasons I love him so much; he challenged me to be better than what I really am. He thought I was special, and sweet and straight out amazing though if you really took a closer look I was far from that. Now he's over there; arm draped around her as if she was the most important thing in the world and if you look to his far left you can see the distressed boy with the black curly hair and bad-mannered puppet. The awkward teen probably feels the same way I do, wishes that for one second he could have someone else's personality just so that he could get what he really wanted. So now were here the two of us; Robbie and I pretending to be happy with one another smiling fake smiles and laughing when we both find nothing funny. He loves Cat while I love Andre. Yet, we can have neither because their taken with each other. Did anyone expect that? No, not really. The buff musician with the bipolar redhead no one ever saw that coming. But it happened in a very sweet way in fact. He sang a song just for her and with each lyric my heart broke slowly and painfully, not quick and swift like I had wanted. I found comfort in the young man who had found comfort in myself and his puppet. My eyes get red and puffy as I think of Cat being with Andre and vice versa. I walk away from my friends and the boy I pretend to love who pretends to love me just the same. It's finally over for me, pretending to love and be the glittery girl is over. Why? Because to this day I still can't explain why I didn't go for it.