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All is set from Edward's point of view.

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Summary: Bella jumped off the cliff in La Push and died. Alice jumped on the plane to help Charlie. Rose made that phone call to Edward. Edward then went on the plane to Italy to the Royal Family, who refused to destroy him unless he broke the law first. Alice sees what's happening but is far too late to go and try to save him.

"A waste" Aro sighed as I walked through the halls out into the night streets of Italy.

They had told me no. They refuse to end the pain they all knew I was in. All they wanted was another member to their "family". All I wanted was to not exist any longer. Pain ripped through my body as I remembered why I was here. The pain started in my chest and then as if it was electricity, it flowed and stung its way through my torso and wall the way down to my feet. Then all the way up to my head I wasn't able to breath. I need to sit down, maybe call the family? No, no I can't do that. I have caused them enough torture and heaven forbid my mother answer the phone.

How should we end this pain?

The voice in my head asked. All I had to do was break one law and it will all be over. I considered going back to the royal family and attempt kill Felix or maybe another member of the guard. That will work, so I turned around and started to head back when I stopped. A fight was something I can't start. The royal guard would kill me after my attack and then go to my family. There was always the chance they would be out for revenge and find that revenge in Carlisle and the rest of them. No, I will not end it that way. There was no need to end it that way I was more than aware of what we are and what we can do out of vengeance.

Feed.

My mind ordered. Hunting humans was against the law in the city. I decided this was a nice quick fast option. I listened to the minds of the soon to be hunted the only problem was there was not one voice that triggered me to kill. I haven't feed in about two weeks. It was long enough that the monster in was shaking and biting in his cage to get out. I continued looking, looking for that mind that deserved to die. The rapists, the murderers (besides me), the drug dealers. I couldn't find one, I growled and the monster shook and snarled. I then picked my prey it was an old man. He didn't seem to have much time to live anyways. I would just bring on the inevitable sooner. I slipped into my hunting crouch and silently stalked him from the shadows.

"He's going to feed in the city. Might as well and let him finish his last meal" Felix thought. He had been following me since I left the castle. I didn't mind much, I wanted him to be there when it happened, and that was the whole point. To get caught in the act and then get taken care of.

The man turned left into a dark parking lot. Perfect I thought. I slipped closer letting my monster out of his cage and free to hunt. I took a deep breath through my nose. The ache in my throat and the automatic tightening of my muscles brought the man more into focus. Felix longed his distance behind me. He was afraid that when he would smell the man's blood he would lose control and feed as well, dooming us both.

This man would not die a slow painful death. I would not make him suffer one hit to the back of the neck would be enough. To stop his pain before he even felt it. I would drink my fill and walk back to where Felix waited. The man walked to his car and unlocked the door. I moved closer until I was a mere five feet away. Then the man's cell phone rang. He looked at the caller id and answered.

"Mirabella?" The man asked my whole body stopped.

I stared at the man I no longer had the urge to kill. I lost the feeling in my legs and I fell over. The electric pain took hold of my body again. My jaw locked at the pain and my eyes squeezed shut.

"Young man?" I heard someone ask. I opened my eyes and saw my pain filled expression in his head. I didn't know he was finished with his phone conversation much less when he walked over to me.

"Young man, are you alright?" He asked reaching to help me up. I got to my feet before he even touched me. I didn't talk just nodded.

"Do you need me to call someone for you?" His Italian accent was thick. I shook my head no. He nodded and started to walk away. Worry for me was the main feeling in his head. Worry for me when I was the danger. The wasn't the first time someone felt that way towards me. Someone whose instincts were backwards.

"Was that your wife, on the phone?" I asked him. He had seemed shocked at first. Then he smiled.

"Yes, going on sixty-seven years" He stated proudly. His eyes held nothing but love in them. Then a blond woman with green eyes came into his head. She looked nothing like my Bella and yet her picture came into my mind. She was smiling and had her wide brown eyes staring at me. Then her smile shifted and her eyes held nothing but pain. Her words came into my head.

"You don't want me?" She asked sounding confused and hurt.

"No" I replied. My eyes in hers reflected the coldness of a monster. Not the monster who wanted her blood. The monster that left her there everything standing alone in the woods. The monster that was halfway across the world when she jumped off a cliff. She killed herself because she did nothing but love a monster who led her to her demise.

The electric pain shot through me at full force. I leaned against a car. The man who stood there watching me hurried to my side. I held up one hand to stop him.

"Go home" I whispered "Go home and tell her you love her. Don't even hurt her… don't ever tell her that you don't want her." I whispered

The man cocked his head to the side but I didn't let him come near me. I looked him in the eyes just hoping he would see the danger and go home to the woman he loves. He saw my pain and dropped his arms and nodded. He took a few steps and turned his head to talk to me.

"Your young son, she will forgive you. Don't worry" He smiled gently and turned away and got back into his car.

He was wrong on so many levels.

"Ah, I see no kill. What's wrong Edward? Looking for something with four legs? I there is a pound a few minutes from here." Felix taunted me. I didn't care though.

What now?! Why are you wasting time?!

My mind shouted at me. All I wanted was for the pain to end. To turn into nothing and be forgotten by all the people I have hurt… and killed.

I would not stalk the old man in the car. I would not kill any human. I never deserved Bella yet she loved me anyways…enough to end her life. I would not kill on my quest to end mine either.

Standing in the parking lot gave me a new idea. Being a vampire meant that we are fast, beautiful and strong.

I looked at the cars lined in the lot. Humans were not able to lift cars yet I am. Someone was bound to see a seventeen year old pick up a car and toss it into a store. Everyone watching would know that I was not human. I would be taken down shortly afterwards. I smiled as I thought of my soon to be end. I started to walk around to look for a nice size crowd of people. I turned a couple of blocks before I found the perfect one. The Festival was starting to get into full swing. There was a crowd of maybe twenty people. I was still dark but the streetlights lit everything well. Well enough to see my stunt and a flying car.

"You will all be killed Edward." Felix thoughts entered my head. I turned around to snarl at him.

"Leave my family out of this" I ordered baring my teeth yet reminding myself killing Felix or even charging at him mean death for my family.

"Not your family, the humans who see whatever your about to do" He said. He had no concern for the human's lives. He just didn't want cops and FBI going around the city asking questions. That would upset his masters. I saw all this in my head. I nodded and walked away from the crowd.

"Very well" I said to him.

I had a new plan. A plan that would make them act quickly. Something that they must stop me from doing, before anyone saw. I would do it during the day where too many people would see. The bell tower was a popular place for the gatherers. I would have to do it in the day time, when it would be seen by everyone around.

Felix was behind me and confused. He stared to think that I had changed my mind. He was considering going back and telling his master's I have changed my mind. I was not about to let him leave, he was here for a purpose as was I.

"Felix" I said in an emotionless tone "I will fulfill what I came here for. I will make every human see that there is something else out there."

He raised his eyebrows I knew he was confused I didn't need to be a mind reader to know that.

"At twelve O'clock when the sun is the highest I will show them…everything." I stated.

He was debating what to do. He couldn't decide on if he should go back to his masters and tell him or kill me now. He also knew if he killed me now he would be in trouble. There was the same penalty for any law that was broken…death. I wanted it so bad that I could almost taste it. I killed the one woman I couldn't live with out. Her death belongs in these cold white hands. The same hands that held her every night and told her they loved her almost everyday. These hands left her and broken her then killed her. I was a monster and I needed to die for it.

"Edward, we will not allow you to expose our kind" He sneered

"Promise?" I replied sounding cocky.

I may have sounded cocky but I was far from it. Trying to find away to end the pain was not a distraction from Bella. Nothing could ever distract me from her. Every time I closed my eyes she was there waiting with a smile on her face. A movement caught my attention. Felix was going back to the castle to inform his masters. I smiled at the fact I knew it would all end soon.

I started walking towards the bell tower. I have chosen my spot where I would sit and wait. It was a dark alley on the left side. Brick wall was on the left and the tower on the right. It was close enough to one of the many entrances to the Royal family. I would sit and wait until noon. When the festival would bring thousands of human spectators. Too many humans would be there Felix would not be allowed to destroy them all…only me. This was a fool proof plan they would have no option but to end me. I walked into the alley and leaned up against the wall. I thought back on everything from my newborn days to my happiest days of my life…or whatever one would call it.

Carlisle my father my mentor. He was kind, kinder than us all put together. He saw the very best in his family even though we were far from perfect.

Esme my mother. She was the most loving. She even felt bad for the animals we fed off of. I chuckled a little. (Even though it sounded painful) She was a saint. So caring that every single one of us sought her as our mother.

Rose, my first sibling and sister. She and I never got on so well. Even though we were never really on the same page. We protected each other when the situation ever presented itself. She was vain and stubborn but I did love her. I am glad she called me and told me. I didn't know what I would have done if I went back to Forks and found Bella's headstone instead of Bella herself.

Emmett my big little brother. Big because he was the size of a truck and little because I was older than him in this life. He was the carefree one of us all. He laughed all the time never did he keep a grin off his face for long. He found joy in everything, some how I knew he would not find joy in this though. I hope I don't keep him down for long.

Jasper my second brother and military man. He was a serious kind of man. He was protective of his family and of his Alice. There was not one thing he wouldn't do for her. I am lucky to call him a brother.

Alice my little sister and favorite pixie. She's such a bubbly person. Always looking on the right side of things. She always backed me in everything even if she didn't agree with my choice. I would miss her and she would miss me. I also knew Jasper would take care of her when I am gone.

Bella, my Bella. So beautiful and trusting. She trusted me to protect her, to love her, to be by her side forever. How ever I threw all that trust away, like it was worthless trash. I needed her now more than ever. I regretted a lot of things in my life leaving her and hurting her are my biggest. Every mistake I made seemed so tiny in comparison to hurting her. I wanted to go back in time and tell her everything was a lie…but I couldn't.

I groaned at the pain as it stabbed through me. My back slid down the wall I was leaning against. I placed my head between my knees and sobbed. I was worthless I couldn't even cry real tears for her. She died because of me. The one person I knew I was going to love forever was lost by me. She couldn't handle the pain I put her through so she ended her pain.

"I am so sorry my Bella, my love" I whispered to no one.

"I didn't mean it I swear please forgive me" I croaked between sobs.

I knew she would never forgive me. By all rights she would hate me but I still hoped that she would hear me somehow. She was in heaven I was sure of it. Yes, suicide is a sin and the penalty for that is an afterlife of fire and pain. But I knew she was in heaven still. She was too good too loving to be in hell. Hell is a place people like me go not her. The pain was back in tenfold as I thought this over. Bella is somewhere I could never follow. I was not welcomed where she is now. I created our separation permanently and I hated myself. In all my years, all the murders I have committed. All my anger towards my kind I have never felt a hatred that I have towards myself at this very moment in time.

Yet, for some morbid reason I couldn't bring myself to regret loving her. Yes, I regretted leaving her. Loving her was the one thing I didn't regret she was the best part of me. She was the part of me I wished I was. Human, loving, understanding, and trusting. She was my better half.

I knew she was in heaven and this made me wonder if she was looking down on me. Would she approve? Probably not, no matter what I did to her, what I caused her she was always afraid for me.

I knew she wouldn't want this for me, even if she hated me she wouldn't want my family to go through losing me.

"I have no choice I can't live with out you" I argued with her as if she were here.

I looked up at the stars and whispered.

"I am sorry Bella, no matter what I said in the past know that you were my life, my better half. Never doubt that my life my love" I said. Sobs racked though me.

I spent my last hours thinking of the good times I spent with my Bella. Sometimes I even spoke her as id she was here. People "voices" started in my head. It was eleven-thirty in the afternoon and my heart smiled at the mere thought of the pain ending.

I found Felix's voice. He had brought reinforcements I blocked there thoughts. I didn't want to hear their warnings and threat.

My cell phone chirped letting me know I had a text message. It was from Alice it read.

Edward please NO!! You have no idea what it will do to everyone! Please you can get through it, we will help you I swear.

Sorry Alice I said out loud she would see everything even if she wanted to or not. She text me again.

I love you, we all love you. I am sorry, I won't let them forget you.

"Let them know I love them all Alice. Let them know I am sorry and tell Rose this is not her fault." I stated out loud again.

I took a step forward. I heard movement behind me, good they were there. I was a few steps away when I brought Bella's face into my mind. She was smiling her deep eyes full of love, love that she had for me.

I smiled. Even in her death and with mine pending her beauty still took my breath away.

I knew I was one step away from this Hell on earth. My foot lifted my body shifted to take my final movement.

Suddenly I could feel arms wrap around my neck. They had kept their promise. I didn't feel any pain for I had kept myself focused on my Bella's face.

Someone kicked the back of my knees. Both of my legs gave out and I felt two pairs of hands brace themselves around my head. I sighed, finally I thought.

I felt my smile grow wider. The Bella in my head smiled and said

"I love you"

"I love you too, forever and always my Bella" I said. Then I felt the snap and my world went dark and all my pain ended.

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