Author's Note: Warning! Fan's of Karofsky will not like the first two chapters! Should probably be avoided!
Karofsky sat on his bed staring fondly at a McKinley High yearbook; even though Kurt's face had been defaced Karofsky couldn't help but smile at it. The last few days had been hell for him, the love of his life had rejected him and now everyone at school knew he was gay. According to everyone's Facebook status he was the scum of the earth. He felt as if everything was crumbling around him. In his own mind he himself knew he was truly scum. Actually he felt lower then scum, he finally knew all the pain his love Kurt had felt when he was tormenting him. How scared Kurt must have felt every time he saw Karofsky.
Now for the first time in a long time Karofsky himself was truly terrified. Terrified of what his parents would say, when the word got around to them. He had already faced the rejection of Kurt and he knew he couldn't handle his heart being broken by his own parents. Not after all they'd been through as a family. It was his greatest fear, and he knew they soon would hear.
He hated being scared it made him feel weak, weak like a child. Karofsky was not a child and he hated feeling like one so helpless, so alone. He needed to find a way to gain back control of the situation, but that was it he couldn't find a way to gain back control. He was so use to always being in control, and now he was powerless. The tears began to roll down his cheeks, he hadn't cried since he was ten when his dog Cash had to be put down. Now he was crying all the time. "Get ahold of yourself you're not a little girl, so stop acting like one" he said to himself.
He stood up dropping the year book to the floor. Then he walked himself into his bathroom and went straight to the sink. He turned the knobs and shoved his head under the cold rushing water. It felt good it calmed him a bit. He turned off the water and looked up into the mirror. "Your pathetic and you make me sick" he said to himself. "You're such a weakling, a coward it's time to face the music" he said yelling at himself in the mirror no. "It's time you end this don't you think, and take back control so you never have to feel this pain again". "But how" Karofsky said. "You know how the" Karofsky in the mirror said. Karofsky swallowed hard, he could feel a large lump in his throat. "It will be easy and it will only hurt for a while, then it's all over. Then you will never have to feel pain or rejection again, and besides you've already faced so much pain what's a little more?" said the Karofsky in the mirror. Karofsky nodded at himself in the mirror, he was right it was the only way he could regain control and he would do it.