I pressed my hand against my ribs, though the pain was quite insufferable, i could tell it would only be a few days now until i was completely healed. All i could think about was my last moments with her. The look in her eyes when i left, her voice, her ...kiss.
I loved her, I loved her and I am willing to do anything for her, she knows that. If he didn't come back, if he had never returned to her. She would have been happy with me. I could have made her happy. I used to. Those were my best days. I haven't lived as long as some, but i knew i was the happiest person alive when i was with her. He abandoned her. He left her, and i fixed her, for the time being. He could do anything and she would still be by his side. I wish i had that. I love her so much I could--
In the midst of my daydream, my door slowly creaked open. It was her..All my thoughts flew out the window as she sat down beside me. With a look of despair in her eyes, she glanced at my bandages.
"I..I heard you got hurt pretty bad." Not looking me in eye, she lifted her hand upon mine. I could barely breathe. I composed myself enough to answer. "Nah, We heal fast. I'll...be fine." I hesitated on the last effort of acting fine. I haven't seen her since we were in the clearing. What if I stayed? What if I stayed with her, I could have had her.
I looked at her, she had been crying, the makeup Alice tried on her had smudge in the middle of her charlie explanation. God does she have it tough. I waited for her to speak once more. "Edward…Believes that I would be better off with you. That I wouldn't be put in any danger if you took care of me." She said it as if it were a sentence to complete misery, ofcourse Edward thinks so he's reversing it her. He always gets his way like that. Playing the good guy, never selfish, as much as I admire that, not in this situation. "Well, he's right. You would be Bella. I could be everything to you." I've always wanted to listen to one of their conversations, especially the ones about me, they seem like they'd be interesting. I was never much for wanting to hear about him, that's all she'd seem to talk about lately until this happened, and when we we're in that clearing, I didn't have to have superpowers i knew all of his thoughts were on her. but so were mine.
My mind was going in so many directions at this point, this was not where I thought our conversation would be. Before she could speak again, the door slammed open, it was Dr.Fang, though everyone would like for me to call him Carlisle. I'm not sure he opened it so stiffly on purpose, maybe it was just a leech thing to be rudely interupted. " I came in to see how you're doing" He lifted up on my badages, slowly eying Bella with a apoligetic smile on his granite face. "Ah, looks like my work is done here, Im not sure If you'll be needing anymore morphine right now seems to be healing nicely, goodbye Jacob, Bella." I don't know what it was maybe the way he looked at her, or maybe it was the way he spoke her name just then but I automatically knew something was up. "Like I was saying, He wants me to be happy." She said trying to rest a smile on her face, she was trying to hard. " Look, I know where this is going, I knew it was a long shot okay? I get it." I was trying to finalize things, like I was already in pain lets go ahead and rub in what we already know.
"I…I think you should let me finish…Jacob, I want you, I want to be with you." The words were like an amazing gift from the heavens. Was I actually hearing this? I could have sworn the morphine had burnt off.
Did she just pick me?