A/N: I hope all people that read this will enjoy it as much as I will enjoy typing it! It's just something I came up with after reading Mitsukaii's wonderful writing!
Waiting Is'nt Good Enough
by KH2Lover
I cannot begin to describe how horrible I feel. I've been nothing but miserable the whole time he has been gone. Everyday, my pain grows worse and it's becoming unbearable. Just how long does he expect me to wait for him? It's been almost a year, and he still hasn't returned. But... why am I even complaining? I don't have any other choice, but tosit here and wait. Wait. It's one of the hardest things to do, I've realized. One may not think so, but when you're waiting for something-or someone-special, it is.
And it always will be.
And I miss him so much, but nobody sees it. Nobody has and I hope to God that nobody will. Ever. Although my feelings for him may appear obvious to most, I do not want them to know how deep the feelings are. The only person that should find out is him. Him, and only him. But I wish I didn't have to wait. It's just... too hard. Sometimes I want to break down and cry. Most of the time, I actually do.
But I have to pull it together.
He would want me to. And so do I. More than anything, I wish I could just stop remembering him. Even for the slightest second. It would release me from the grasp of sheer worry and sadness. But no matter how hard I try, I never forget him or the memories we share. This thought is a surprise to me, but I've been driven to this decision, even though I am positively sure that it willnever work. I love him too much. Too much to forget him. All day, I think about him and at night, I dream about him.
It's like he's eternal.
And I know I will never let him go. But, isn't it ironic that I already have? No. I must push that thought aside, for it is not anywhere near the truth. We will always be together spiritually and in our hearts. Always. No matter what. I don't need to share a paupo fruit with him to know that. And neither does he. Although, it would be nice. To do anything with him at all would be nice. More than nice. Perfect. More than perfect, if even possible. But, then again, nobody's perfect. Not me, not him. Which is why I think that he is going to break his promise. And never come back.
No.
I have to stop thinking negative and think-no-know that he will come back. He's never broken a promise. Well, none that I've heard of. But I doubt that he would even think of breaking a promise to me. Especially me. He loves me. Or at least, I hope so. Oh, how I hope so. But I must not think about that either. It would only lead me to more worry. And, even if he doesn't love me, I'll always love him, no matter what.
No matter what.
So, I will wait. And do what he has asked me. It would be for the best because, what if he came back and I decided to leave? Then he would have to search for me all over again. So, I'll stay put. Like a good girl. Besides, even if I wanted to, I couldn't get off this damned island. I miss him so much. It is so hard for me to act normal and fine when I'm not... I'm not. I'm not whole. Not without him. And I won't be until he returns. I'll never be whole again until he comes back to me. Like he promised. He promised me and I won't let him break that promise. I won't let him. Besides, even if he did, he'd be as good as a Heartless. But, I know him too well.
And he's not like that.
And he never will be. Ever.
But... maybe... waiting isn't good enough.
Actually, it's not.
Not at all.
Waiting isn't good enough.
Which is why, if I don't see him soon, I will have to take action.
Whether he wants me to or not.
I love him too much to let him do this to me.
And I miss him too much.
I miss
Sora
too much.
x fin x
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