Summary: One day the happily(now not so happily) married and vampire Bella begins to wonder if she had made the right choices. One day she is hunting alone when she smells the strangest thing. She follows her nose and finds a mad that has no scent whatsoever. Everything has a scent… except for this man. She talks to the man and when their conversation begins to close the man asks her if she would ever want to "do over" her life. She answers "yes" and the man smiles. She gets up and walks home dawdling. Suddenly it begins to rain, then hail, then snow. Bella starts to hurry home when the ground drops and she is sent back in time to when Edward had left her. Will she make the same choices or "spice things up" a bit? What will happen and will her choices alter what she thought to be her perfect life.

(She lost never conceived Renesmee. She was just changed because she wanted to be changed. She hasn't talked to Jacob ever since the wedding and thinks of him constantly. It's been 1 year since she got married to Edward. In eclipse Bella wasn't sex crazed either and on their honeymoon they didn't have sex. Ideas from the movie 17 again. May be sexual content later on.)

Thinking

Bella's POV

I was standing on the balcony looking at the stars. A cool brisk wind blows through my hair and I stare at the full moon and start to wonder.

Did I make the right choice? I remember when Edward left me, I never let go of him. I always tried to find his presence and I always tried to hear his voice. What if I had let go? Would I have forgiven him so easily?

Of course I knew the answer to that question but I didn't want to face it. Not yet. Because if I did face it that question would start an onslaught of questions that I would like to avoid. Or would I?

What if I hadn't jumped off of the cliff? Would he still have come back like he says he would have? Would I have fallen in love with Jacob? Jacob.

My days and nights were now filled with thoughts of him. Things were not left right between him and me and I missed him so much.

I think Edward knows I'm thinking of him. He's been acting so strange lately. He hovers around me asking constantly if I need anything and telling me that he loves me. He buys me gifts and smothers me with kisses and never pressuring me to have sex.

I know this is what every girl wants, a gorgeous man that loves you and holds you and wants what is best for you, but I guess I was expecting something… more. I feel like Edward me is smothering me.

I give a sigh and sense Edward behind me but make no move to turn around and face him. It isn't until I feel his cool breath on my neck that I turn around.

"My love, does something trouble you?" he asks his lips skimming my neck.

Should I tell him? No. Why would I tell him that I long to so see my friend that is far more than a friend? That I wish I could just hear the voice of my best friend that I love? That I wasn't sure I had made the right choice in marrying him and choosing immortality over Jacob?

"I'm just a little… thirsty is all."

He gave me a skeptical look like he knew what was really wrong with me but he didn't push the issue.

"I think I'm going to go hunting." I said as I turned back to the balcony.

"Do you want me to join you?" he asked.

"No, I'll be quick I promise." I said. I turned and gave him a small kiss on the lips. He smiled and I turned and jumped off of the balcony. I flitted through the forest until I got to the spot where I stopped on my first hunt.

I bent into a crouch and sniffed. I smelled all of the aromas of the forest. I smelled the honeysuckles and the tulips and lavender flowers. I smelled the deer and the bears and then I came across what must be the strangest scent I've ever smelled. Nothing.

When you are a vampire you smell absolutely everything. You smell the air the people the animals and even the plants. Everything has a scent.

Except for what ever was emitting this nothingness. I followed the scent or should I say the non-scent and found… a bald man.

I know it's short but it's more of an intro chapter. Please review. I will get the second chapter up ASAP!

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