Why should I try anymore? Why should I let you hurt me then enjoy every moment of my pain? I cry every night did you know that? Saying to myself he will love me someday and keep hope and than acted like nothing happened? I paint a smile on my face everyday, and people think I'm the perkiest little fucking girl in the village other than Ching. You think nothing is wrong, that I'm ok every time you push me, every time you lead me on then just push me off a cliff if you don't like me stop giving me mixed signs, like when you smile and give me a look like "I'm sorry for the pain I give to you anyway I can help?" but when I smile and go over to you push me away and then whisper in my ear "get the fuck away from me what are you doing I will never like you" but when you let go you smile so sweet and wink. What am I supposed to do? How would I make you happy……. Leaving... Not existing? 'Cause that's how you make feel like no one loves me like no one cares like if I die no one would be there to cry, morn at my funeral just put me in a hole in the ground and call it good… Huh? And when you say you're my friend and you care but only as friends then you make fun of me for liking you in 4 grade …it gets even so damn hard to be your friend and I can't do it anymore but the thing that did it for good is at Katie's party when you were up in a tree, and I asked you "why don't you like me?" and you wouldn't answer and I said I wouldn't leave until you told me and then……..you called Abyo and said "can you get Pucca away from me?" I wanted to punch you so hard until you couldn't even say anything but I couldn't I love yo……..well loved you but I will never make that mistake again goodbye and I'm done with love!!
Pucca was about to put the letter in his mail box but saw the necklace he gave smiled and walked away. "I guess I'll never tell you my feelings after every push."
Hey srry this won't be continued but the part about the party I had and x-bf did that to me so I know how Pucca feels right now. Thax for reading ,garustwilight22