"I won't" .. ..

The words repeated in Touka's brain as she sat. It had been so long since they'd crossed her mind. It had been even longer since those words had been spoken. Almost felt like a life time ago since she had seen the one who had uttered them. She would be surprised they'd come back to haunt her after more than fucking year of being free of them. Except ... except she knew exactly why they had come back to poison her soul. It was because life was a bitch that never tried of fucking with her.

After a long day of work she had found her self wondering the streets. Mindlessly walking anywhere and where ever her feet took her. She really should have paid attention, then maybe see could have continued to live in peace.

She'd found herself in a familiar place staring into familiar face she would never forget. A face with a genuinely kind shy stupid smile and big gray eyes so innocent and full of life yet to have had it viciously ripped away by the cruelty of life and the depraved trash that lives in it.

Touka was staring at the face of a ghost of someone who no longer existed.

But for a moment it had felt so real. So god damn real she swore she could feel his presence. Swore that if she dared just breath she would smell that sent that was all him.

It had been so stupid but in that fucking moment she felt if she stayed, if continued to gaze into those gray eyes he wouldn't disappear. Disappear like the ghost he was and for a moment he hadn't.

But of course it was stupid. It was stupid and childish and she's a god damn moron. It was just a ghost, a figment of her imagination, yet here she was on her ass sitting on cold hard ground still staring at absolutely nothing with empty promises haunting her.

It fucking hurt because for a moment he had really come back to her. For a moment she had believed.

She knows Kaneki ken is nothing but a ghost now.

Yet ... .. she can't bring herself to move.

If I never leave this dance floor then I'll never leave you here

Yeah, I saw your ghost tonight
The moment felt so real
If your eyes stay right on my mine, my wings would start to heal
I felt your ghost tonight and god it felt like hell
To know your almost mine
But dreams are all I feel - blink 182

This is only my second fanfiction ever and my first Touken one. Honestly I feel like its really disjointed but I suck and don't know how to fix it. I hope you enjoyed it either way. Also if you'd like, please check out Ghost on the dance floor by blink 182 in my opinion it fits these two very well(well before RE: chap10) and if you couldn't tell it was my inspiration for this one shot. Forgive me if I got anything wrong I have a horrible memory. Oh and as for where Touka is well that's up to you because once again I suck and could decide or come up with a good place to have this take place, so sorry about that.

and no I do not own Tokyo ghoul or Ghost on the dance floor by blink-182.

If you'd like leave a review if not then still thank you for taking the time to read my little story and I hope you enjoyed it.