I was there, lying on the bed with the woman I love, the woman I've always loved, the one I wanted to marry, raise kids with, until we grew old, until death split us apart. You might think "why are you complaining? You're in bed with the woman you love", but that's not it, not in that way at least. Naomi, my first love, was dying in my arms and there was absolutely nothing I could do. She had stage four cancer and wasn't responding to treatments. Effy took so long to tell me she was dying that we didn't have enough time to say our goodbyes properly. I was so mad at both of them for not telling me. Oh yes, I'm Emily Fitch by the way.
Naomi lived for another 2 days, 3 hours and 56 minutes. I can still remember her last words.
SOUNDTRACK: believer by susanna and the magical orchestra ( watch?v=JIVn3-LshhU)
Naomi - Ems.. Ems.. *cough*
Emily - Yes Naoms? Say it.
Naomi - Look, I ain't got much more time left. I.. I'm really sorry Ems, for all the bad things I put you through...
Emily - Don't, just don't, please don't.. I love you, please stop it and stay with me!
Naomi - Ems listen, I can't help it, like I couldn't help kissing you every time I looked at you when we were younger, even at those times when I said I didn't want anything to do with you. But you always knew Ems, you always knew I loved you. And I do love you, I do need you... And even after I'm gone, I will keep loving you. You're my lobster, Ems, and I love you more than.. than chees..
The machine that was monitoring her heart was "screaming" and so was I. I don't really know which one was louder. "Code Blue", they said, while tons of doctors/nurses were flying into the room. My Naomi was drifting away from me as I was being dragged out of that hospital room. So I passed out, I just.. blanked out.
When I woke up, she wasn't there anymore and I didn't even get the chance to say goodbye, to say that I LOVED her. Naomi was gone.