Revenge Of The Nerd
A/N: Sequel to 'Hungover'; part of my 'Liquored Up' series. Reid/Morgan slash.
Summary: Reid finds out the truth about the night of the Halloween party; and the truth about something he had never considered a possibility.
This is also for hot4booth.
Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds or it'd characters. I only own my own perverse thoughts, story plot and original characters. Sad but true.
Reid sat on his couch trying to remember the night before. No matter how hard he tried, to he could not get the picture of Morgan kissing him out of his head.
'Why did he kiss me? Was it a joke? Did he mean it? And who the hell took a picture of them anyway? I don't even remember going in to the bathroom last night, let alone with Morgan. Why does the idea of Morgan kissing me turn me on so much?'
Spencer Reid had never thought that he would be turned on at the thought of being kissed by another man. Not just any man though, but Derek Morgan. The thought of any other man doing that did nothing for him, but the thought of it being Morgan made him… excited. Yes that was the word he was looking for. Excited was what he felt. Intrigued would be another.
He had never been attracted to another man before in his life. He had always been attracted to the opposite sex. Never in his sixteen years of dating had he ever been attracted to another man but now he finds himself eagerly wanting to know what it would be like with Morgan. He had had sex before, not that the people he worked with would believe, but he had plenty of sex. He just didn't advertise the fact. He enjoyed being with a woman intimately. There was nothing like the feeling of making love with someone you cared about.
Now what? Did he just come out and ask Morgan about the kiss or just forget it happened. Not that he remembered it anyway. There was the fact that someone else knew about the kiss and that in itself could be a problem. Who had taken the picture?
There were just too many questions he just didn't have the answers to. For the first time in a long time, Reid found himself not having the answer to something.
Reid took some more aspirin for his headache and went to bed early, trying to decide what he wanted to do.
The next morning Reid found himself standing outside Penelope Garcia's office door. Knocking, he went in without waiting for her to answer.
"Reid, what are doing?" Garcia gasped in surprise.
"Did you leave an envelope on my desk after the party?" He asked her seriously.
"No my little chickadee; why what was in it?"
"There was a CD in it with pictures on it. I was just wondering about one of the pictures on it that's all."
"Oh, what kind of picture?" she asked excitedly.
"I'd rather not say. Here just take a look for yourself and then tell me what you think." Reid said handing her the CD.
Penelope put in the disc and pulled the pictures up on the screen in front of her.
"So which one were you wondering about my dear?" she asked as she started to scroll through the pictures.
"You'll know it when you get to it." he said and put his head down on the table in front of him.
Penelope looked at the pictures and smiled as she remembered the party and the party from the previous year. She chuckled as the picture of Reid dancing on the table nude came up on screen.
"That was a fun night." she mumbled to herself. "Oh my word." she gasped as the last picture came up.
"Now you see my dilemma. Did you make the disc? Do you know who did? I don't know what to think. I mean if you didn't take it then someone else did and that could be a very bad thing. What are people going to think if they see it? I know I am not gay and I know Morgan doesn't swing that way either. What will this do to our careers?"
"Slow down Reid. It will be alright. To answers your questions, no I didn't take those and I don't know who did. What is bothering you about it?" she asked as she turned to face him better.
"I don't know. Maybe the fact that I am intrigued at the thought that he kissed me or maybe it is because I don't remember it but I want too. I'm confused Pen, I have never been attracted to another man before. But the idea of it is…" he didn't continue, couldn't continue.
"It turns you on. That is nothing to be embarrassed about Reid. It's natural to be intrigued by the thought of being with someone of the same sex. Is it because it is Morgan?"
"Some of it maybe, I never thought about another man like that but thinking about it being Morgan, it makes me want to remember it. Why do you think he kissed me?" he asked quietly.
"I don't know that Reid. I am as surprised by it as you are. But I know Morgan would never do anything that he didn't want to, you know that. There must be a reason because even though you were drunk as a skunk the other night, Morgan wasn't so he knew what he was doing. You need to talk to him Reid and just ask him."
"I can't Pen, what if he says it was a joke or something, I'm embarrassed enough without him telling me that."
"I know you guys play pranks on each other all the time but he wouldn't do something like that to you just for a laugh. He kissed you because he meant too not for any other reason. Now go talk to him and find out why." she said as she pulled him up out of the chair and pushed him out the door.
Reid turned back to her, "Pen, please don't…"
"My lips are sealed, you have my word." she cut in.
"Thanks." he whispered before heading back toward the bullpen.
Reid reached the doors to the bullpen and could see Morgan at his desk joking around with Emily. God how could he ask him about the kiss? He pulled the door opened and walked slowly to his desk contemplating on how to get Morgan alone so he could ask him.
"Hey there pretty boy. Did you have a good day yesterday? I figure you had a major hangover when you woke up."
"I did have a hangover when I woke up in the corner dressed in some get up I assume Penelope had something to do with."
"What do you mean you woke up in the corner? I thought it was Rossi's turn to take you home. If I had known I would have taken you home myself. Sorry man, I didn't know he bailed on ya." Morgan said, ashamed that he didn't check on him before he left for the night.
"It's fine Derek. The cleaning crew got a laugh out of it anyway. I made it home and had a lot to think about yesterday." Reid said as he turned to concentrate on the files on his desk for a while.
Reid worked the rest of the day without bringing up the kiss; hell he didn't say much at all to anyone. He didn't know how to approach the subject, had no clue of what to say. He and Morgan were the only ones left in the bullpen as he packed up his bag and then he heard his voice from behind.
"What's on your mind today, Reid? You have been quiet today, something bothering you?" Morgan asked, concerned for his friend.
"Um… well… yeah, a little." Reid hesitated.
"What is it Reid? Anything I can do to help?"
Reid looked up at his friend and thought it would be better to talk about it somewhere more private. This was not the time or the place to bring up Morgan kissing him.
"I really don't want to talk about here Derek." he said quietly.
"Well come over to my place, we'll pick up a pizza and some beer and have a guys' night in. The girls do it all the time; it's about time we do something together. Do you want to ask Rossi and Hotch to come?"
"NO! I don't want them to know about what I have to say." Reid said hurriedly.
"Okay, sorry. Do you want to ride with me or do you want to drive yourself? I can bring you back later to get your car or you can just stay at my place. You have a change of clothes don't you?"
"Um… Yeah. Let me think about it okay?"
"Whatever you say kid." Morgan replied.
"Can you please stop calling me that? I know I am the youngest on the team but I am not a kid."
"Hey, sorry Reid. I didn't mean anything by it. It is just habit that's all. It won't happen again." Morgan said as they made their way to the parking garage.
"No, I'm sorry Derek. It just makes me feel like no one respects me. I have been an Agent for nine years; I just want everyone to stop treating me like a baby."
"Reid man, I'm sorry. I have never thought of you as a baby. I promise. I never knew it bothered you when I called you that or I wouldn't have done it. It's just how I am. You know like when Pen calls us by her little nicknames; to me Emily is Princess and you have always been Kid or Pretty Boy. I never meant anything by it."
"Well it does bother me. I am only six years younger than you Derek. I don't think that makes me a kid."
"You're right Reid, it doesn't. I'll just have to come up with another name for you that won't bother you." They reached their cars and Morgan turned to Reid, "So you riding or driving?"
"I'll ride with you I guess."
Thirty minutes later and a stop at the store for beer they walked through Morgan's front door. It was on the small side but big enough for a bachelor and it was still bigger than most, even Reid's apartment looked like a shoebox compared to this.
"I converted the dining room into a guest room slash office if you want to stay. Let me call in the pizza order and then we can talk if you want while we wait." Morgan said as he dialed the pizza place up the block from his apartment.
Reid sat down on the couch and looked around nervously. He thought Morgan would have pin-ups posters hanging around his apartment and wouldn't have been surprised to see life-size cutouts of women either. But this was a surprise. It was clean and very well decorated. He didn't realize Morgan had good taste like this. But Reid had a feeling that his sisters may have helped him decorate. Hell with taste like this he would bet a hundred dollars that it was Emily that had helped him instead of his sisters. Yes definitely Emily.
Morgan walked back in from the kitchen and sat down in the chair across from Reid.
"I like your place, did you decorate it yourself?" Reid asked.
"Actually I did do most of it myself but I did get a few pointers from Emily on colors but everything I picked out myself. Why? Didn't think I had taste like this huh?" he laughed out.
"No I had no idea. I am impressed that you did it all by yourself though."
"Well I know I come off as a big player but when I come home I just want to be able to sit and relax, watch a movie or read in comfort. I know what I like and that is what I got. I did it totally for the soul purpose of my comfort. I don't have too many people over. Besides you the only other people that have been here are Pen and Emily; Emily twice, once before I decorated and then once after I got finished. Pen comes over once a week for movie night."
"Well I'm still impressed. The deep brown color of your couch suits you I think."
"Okay Reid the pizza will be here in about twenty-five minutes so if you want to talk do so now because when the food gets here that is all I am going to be thinking about for at least twenty minutes. I missed lunch today."
Reid looked at him still unsure as to whether to say anything or not. He knew he had to say something if he wanted to get the answers he needed.
"Um… someone left a disc on my desk after the party and… well… there was something on I was wondering about. Maybe it would be easier to just show you what I am talking about." Reid said as he pulled out his laptop and the disc from his bag.
As he got it ready Morgan got up and came to sit by him on the couch. The pictures pulled up on the screen and Reid scrolled through to the last one and waited.
Morgan looked at the picture and smiled, remembering that night and the need he felt when he had helped Reid to the bathroom. The sudden urge had come over him to kiss him so he did. He had no idea that someone had caught it on film, and if they hadn't he would have denied it until his dying breath. But there it was as plain as the nose on his face so there was no denying it now. How could he explain to Reid what had happened? That he had felt a sudden heat down to his core that overwhelmed him and made him drop his inhibitions for that short moment in time. He knew he wasn't gay but he couldn't deny the attraction he was feeling for Reid and had been for a while. He would never have given in to his urges if Reid had been sober that night. And he wasn't one to take advantage of someone in a drunken state either. But Reid had been hanging on him and as he finally got him to the bathroom to wash his face off, in hopes to sober him up some. Reid had reached for the counter top and as he did his hand had brushed against his cock and he just couldn't help it, so he kissed him. He had never been with another man, well beside when he was a kid and Buford was doing those things to him. He had never found any pleasure in what Buford did to him but with Reid, just the brush of his lips against his lit him on fire.
"Reid I'm sorry I shouldn't have kissed you. It was wrong for me to do that especially in the state you were in."
"Why did you?" Reid asked quietly, praying Morgan wouldn't say it was just for fun or that it was a joke.
"I don't know really. I just suddenly felt the urge to do it so I did." answered Morgan and the he rubbed his hand over his face.
"Do you regret it?" Reid asked him, feeling a little braver now.
Morgan looked at him trying to gauge how his friend was feeling.
"No I don't regret Reid. I wouldn't have done it if I didn't want too. The only thing I regret is that you were drunk and don't remember it. Do you… remember it?"
"No I don't. When I saw the picture I was thinking that I …"
"You what, Reid?" Morgan asked, hoping his answer was what he was thinking it was.
"I… was thinking that I… wished I could have remembered it." Reid answered hanging his head down, embarrassed at what he had just admitted.
Morgan sighed out in relief; that was exactly what he had wanted to hear. He reached out and lifted Reid's face with his fingers. He lowered his face until they were a breath apart, giving Reid the chance to change his mind. Reid closed the distance between them and kissed Morgan tentatively. Morgan wrapped his hand around the back of Reid's head holding him to him as he took control of the kiss. Morgan ran his tongue slowly over Reid's until Reid granted him access to the depths of his mouth.
Morgan pulled him closer and deepened the kiss. Morgan moaned deeply as he felt Reid's tongue brush against his. Morgan finally pulled back but was pulled back when Reid grabbed the front of his shirt and pulled him back for another kiss. It wasn't slow or tentative this time. It was fiery and passion filled as Reid wrapped his slender arms around Morgan's broad shoulders.
Neither knew how long they sat there kissing, not pushing for anything deeper other than the feel of the others lips on theirs. It was a slow burn that seemed to ignite inside them both. The only thing to break them apart came when the knock on the door signaled the arrival of the pizza.
Morgan pulled back slowly, "I better get that." he said as he got up and went to the door.
Reid sat there in shock; he couldn't believe what just happened. Couldn't believe what he had just done… and with Morgan.
Morgan came back in carrying the pizza and a couple of beers he had grabbed out of the fridge on the way back through. He sat his load down on the coffee table before turning to look at Reid.
"You okay?" he asked a little worried about his younger friend.
"Uhh… yeah, I think. Just surprised is all. And maybe a little shocked by all of this." he said without looking up.
"I know what you mean man. I never would have thought that I would do anything like this before. I never wanted to do anything like this before. I just couldn't seem to help myself the other night. It hit me in the pit of my stomach and just gave into it I guess is the best way to explain. I am not sorry about it though. Are you?" Morgan asked his silent friend.
"Honestly? No I'm not sorry. I guess it just made me more intrigued with the possibilities of more. I don't know why I would even consider it to begin with. I mean I have never done anything like this before. But there is something about the idea of it with you that intrigues me… a lot." Reid said as he finally looked up at the man beside him.
"I know what you mean. I feel the same way. I don't really understand what I'm feeling right now but I do know I wouldn't mind exploring it further with you. But only if you want too." Morgan said, looking directly into Reid's eyes.
"I do Morgan but this is all just so weird for me." Reid muttered suddenly unsure of what they were doing.
"Reid it's okay, let's just take it slow and see where it goes from here. Stay tonight, sleep in my room and let me just hold you. We won't do anything until we are both comfortable with it okay?"
Reid thought for a minute about everything Morgan had said tonight and about how he was feeling. He knew he wanted to experience this with him but was still scared about the outcome of it all. But he wanted it, and from the sounds of it Morgan did too.
"Okay." was his simple answer and Morgan smiled.
They didn't know what lie ahead for them but knew they were in it together.
A/N: Okay folks sorry this is going to be longer than I had intended. There will be at least one more chapter. hot4booth I hope this is not a disappointment. Enjoy and let me know what you think.