Chapter 1: Leaving

BPOV

Page 59 New moon Chapter 3 the end.

"Come for a walk with me," he suggested in an unemotional voice, taking my hand.

I didn't answer. I couldn't think of a way to protest, but I instantly knew that I wanted to. I didn't like this. This is bad, this is very bad, the voice in my head repeated again and again.

But he didn't wait for an answer. He pulled me along toward the east side of the yard, where the forest encroached. I followed unwillingly, trying to think through the panic. It was what I wanted, I reminded myself. The chance to talk it all through. So why was the panic choking me?

We'd gone only a few steps into the trees when he stopped. We were barely on the trail—I could still see the house.

Some walk.

Edward leaned against a tree and stared at me, his expression unreadable.

"Okay, let's talk." I said. It sounded braver then I felt.

He took a deep breath.

"Bella, we're leaving"

I took a deep breath, too. This was an acceptable option. I thought I was prepared. But I still had to ask.

"Why now? Another year—"

"Bella it's time. How much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass for thirty, and he's claiming thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."

His answer confused me. I thought the point of leaving was to let his family live in peace. Why do we have to leave if they were going? I stared at him, trying to understand what he meant.

He started back coldly.

With a roll of nausea, I realized I'd misunderstood.

"When you say we—"I whispered

"I mean my family and myself." Each word separate and distinct.

I shook my head back and forth mechanically, trying to clear it. He waited without any sign of impatience. It took a few minutes before I could speak.

"Okay" I said. "I'll come with you"

"You can't, Bella. Where we're going…it's not the right place for you."

"Where you are is the right place for me."

"I'm no good for you, Bella."

"Don't be ridiculous." I wanted to sound angry, but it just sounded like I was begging. "You're the very best part of my life."

"My world is not for you" he said grimly.

"What happened with Jasper—that was nothing, Edward! Nothing!"

"You're right" he agreed. "It was exactly what was to be expected."

"You promised! In Phoenix, you promised that you would stay—"

"As long as that was best for you" he interrupted to correct me.

"No! This is about my soul isn't it?" I shouted, furious, the words exploding out of me—somehow it still sounded like a plea. (A/N: OMG BELLA JUST GIVE UP! Ok I hate Bella soooo much it's unbelievable. But now typing up some of the book I've just realised how pathetic she is! No offence Bella lovers.) "Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care, Edward. I don't care! You can have my soul. I don't want it without you—it's yours already!"

He took a deep breath and stared, unseeingly, at the ground for a long moment. His mouth twisted the tiniest bit. When he finally looked up, his eyes were different, harder—like the liquid gold had frozen solid. (A/N: FREAK! I hate Edward too btw)

"Bella, I don't want you to come with me." He spoke the words slowly and precisely, his cold eyes on my face, watching as I absorbed what he was really saying.

There was a pause as I repeated the words in my head a few times, sifting through them for their real intent.

"You…don't…want me?" I tried out the words, confused by the way they sounded, placed in that order.

"No"

From the book ending and I will stop randomly commenting in this part because Bella won't be so pathetic anymore.

I stared at him looking him in the eye not breaking the contact. I refuse to show weakness, I'm Isabella Marie Swan Potter one of the best quidditch players in the world, Edward walked up to me and kissed me on the forehead before walking away.

As I watched him walk away I let tears fall freely. Tears for loosing Edward, tears for loosing Jamie aka James my twin brother and lily my sister-in-law, tears for thinking about Hogwarts again and tears for my nephew not knowing anything about wizards.

I felt a burning in my pocket and reached in. I ended up pulling out my unicorn tail wand 12 inches, the identical to my brothers. I looked at it and realised what it reappearing meant. I'm a witch again.

Slowly but surely I grew into the 28 year old witch I am. I sat down on a fallen log and let the tears fall freely. I don't know how long I will sit here for but I need to be here.

I've been sat here for hours thinking back on Harry's first birthday and how Sirius gave him his first broom. Harry was a natural on that broom. He gave us some hassle but he was a natural. And now he's living with muggles, what a shame. I wonder how he is I mean, what have they told him? Does he know I exist? Does he know how his parents died? Does he even know about Lily and James?

"No he doesn't" a deep familiar voice shocked me out of my thoughts. I looked up and saw Sirius Black. He smiled at me wearily. "Hello Izzi" he added.

"Hello Sirius" I took a deep breath and hugged him. Remembering his smell from when we dated before their death. "How did you find me?" I asked curiously.

"Izzi, I felt you turn back into a witch." He said simply as if it's an everyday thing. "What happened to you?" he asked looking at me up and down.

I smacked him lightly bringing his attention back to me. "I changed into a muggle seventeen year old, fell in 'love' with a vampire, got hunted by a vampire, the vampire I fell in 'love' with left me here, I changed back into a witch, realised Harry was sent to Lily's sisters and cried about my terrible life."

He smiled sadly. "You never really did cry, you just didn't show emotion. I bet you miss him the most."

I smiled back stepping out of his embrace. "I think Harry misses both of them the most."

Sirius looked at me. "Harry don't know we exist you know that right?" he asked.

"Now I do" I said sadly. "How's little Ron Weasley? I haven't seen him since he was this big" I made a cradle motion with my arms. Sirius laughed.

"He is excited to go to Hogwarts. Molly and Arthur had a daughter a couple of months after you left." Sirius said smiling a little at a memory.

I smiled too happy for Molly and Arthur. "They finally got the little girl they've always wanted, it must be hard for her the only girl in a house filled with boys. Over protective ones at that, she must be beautiful"

"Well why don't we see for ourselves." Sirius smiled mischievously.

"What are you—"I started but before I could finish my sentence he grabbed my arm and apparated us into the Weasley dining room. "On about" I finished.

Sirius laughed as Molly came towards me and gathered me into a massive hug. "Isabella i have been worried sick about you. I haven't heard from you in 10 years!" She said squeezing me tighter and I gladly returned the hug.

"I missed you too Molly" I laughed as she let me go. But before I could breathe again, two thirteen year old twins were coming towards me and I immediately recognised them as Fred and George.

"Izzi" they shouted hugging me. I laughed at them; they were getting so tall now.

"Hello Boys, Miss me?" I chuckled as they let go and nodded. I ruffled their hair and laughed. "You're not the old three year olds I once knew." Molly laughed with me at the boys faces.

"Hello Arthur, Charlie, William, Percy and Ron it's nice to see you all again." I said smiling at the boys, they all smiled back except for Ron who was confused but before he could say anything William walked over to me.

"It's not William anymore Isabella, its bill." I smiled and laughed, he had definitely grown up since I last saw him.

"It's nice to see you to, Bill. You have a bit of a cheek calling me Isabella; you should know only your parents are allowed to call me it." Now it was his turn to laugh and he sat back down.

Charlie was next. "Hello Izzi; I missed you" I smiled at him and gave him a hug. "I missed you too kiddo"

I walked over and sat down next to Sirius in the only empty seat left. Ron and Ginny were opposite me and I smiled at both of them. I was right even for a ten year old Ginny is beautiful.

"Molly not going to introduce me to Ginny?" I asked innocently at Molly. She smiled and Ron looked more confused. "I haven't forgotten about you Ron. I've known you since you were born." I laughed at the look on his face.

"Ginny, Ron—"Molly started looking at her two children. "—this is your Auntie Isabella." I rolled my eyes and corrected her. "Not Auntie Isabella that makes me feel old; I'm only 28. Just Izzi" I smiled and held out my hand to them.

Ginny shook it eagerly and Ron took some time before he shook it too. "How do you know our mum?" Ron asked wearily. I laughed, "Me and my twin brother were like children to Molly and Arthur when we went Hogwarts." I explained smiling softly at the memories.

"What happened to your brother?" Ron asked again and a silent tear went down my cheek. "James was killed by You-Know-Who and so was my best friend and his wife." Sirius put his arm around me softly. That was all the comfort I needed and he knew it.

"I'm sorry for asking." Ron said sadly as he looked at me. I smiled at him. "No it's ok. I just miss him that's all." I took a deep breath. "Do you know the stories about the boy who lived?" I asked them, I knew Bill, Charlie, Fred and George do.

"Yes?" Ginny said feeling left out of the conversation. I smiled at the look on her face about dear Harry. "His father was my twin and he is my Nephew." Ron looked at me sadly.

"I'm so sorry!" He said apologetically.

I smiled "It's ok. I've learned to ignore the whole in my heart" silently I added. That's slowly getting bigger because of the Cullen's. I flinched and everyone noticed.

"Are you ok dear?" Molly said her mothering instincts popping into use. Just like Esme. I flinched again.

"I'm fine, Just worried about Harry." I smiled softly wrapping an arm around my middle trying to stop the ripping sensation Edward and his family caused. I screamed in agony and burst into tears.

Sirius immediately hugged me and stroked my back trying to soothe me from the heart break. But it was no use, I became dependant on somebody something I promised myself I wouldn't do since loosing James and Lily. While loosing them I lost my will, I only stayed in the magical world because they needed me, now Harry is back he will need me too.