Title: You Are my Sweetest Downfall
Author: doctors gal1792 on fanfiction jack_is_love17 on LiveJournal
Rating: T...possible M....idk.
Pairings: Jack/Gwen (Jack/Ianto past obviously)
Warnings: Swearing, possible smut in later chapters, post Children of Earth. DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVE NOT SEE CHILDREN OF EARTH!
Summary: Two years after Jack has left and he's returned to the world he left behind. Rhys has died and Gwen is struggling to stay strong for her little boy who is blissfully unaware.
Jack's returned to be a shoulder for Gwen to lean on.
Gwen tries to persuade Jack into giving them a chance because she's always loved him, but he tries to push her away. The last thing Jack wants is to hurt Gwen or be hurt, and he definitely still feels guilty because of Ianto and Rhys' death.
Will he give a relationship with Gwen a chance?
A/N- I know I've been out of the Torchwood fandom for a long time. I finished Before the Worst and after that I was just like 'I'm done for awhile' I needed time to fully heal after Children of Earth. I know that sounds insane but it's true...I struggled with series three. So much happened in just those five episodes and once it was all over I was so emotionally drained and for the longest time I couldn't look at pictures of Torchwood without just feeling honest to God sick.
Finally I've gotten through my issues and have forgiven Jack for what I know he had to do (killing Stephen...I don't think I'll ever get over him leaving Gwen when she needed him). I hope you enjoy this story...please review if you do like it.
Oh and as of right now I don't have a beta...if you'd like to beta for me please give me a shout!
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Chapter 1
Guilt
Jack had returned the day Rhys died. It seemed when Gwen needed a friend the most and had no one, he was there, and would always be there.
Her son Jack was only about two at the time. Gwen had been successful in getting Mickey Smith and Lois Habiba to work at Torchwood for her but that had been it, regardless Rhys would always help when they needed it.
His death had happened so suddenly that nothing could be done to stop it or prevent it, as Gwen had done in the past when Billis Manger had taken her love from her.
The rift had flared up and in an attempt to stop it from hitting critical Rhys ran to stop it, and he was electrocuted.
The funeral had been the following Tuesday and to young Jack, he didn't know anything was different. Gwen tried to explain that daddy wasn't coming back but he just didn't understand.
She'd stood for hours at the grave, even after everyone had left and Lois had taken the baby home.
Then his hand slipped into hers, Gwen stared up at the man beside her, the stranger, her heart was numb from the pain and she almost didn't believe he was here.
"I'm sorry." Jack had whispered.
Gwen had hugged him tightly and cried into his arms. They stayed under a tree in the cemetery and Gwen cried all night, until she'd finally fallen asleep in his arms and Jack had scooped her up and taken her home.
Lois hadn't met Jack but she knew him when she saw him at the door.
She looked concerned at Gwen.
"She's just sleeping." Jack muttered.
"Oh right....well keep quiet, the baby is sleeping...." Lois said, moving to the side so Jack could bring Gwen in and set her down on the bed in her bedroom.
Jack came out of the room, closing the door lightly behind him and looked at Lois.
"Your Jack." Lois said, matter-of-factly.
He nodded, "And you must be Lois Habiba."
She nodded in response.
He sat down on the sofa and sighed, "I should have come back sooner....Rhys wouldn't have died then."
"Jack...Gwen explained a lot to me over the last two years. How you changed her life in ways she never knew possible, if given the chance to do it all over she wouldn't change a thing. She said that today at the service. Only Mickey and I knew quite what she meant but we know she meant it. When she wakes up in the morning she's not going to want a pity party or to be hearing how guilty you are. Right now what Gwen needs the most is you. You need to be there for her." Lois paused for a long time and then went on, "You better take care of her this time."
Before Jack could ask what Lois meant exactly by that she was already walking out the door of the apartment, her coat slung over her arm.
Jack sat in silence for a long time. Finally he removed his wool coat, placed it on the back of a chair and looked around. He went to the kitchen to put the kettle on and then slowly made his way up stairs, Gwen was still sleeping. She looked like an angel with her hair splayed out on the pillow and the moonlight casting weird shadows around her.
Across the hall from Gwen's bedroom was the baby's room. Gently Jack opened the door and looked in, a lamp on the wall was on and he slowly went in to see the boy.
His heart warmed at the sight of the peacefully sleeping baby. Baby Jack had a big tuft of brown hair, he was truly a spinning image of his beautiful mother.
He stayed there for the longest time, if the kettle hadn't gone off, Jack would have stayed there all night watching the little boy sleep. Finally he heard the faint whirring of the hot kettle, he left the room, closed the door silently behind him and returned to the kitchen.
He poured the hot water into his mug with the tea bag and took one sip of the drink after it sat for a few minutes. It was times like these he missed Ianto the most...because if Jack was having an all nighter Ianto would be at the hub with hot coffee ready and waiting. He closed his eyes, forcing all of those memories of his lost love away.
Jack went to the living room and sat back down on the sofa, and he sat there all night...
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A/N- Okay honestly...this is NOT supposed to be a more than one chapter fic...but it's becoming that...as you can see....I hope you review and tell me what you think.
Lots of love and cookies for reviewers.
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