Fanfiction: Gabby's heart – chapter 1

I got this idea when I watched again season 1 episode 10 when Gabby invites Matt to a Christmas Party. I am planning to write just five or seven chapter for this fanfiction. I'm including some scenes we watched in CF and making little changes. If you have time leave a review, please.

Note: I don't own Chicago Fire.

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"I mean... are we just here as friends, or... is this a date?" Gabby said smiling. They stared each other. In seconds their lips were separated by a few inchs. She always waited for this moment. She opened her heart and now she hoped that he did the same. However he gave a kiss on her cheek.

"I can't. I mean..." he said, but he was cut off by her.

"No, yeah. I get it" she replied. She is lying, she didn't get it. He said that if she needed a date, he was the person for it. So everything was a misunderstanding? She even bought a new dress and for nothing. His next words caught her off guard.

"It's not a good time… because it's worth doing right. Right?" he said before giving her a little smile. What he meant with these words? Nothing make sense to Gabby. Actually, just one thing makes sense: he didn't like her the way she expected. He only wanted to be her friend. She was idiot believing that he had forgotten Hallie. One time she said to Shay that Casey and Hallie always broke up but soon they back together. Suddenly a couple opened the library's door.

"Oh, sorry. Don't mind us" the girl said embarrassed, then the couple left them alone again. Dawson put a smile on her face. She would cry, but not now, not in front of him.

"Uh, you ready for dessert?" she didn't give him a chance to answer, "I'm ready for dessert" and she got out of the room, he followed her. During the dinnertime, both were tense. She didn't say much even sitting next to each other. He knew that he hurt her feelings, he wasn't blind. Now wasn't the right time for them, his mom was in the prison and his sister wasn't helping to get Nancy out. Gabby deserved all the love also attention, those things he couldn't give to her right now. He needed to solve his family problem first. Then he would be all hers.

Before the party ends, Gabby said to him that she was tired, asking him to take her to home. The way was made in silence; he tried to start a conversation about how he was happy for spent the night with her and her family. She just said they liked him too and she thanked him for accepting the invite. He needed to fix what happened before between them that night, something didn't seem right. She wasn't herself anymore after their talking. Maybe his words sounded confusing. What she really understood? That he didn't want her? Or like her?

When they arrived at her home, she unbuckled herself, looked at him briefly saying Thank you for the ride, good night.

"Ga…", but before he finished she was out of his car. So he unbuckled himself quickly, got out of his car and run after her. He had time to grab her arm before she reached her front door. "Hey…"

"What are you doing?" she said as she saw him.

"What happened at the party…" he said and she shook her head. She didn't want to talk what happened, she wanted to forget it.

"I don't know if you understood what I said to you…" and he run a hand in his hair. She cut off him again.

"Like I said, I get it… you know, don't worry… no hard feelings…" she said trying to hold her tears. Why he had this power over her? However, she will try her best to get over her feelings for him. "So friends?" she asked extending her hand to him. He was confused. He didn't want just be her friend. He wanted more than that. He said that they were going as a date to the party. And from nowhere he shut down her. What did he do? He was an idiot and now he wasn't able to fix things with her. "Okay…" she said when she saw that he didn't grab her hand sealing their agreement to be friends, so he was there just looking at her. She turned and left him there. Few seconds later, he noticed that she was at her front door, searching for her keys.

"Gabby…" he said, but she didn't look at him.

"Where are these damn keys?"

"Gabby, what I was trying to say is that I like you…" and he smiled. She heard him, she liked him too.

"Keys….where…?" and finally she found them. "Thank you, God," she said relieved.

"Are you listening to me, Gabby?" he asked desperately. She looked at him.

"Casey, do all us a favor. Forget what I did, okay?" she managed to open her door. "I drank too much, you know. Be happy with Hallie. Make babies, whatever… Just forget it… Good night" she entered and closed the door. Casey was like What happened here?

The next day he visited his mom at the prison. They talked for an hour, and then he left. He went to his sister's house to convince her to talk in favor of their mom, but it was in vain. So he would be the one talking in Nancy's parole, he hoped that they could give his mom a chance to restart again her life out of the prison. This entire situation was hard on him. He needed to talk with someone; he wasn't able to handle it alone. In his mind, there was only one person: Gabby. He didn't know what he would do to have Gabby's attention.

He was in his officer as she walked to the locker room. He waited a few seconds and followed her. "Morning" he said. She was grabbing a few things and putting them on the locker.

"Morning" she said looking at him. Then he noticed that her wrist was bandaged.

"What happened?" he asked pointing.

"Oh I hurt myself fixing my window. It's not that bad, really. Thank you for asking" and she closed her locker.

"If you had asked I could fix it for you," he suggested.

"No, it's okay. I don't like to ask for favors" she said giving a half smile.

"How long have we known each other, Gabby?" he crossed his arms.

"Three years, maybe?"

"So time enough for you ask me anything" he smiled.

"Really, it's not a big deal."

"Okay, so… Can I ask you a favor, then?" he said getting close to her. He made her little uncomfortable. She just nodded. "Listen to me and then you can say anything" she nodded again.

"I was distracted at the party, I know. I'm dealing with some stuff and it's not always easy to just forget that and give attention for people I really care and love."

"I don't know what to say", the bell rang calling the ambulance, they heard the call, but before she left, "good luck with these stuff and Hallie, you know, your love." Again, his failed and she was determined to push him, not let him in building a wall.