DISCLAIMER: Kingdom Hearts is Square Enix's

I'm just hope that they'll lend me Riku, Roxas, and Axel FOREVER

*sigh*

Journal of My Destiny

I am 'darkness'

I know it

You are 'light'

I know it

Everybody know it

Even The Key knows it

Three of us always together in that island

Three of us grew up and known each other in that island

But why that girl chooses you better than me?

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I hate you

I let darkness manipulated me to my hatred toward you

But somehow you're always come to light me and pull me from this eternal darkness

What the hell is that innocent smile?

What the hell is that warm attitude?

What the hell is the trust you show toward me?

So innocent and foolish that your memories could confused by that damn organization…

…and me myself, so foolish that the darkness influenced and prey me alive…

…even both 'darkness' and light' hate me…

…swallowed me alive into the void…

"You will never disappear. You won't lose to both light and darkness."

"In the deepest darkness, there is a light. Even in the strongest light, there is the darkness.

You're the one who show the way there."

The King told me

Then I realized and could said proudly,

"I'm fight with enemies, but not 'darkness'."

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I can only smiled when I staring your sleeping face in the capsule

Hah, you're really always fall asleep

Didn't I entrust Kairi to you?

I told you to take care of Kairi, and here you are taking a nap!

But that's okay, let me help you awake from the long dreams

which is brought by your black-cloaked white shadow

So when the time has come, it's your turn to take care of her again

and we'll go back together to that island again…

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I entrust you to Namine

and hoped that after you become yourself again, you can forget me

I'm really couldn't show you my current form

Really, my form isn't myself anymore

When darkness not only consume the body and soul,

my only hope is my heart still whole enough to protect you two

Quite an expensive price to able to took a grip on 'darkness' power…

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"Sora, it's Riku! Close your eyes!"

Kairi grabs my hand and his, firmly

"Riku! It's Riku. Riku's here... I looked for you! I looked everywhere for you!"

He falling to his knee and cry

Are these ears hallucinating?

"...I didn't want you to find me."

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In your incomplete memories, do you still trust me?

In your shattered heart, do you still forgive me?

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You know, I was jealous of you

I wished I could live life the way you do.

No burden, just following my heart

Well, at least I have something you could never imitate

Do you want to know?

Something like… having you for a friend…

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I shake back his hand firmly

The darkness inside me wiped out coincide with this black coat

"C'mon, let's settle this once and for all,

So we can go back home, to that island together once again…"

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Thinking of you, wherever you are.

We pray for our sorrows to end, and hope that our hearts will blend.

Now I will step forward to realize this wish.

And who knows: starting a new journey may not be so hard, or maybe it has already begun.

There are many worlds, and they share the same sky - one sky, one destiny.

[Kairi's letter]

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~F.I.N.~

Hello, this is my first fic in English! This is actually the English version from my original one in Indonesian.

I wrote it when in the night; I was played with Riku's Point of View just for fun. Honestly, I like this character in many ways...

Oh yeah, some sentences and statement I pick from the conversation in the original game. But most of the word is my original writing. ^_^

I'm sorry if there is some typo or miss translate there and there...

Any comment, correction, suggestion, critic... I will accept it with open hands-in the review box.