Title: Hands Clean
Email: fanta0583@hotmail.com
Keywords: MSR, Angst.
Spoilers: None as yet
Disclaimer/ author notes: The lyrics used in the note are Alanis Morissette and sort of the whole idea behind the Fic. It's my first so go easy OK. I don't own anyone :( maybe in later chapters, if I write one
9:10 am
California
"Ok, now what's up with this? Dana look at this would you?" Dana Scully looked through the window, outside there was a removal van parked across the drive way "Charlie, it's not the end of the world" she laughed. "I'm glad you think so, what if I have to go out or something? What then? I ask you" he walked away muttering the last few words. Dana was left to sit and think in the sitting room, her thoughts were for her partner, Fox Mulder was gone. Nothing was left; he cleaned his apartment out and just left. A few days later he had written her a note, it wasn't really his words but she understood where he was coming from. The note was for her and she still had it, occasionally she would read it; she wanted to keep it for William so he could understand about his Father desertion.
William had his Father's eyes and had begun to pull the puppy dogs that his Father had perfected to get his way. "Ok, Will. You ready for our picnic?" Dana walked to the boy "Yes, Mom I'm ready." He was getting older, he would be 10 in two days and Dana had chosen today to give him his Father's letter, she thought about Mulder and how much of their child's life he had missed. She wished that he would come back for Will's sake "Ok, come on my man, let go eat." The last of the food had been packed and they were ready to head off.
They arrived at the spot; it was a spot that Dana loved when she was a kid. The lake glowed from the sun's rays; Dana placed the picnic on the slope of the hill "Mom, why are we having this picnic?" He watched his Mother set everything up "All will be explained." They sat and ate "I like this place Mom; are you going to tell me what we are doing here though?" She smiled at him "What is the one thing you want for your birthday?" He looked at her and half smiled "the same I have wanted since I can remember. I want my Father." His mother started fumbling with her pocket "Here, I think your Father would have wanted you to have this." She handed him a large piece of paper, the note was address to both of them; Will rubbed his finger across his name. "How long have you had this?" He looked angry "Your Father sent it 2 days after he left." He began to read the note out loud
Dear Dana and my little William,
I'm sorry that I couldn't stay and watch our son grow, Will; I hope you can understand this. I wish I could be there with both of you. I want you both to know that this decision isn't one that I took lightly because I love you both and know how much this will have hurt you. William, please don't try and follow my footsteps it will only lead to trouble, I don't regret it all; I knew that when I first saw you in your Mother's arms, I couldn't have been any happier. So this is all I could think of to explain and to try and steer you in the direction I didn't go:
Ooh this could get messy
But you don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime
We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honoured your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this.
I know this won't bring you the comfort I wish it could but please believe that I love you both and not a day will go by when I don't think of you and miss you.
Lovingly
Fox Mulder, Your Father.
"A few years huh?" Will looked down at the paper "When will I see him then?" Dana looked at him "This is what your Father wanted for us. A safe life with no fear of been separated and no worries for the future. The letter is not saying he is coming back. So please Will don't get your hopes up.
To be continued...... Maybe
Email: fanta0583@hotmail.com
Keywords: MSR, Angst.
Spoilers: None as yet
Disclaimer/ author notes: The lyrics used in the note are Alanis Morissette and sort of the whole idea behind the Fic. It's my first so go easy OK. I don't own anyone :( maybe in later chapters, if I write one
9:10 am
California
"Ok, now what's up with this? Dana look at this would you?" Dana Scully looked through the window, outside there was a removal van parked across the drive way "Charlie, it's not the end of the world" she laughed. "I'm glad you think so, what if I have to go out or something? What then? I ask you" he walked away muttering the last few words. Dana was left to sit and think in the sitting room, her thoughts were for her partner, Fox Mulder was gone. Nothing was left; he cleaned his apartment out and just left. A few days later he had written her a note, it wasn't really his words but she understood where he was coming from. The note was for her and she still had it, occasionally she would read it; she wanted to keep it for William so he could understand about his Father desertion.
William had his Father's eyes and had begun to pull the puppy dogs that his Father had perfected to get his way. "Ok, Will. You ready for our picnic?" Dana walked to the boy "Yes, Mom I'm ready." He was getting older, he would be 10 in two days and Dana had chosen today to give him his Father's letter, she thought about Mulder and how much of their child's life he had missed. She wished that he would come back for Will's sake "Ok, come on my man, let go eat." The last of the food had been packed and they were ready to head off.
They arrived at the spot; it was a spot that Dana loved when she was a kid. The lake glowed from the sun's rays; Dana placed the picnic on the slope of the hill "Mom, why are we having this picnic?" He watched his Mother set everything up "All will be explained." They sat and ate "I like this place Mom; are you going to tell me what we are doing here though?" She smiled at him "What is the one thing you want for your birthday?" He looked at her and half smiled "the same I have wanted since I can remember. I want my Father." His mother started fumbling with her pocket "Here, I think your Father would have wanted you to have this." She handed him a large piece of paper, the note was address to both of them; Will rubbed his finger across his name. "How long have you had this?" He looked angry "Your Father sent it 2 days after he left." He began to read the note out loud
Dear Dana and my little William,
I'm sorry that I couldn't stay and watch our son grow, Will; I hope you can understand this. I wish I could be there with both of you. I want you both to know that this decision isn't one that I took lightly because I love you both and know how much this will have hurt you. William, please don't try and follow my footsteps it will only lead to trouble, I don't regret it all; I knew that when I first saw you in your Mother's arms, I couldn't have been any happier. So this is all I could think of to explain and to try and steer you in the direction I didn't go:
Ooh this could get messy
But you don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime
We'll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honoured your request for silence
And you've washed your hands clean of this.
I know this won't bring you the comfort I wish it could but please believe that I love you both and not a day will go by when I don't think of you and miss you.
Lovingly
Fox Mulder, Your Father.
"A few years huh?" Will looked down at the paper "When will I see him then?" Dana looked at him "This is what your Father wanted for us. A safe life with no fear of been separated and no worries for the future. The letter is not saying he is coming back. So please Will don't get your hopes up.
To be continued...... Maybe