I decided to write this based on my past love life with my ex, Ben.
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I can still remember the day my Tuxedo Mask and I had our first date.
It was on January 23, 2004, we were going to see a movie and I was so excited. I had been crushing on him for a long time; it was like a dream come true to go on a date with him.
He came at seven to pick me up wearing his usual outfit, and I was wearing a denim skirt and a light blue shirt with my dads' winter coat on.
Dad had recently past away and my mom and I were left with the house, when I walked into the room he was talking with my mom and she asked me if I was wearing lip stick.
I could tell he was looking at me and looking to see if I was, but I told her know and said high to him.
That was the most embarrassing time of my life.
Then we walked outside and got into his camaro, he drove down to the theatre and we walked on in.
We started to fuss on who was going to pick the movie, but after five minutes I told him to go pick one and surprise me and I would be at the bench near the restrooms.
Well he came over and sat beside of me, we were early for the movie so we decided to sit outside and watch some people I knew from my old school fro a while.
Once we thought the movie was about to start we headed in to the room we would need to be in.
Next we debated on where to sit, we eventually decided to sit on the left side where there was two people seats; he sat on inside, I on outside.
We were watching the movie All about Polly. Well about a fourth of the way through the movie I felt something against the tip of my hair, at first I thought it was the people that were sitting behind us, but I looked out of the corner of my eye and it looked as if he had put his hand behind me over the seat.
Well nervous I started to shift in my seat and sink lower, I guess he must have felt my uneasiness because he laughed at a not so funny part of the movie.
I loved to hear his laughter, it clamed me so much. After about ten of fifteen more minutes, he shifted and I felt and saw his hand on my right shoulder.
I could have bet that entire theatre could hear my heart beating; the first thing that crossed my mind was 'Oh my Gosh he likes me too!'
All I could do was blush and let my eyes rest on my hands.
Then I noticed his other hand was making its way to my left hand but a little nervous I just moved it to tug a loose hair behind my ear.
I didn't think he had mutual feelings for me; I was not prepared for this.
What I thought would happen is we'd go to the movies, and we would talk about why he took me of all people to my first homecoming then he would take me home and I'd think nothing of it.
I was so excited.
I left my hand fiddling with my necklace. I think he got the idea I was nervous because he didn't try to go for my hand for another ten minutes.
Then the movie started to get funny and I relaxed and edged toward him a little as he tried to tug me close. Then his hand wrapped around my shoulders more and I let my hand go to his and we started to hold hands.
By this time we were cuddling, my head against his shoulder and his head resting on mine.
Then I noticed his other hand was coming for my other hand and I let him take it.
Then he shifted up in his seat a little so I was now had my head against his chest and could hear his laughter, breathing and his rythmatic heartbeat.
Soon he started to rub my hand with his thumb, and it just felt so right there with him like that.
This continued on throughout the movie until the end we just got up like nothing had ever happened between us.
Then he asked where we wanted to go and I said WalMart. (Inside Joke)
So we went to Wal-Mart and I talked with a couple of friends that worked there and bought three key chains and a couple of bumper stickers.
Well we headed home and when we got there I invited him in for something to drink.
He accepted the invitation and walked in and sat on the living room couch.
Well when I got the drinks I told myself, don't sit next to him on the couch, don't sit next to him on the couch.
Unfortunately my subconscious betrayed me and I did.
I sat his drink on the coffee table and he scooted over to me and grabbed it leaning back and taking a sip out of it.
So feeling a bit more relaxed that he made the move to scoot closer I leaned back next to him.
He put his arm around my shoulder and we started to talk about our friends and families and some funny memories we had of my old Lieutenant.
Soon we ended up with him leaning his back against the arm rest and me against his chest while we were holding hands.
Well by the end of the night I was laying fully down on the couch and he was sitting next to me. We had found out it was 1oclock in the morning and he had to leave, well he bent down to kiss me but I sat up, I wasn't ready for that yet.
He helped me carry the cups in the kitchen and then I walked him to the door.
There was an awkward silence as we said our goodbyes, but he opened up his arm for me to hug him and I walked into his embrace and as we hugged he kissed me on the head.
When he left I feel to the floor that was the most amazing night ever for me.
Our first kiss was on our third date.
My Tuxedo Mask was looking excellent as ever.
We had decided to watch the "Pirates of the Caribbean." At my house.
Well about 1/3 of the way through the movie we were cuddling. We didn't kiss though!
But after the movie was over which was about 9:00 p.m. we decided to flip through the T.V. channels and see what was on.
Well we decided on "Who's line is it anyway" it's a comedy.
Well we were going through another awkward silence thing and he asks, "Do you mind If I as you a question?"
"No!''
"Have you ever been kissed?'' he asked
Oh my heart was about to leap out of my chest.
"N-No" was my reply
"Do you wanna give it a try?' he asked.
By now I was blushing and I said yes.
Well he leaned over and kissed me, it was the most passionate kiss I ever had.
Heck it was my first and it felt great I'll never forget my Tuxedo Mask.
Unfortunately he thought the age difference was a problem and broke up with me.
I still am crying over him night and day.
So if you are reading this my Tuxedo Mask I love you and I will never forget you even if you don't feel the same.
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I can still remember the day my Tuxedo Mask and I had our first date.
It was on January 23, 2004, we were going to see a movie and I was so excited. I had been crushing on him for a long time; it was like a dream come true to go on a date with him.
He came at seven to pick me up wearing his usual outfit, and I was wearing a denim skirt and a light blue shirt with my dads' winter coat on.
Dad had recently past away and my mom and I were left with the house, when I walked into the room he was talking with my mom and she asked me if I was wearing lip stick.
I could tell he was looking at me and looking to see if I was, but I told her know and said high to him.
That was the most embarrassing time of my life.
Then we walked outside and got into his camaro, he drove down to the theatre and we walked on in.
We started to fuss on who was going to pick the movie, but after five minutes I told him to go pick one and surprise me and I would be at the bench near the restrooms.
Well he came over and sat beside of me, we were early for the movie so we decided to sit outside and watch some people I knew from my old school fro a while.
Once we thought the movie was about to start we headed in to the room we would need to be in.
Next we debated on where to sit, we eventually decided to sit on the left side where there was two people seats; he sat on inside, I on outside.
We were watching the movie All about Polly. Well about a fourth of the way through the movie I felt something against the tip of my hair, at first I thought it was the people that were sitting behind us, but I looked out of the corner of my eye and it looked as if he had put his hand behind me over the seat.
Well nervous I started to shift in my seat and sink lower, I guess he must have felt my uneasiness because he laughed at a not so funny part of the movie.
I loved to hear his laughter, it clamed me so much. After about ten of fifteen more minutes, he shifted and I felt and saw his hand on my right shoulder.
I could have bet that entire theatre could hear my heart beating; the first thing that crossed my mind was 'Oh my Gosh he likes me too!'
All I could do was blush and let my eyes rest on my hands.
Then I noticed his other hand was making its way to my left hand but a little nervous I just moved it to tug a loose hair behind my ear.
I didn't think he had mutual feelings for me; I was not prepared for this.
What I thought would happen is we'd go to the movies, and we would talk about why he took me of all people to my first homecoming then he would take me home and I'd think nothing of it.
I was so excited.
I left my hand fiddling with my necklace. I think he got the idea I was nervous because he didn't try to go for my hand for another ten minutes.
Then the movie started to get funny and I relaxed and edged toward him a little as he tried to tug me close. Then his hand wrapped around my shoulders more and I let my hand go to his and we started to hold hands.
By this time we were cuddling, my head against his shoulder and his head resting on mine.
Then I noticed his other hand was coming for my other hand and I let him take it.
Then he shifted up in his seat a little so I was now had my head against his chest and could hear his laughter, breathing and his rythmatic heartbeat.
Soon he started to rub my hand with his thumb, and it just felt so right there with him like that.
This continued on throughout the movie until the end we just got up like nothing had ever happened between us.
Then he asked where we wanted to go and I said WalMart. (Inside Joke)
So we went to Wal-Mart and I talked with a couple of friends that worked there and bought three key chains and a couple of bumper stickers.
Well we headed home and when we got there I invited him in for something to drink.
He accepted the invitation and walked in and sat on the living room couch.
Well when I got the drinks I told myself, don't sit next to him on the couch, don't sit next to him on the couch.
Unfortunately my subconscious betrayed me and I did.
I sat his drink on the coffee table and he scooted over to me and grabbed it leaning back and taking a sip out of it.
So feeling a bit more relaxed that he made the move to scoot closer I leaned back next to him.
He put his arm around my shoulder and we started to talk about our friends and families and some funny memories we had of my old Lieutenant.
Soon we ended up with him leaning his back against the arm rest and me against his chest while we were holding hands.
Well by the end of the night I was laying fully down on the couch and he was sitting next to me. We had found out it was 1oclock in the morning and he had to leave, well he bent down to kiss me but I sat up, I wasn't ready for that yet.
He helped me carry the cups in the kitchen and then I walked him to the door.
There was an awkward silence as we said our goodbyes, but he opened up his arm for me to hug him and I walked into his embrace and as we hugged he kissed me on the head.
When he left I feel to the floor that was the most amazing night ever for me.
Our first kiss was on our third date.
My Tuxedo Mask was looking excellent as ever.
We had decided to watch the "Pirates of the Caribbean." At my house.
Well about 1/3 of the way through the movie we were cuddling. We didn't kiss though!
But after the movie was over which was about 9:00 p.m. we decided to flip through the T.V. channels and see what was on.
Well we decided on "Who's line is it anyway" it's a comedy.
Well we were going through another awkward silence thing and he asks, "Do you mind If I as you a question?"
"No!''
"Have you ever been kissed?'' he asked
Oh my heart was about to leap out of my chest.
"N-No" was my reply
"Do you wanna give it a try?' he asked.
By now I was blushing and I said yes.
Well he leaned over and kissed me, it was the most passionate kiss I ever had.
Heck it was my first and it felt great I'll never forget my Tuxedo Mask.
Unfortunately he thought the age difference was a problem and broke up with me.
I still am crying over him night and day.
So if you are reading this my Tuxedo Mask I love you and I will never forget you even if you don't feel the same.