AN : not mind just playing with it a little. JK Rowling is a much better writer
than I. Thanks for letting me play with your Characters. *bows*
CHAPTER 1
Harry Started down the hall into the dungeons towards the potions masters office.
He wasn't sure why he was down there. He didn't know why he wanted to talk
to Severus. But he did and now he wished he hadn't bothered. Standing outside
Severus' office was the man himself and Remus Lupin. They were standing very
close together.
Harry watched them. They were obviously lovers. It couldn't be denied by those
who saw them together. For several minutes all Harry could do was stare at the
two of them. Harry felt his heart clinch. He loved them both and it saddened him
that he would never be able to tell them. He couldn't break that up. Love was the
one thing Harry would never mess with, no matter how much he wanted it. It was
never his to have. He knew that and gave up on it a long time ago.
With a sigh he turns and walks back towards his own rooms. Whatever he wanted
to say to Severus wasn't important. He couldn't interrupt the two professors as
they talked so intimately with one another.
As he entered his rooms he closed and warded his door. He moved to the couch
and flopped down and just stared into the fire. He didn't know how it had all
happened. It wasn't like he was looking to fall in love with them. But it had
happened and he wasn't sure when it started. It was not a sudden thing. More
than anything it just a gradual thing. Little did he know that it would make his
being at Hogwarts painful at the best of times. Devistating at the worst of times.
Only thing that kept him there was wanting to see them happy. To be there as
A friend for them. It's what had kept him sane until now. However, now he
felt like it was killing him inside and he wasn't sure he could spend another year
here with them.
As the afternoon wore on Harry slipped deeper into a depression he had kept at
bay until now. He curled up on the sofa and let the tears slip down his face to
drip unhindered on the pillow under his head. He had to leave. He couldn't
stay here and see them anymore. He would go see Minnie after dinner to turn
in his resignation. 4 years of seeing them was enough for one lifetime.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Down in Severus' quarters Remus and Severus were sitting together on the
sofa sharing an afternoon brandy and talking of general things. It had become
a routine with them to do this every evening before dinner and for no other
reason than to let go the stress of the day.
This evening seemed different though. Remus was distracted by his thoughts
and Severus noticed the slight frowns that would filter across the normal calm
unstressed features of the warewolf.
"Remus, what's bothering you tonight? You seem a world away," Severus asks
Remus in concern.
Remus glances over at Severus with a frown but says nothing for a few minutes.
How did he broach this subject without causing a fight. He knew Severus still
did not like Harry. Even after all this time and with how Harry had saved all of
their lives he just couldn't phathom why. Finally he sighs and lifts his drink to
finish it off and stands moving to get another drink. While at the bar he speaks.
"Severus? Something is going on with harry. He's withdrawing from everyone
And I don't know why."
"Remus, I'm sure Potter is fine. He's probably wondering where his fan club is.
It's been too quiet lately," Severus sneers as usual when it came to talking about
Harry.
Remus sighs and turns towards Severus. He wished he would see Harry for who
He is and not for what his father was. Remus moves to sit across from Severus
Not wanting to be close to him at the moment. This whole hatred and jealousy
Of Harry was getting old to him.
"Remus, what is wrong with you?" Severus questions more concern evident in
his voice.
"I'm trying to understand why you won't see Harry as someone other than his
James. They are nothing alike and yet you still treat him as if he is the bane of
Your existence."
"That's because I've seen no evidence to the contrary. I won't coddle him like
you do. And I won't put up with his arrogance." There is a long pause before
Remus responds.
"How long have you known Harry?" Severus frowns, trying to figure out where
this is going.
"I don't see…" Severus starts but is interrupted.
"Dammit, just answer my question!" Remus growls.
"Fine! I guess I've known him since he was 11. So that's what? Fourteen years
Now?"
"Fourteen years sounds about right. And in all that time when did Harry EVER
Play a prank on you? Humiliate you in any way what so ever?"
Severus frowns for a moment, thinking about on the last 14 years. He looks at
Remus and sighs, "Never played a prank, but once he humiliated me by snooping
in my pensieve. Probably told all of his friends about it and had a good laugh."
"No, Severus. He never told his friends about that. He's kept that secret from all
of them for almost 10 years. Only persons he ever mentioned it to were Siri and
myself and that's because he was hurt and angry at how his father treated you and
wanted answers as to why we did what we did then." Remus sighs setting his
glass on the table between them and leans forward to stare into Severus' eyes.
"Has he ever in the last 14 years lied to you? Say anything hurtful towards you
that you knew wasn't the truth?"
"No, but.."
"Outside of having James hair and horrible eyesight, does Harry truly ever act like
His father?"
Severus sighs then looks into the fire unable to stand the sadness in Remus' eyes.
"Remus, he's arrogant, he flaunts his fame. Uses it to get whatever he wants.
He…" Remus interrupts him again.
"Severus! That's enough. The only time Harry ever used his fame was to get the
Warewolf regulations changed so that I and others like me could finally legally
Mate and find jobs and allow me to be his magical guardian until he turned 18."
Remus stands once again and heads towards the door without another word. As he
Opens the door Severus speaks.
"Remus, where are you going?"
"I'm going to go take a walk before dinner. Clear my head before going into that
crowded Great Hall. I'll see you then."
With that he steps out of the room and leaves Severus to sulk alone. Severus gets
to his feet and moves to his labs to finish the last of the wolf's bane potion for
Remus to take at dinner. He starts to play back in his mind what Remus said to
him about Harry *bloody* Potter. He just couldn't get past his feelings about the
boy and he couldn't understand why it bothered Remus so much. Severus starts
in mental conversation with himself one he's had many times.
'Harry Bloody Potter! Why does he have to get between Remi and I all the time?
Why can't he just go away and leave the rest of the Wizarding world alone?'
*Do you really want that, Severus?* Came a voice that sounded too much like
Albus Dumbledore for his liking.
'Go away Albus, I'm not in the mood. I'm just so tired of everything revolving
Around that Potter brat. I just wish he'd grow up or something.'
Severus pours the potion into a goblet and turns to leave the lab.
*Is it Harry who needs to grow up? Seems to me he was always older than his
years. Yet you never saw that.*
'Yes he needs to grow up. No be quiet!'
*No, Severus, I think it's time you listened to what is being said to you. You've
done nothing but degrade Harry for 14 years. All he's ever wanted was friends
and a family that would love him. All he wants is your friendship. Is that too
much to ask of you?*
'Yes. I don't want to be his friend. He's arrogant and stubborn and I don't want
To be around him anymore than I have to. Seeing him on a daily bases even now
makes me want to shake him.'
*Severus, you seem to only see James. He's not his father. He's more like Lily
Than you give him credit for. One of these days you will see it and it will be too
late. You will have missed out on a grand opportunity to know a very bright and
caring man.*
With that the voice seems to fade away. Severus shakes his head trying to clear it.
'Stupid mental voice thinks it's so right. I don't think so.'
Severus picks up the goblet and heads for the Great Hall. Maybe once he's there
he can relax and enjoy his dinner. At least that was his plan.