This Trance/What I've Done
By Andrea Churchill
"Wait, go back!"
As I saw the caption of my past
My expression was at it's fate
I leaned forward all too much
Only to reveal what I've done.
My past flashed across my eyes
Just in that second of time
Where I knew I wasn't in the right place.
At the right time,
Doing the right things,
With the right people.
I dropped to my knees
A stranger I knew for so long,
Asking if I was alright.
I looked over only to see
A blur of confusion and hate
With the familiar song I heard so long ago.
A cry of pain and sorrow filled my eyes;
Troughs of tears, flowing down these rivers once called cheeks.
I walked out on that night,
The night supposedly so special
Oh such a stranger, wondering…pondering…
Through my eyes what I've done.
I walk down these halls with great pride.
"Where are you going, why are you doing this?"
I took that in deeply, I was destined to go so far, never to return.
What happened in my past is unknown.
What path I followed is forbidden.
What my mind went through…confidential.
The only thing I knew at that point was to start over, to be reborn.
I went to the place at which I call home.
No one could realize how much I knew I wasn't at the right place, for my memories blinded my eyes to the very last as the room spinned oh, oh so fast.
Enough, enough, this trance I am cursed to.
Everything that I owned, everything that was a part of me during these times was no more. And I knew at that moment, where I stood oh so still in front of my broken world, I knew It was time to be reborn; to make life what I want it to be…to fix this mess.
For everything I fixed, everything I became, I am oh so very happy of what I've done.