This fanfic was requested by Smeegee-chan (kinda…) but it was mainly just to give me a fanfic to write…I had run out of ideas.
So here it is, a Seifer x Zell fanfic…my very first!
I'm gonna try for angsty this time…I always write 'happy' stories. Prepare yourselves for major OOC-ness…I can't seem to keep them in character, dammit!
Oh well,
Hope y'all like it!
~ Wannon-chan ~
Err obviously this is another yaoi/shounen ai fanfic from our beloved Wannon-chan. If you're not in the know than that means that this fic contains male/male relationships. Not your thing… then don't read this – there are heaps of great heterosexual fanfics that you can read and enjoy! Enjoy the fanfic after taking note of all the warnings. Ooh and if you hate the idea of your favorite character being portrayed as at best misguided and at worst downright EVIL then DON'T read this. Wannon wanted to experiment a bit as she has been getting bored ^.^
~ Smeegee-chan ~
Twisted Love – Part One
A sneeze.
Another sneeze.
Seifer opened his eyes and blinked a few times to clear his vision.
His eyes soon focused on the small form of his lover, Zell Dincht, bent over and attempting to block out the bout of sneezes. Seifer yawned, and Zell looked over at him in surprise.
"…Sorry, Seifer. I tried to be quiet, but this damn cold I have caught me by surprise…" He began apologizing. Seifer just stared at him, and Zell became nervous.
"S-Seifer? Oh, damn, you're mad at me, aren't you? I said I was sorry…" he babbled. Seifer sighed.
"Do you have any idea how cute you are, chicken-wuss?" he asked. Zell blushed.
"What? You can't be serious, Seifer…I'm all gross and sick!" he exclaimed. Seifer turned his back to Zell.
What am I doing? Be strong, Seifer…it has to be done… he thought.
"Get out. Now." Seifer commanded. Zell became puzzled.
"Why?…are you mad at me now?" he asked. Seifer felt himself weakening, but he forced a growl out.
Be strong…he told himself.
"Just go!" he exclaimed. Zell let out a small 'eep' and rushed out of Seifer's room. The tall blonde sighed once he was gone.
How on earth can I do this to him? Seifer wondered.
Because if you don't, things will be worse for him… his heart told him.
Why do these things always happen to me?! He thought furiously, remembering what had happened yesterday…
~ * ~
* Yesterday afternoon, 4:30 p.m. *
Seifer sat in the Quad, looking out at the sea as Balamb Garden sailed along to Fisherman's Horizon.
He heard someone approaching him, and he braced himself for abuse.
Nothing came. Seifer was confused.
After Squall let me come back here, that's all I've received from everyone…not that I don't deserve it. I wonder why they're so quiet? He pondered. He looked behind him to see Zell.
Oh, Zell…you…you're the only one who has given me the love and support I so desperately needed…he thought, as he smiled at the martial artist. Zell smiled back, and plonked himself down next to Seifer. He kissed him deeply, then covered his mouth before he could complain about the public display of affection.
"Shut up, Seifer. I have to tell you something" Zell said, and slowly removed his hand from Seifer's mouth. The taller blonde raised an elegant eyebrow at his energetic lover.
"And what would that be, chicken-wuss?" he queried. Zell frowned, but began.
"I need to tell you that I love you" he said. Seifer felt a great surge of elation flood his system.
Zell…loves me? Someone actually loves me?! He thought. He smiled broadly, before embracing Zell and kissing him with a passion he'd never felt before.
"I love you, too, Zell…what brought about this sudden admission?" he asked. Zell's happy expression left quickly, and the small blonde looked at his feet.
"Uh…I got a mission coming up. A real dangerous one, and I had to tell ya, in case I never got to…" he said quietly. Seifer nodded.
"I'm glad you did" he said. Zell grinned.
"Me too…I'm gonna go train, wanna come?" he asked. Seifer nodded.
"Sure. You go on ahead, I'll catch up later" he said. Zell nodded and leapt up, sprinting to the Training Centre.
Seifer sat there a while, just letting the seaspray hit his face. The wind ruffled his hair, and he licked his lips, tasting the salt in the air.
Why is Zell so good to me? All I've done is tease and torment him his entire life, and yet he gives me everything…his body, his soul…his heart. I don't deserve him…Seifer thought, as a seagull above him let out its mournful cry.
Seifer took a deep breath and expelled it, hoping that all his fears and inhibitions would go with it.
I should go…I don't want to keep Zell waiting…he thought.
Feeling a little more positive about himself, Seifer stood up, and began to make his way to the Training Centre. He was stopped by a hand falling on his shoulder.
Looking over said shoulder, Seifer saw that the sudden distraction had chestnut hair, storm-grey eyes, and a scar – the mirror image of his own.
"Squall" Seifer said, nodding his head in acknowledgement.
The only other person who had given Seifer a second chance was Squall. The beautiful youngster had been the one to allow Seifer back, after all…
"I need to talk to you, Seifer…" Squall began. Seifer nodded, and the two sat down.
"What's wrong, Squall?" Seifer inquired. The other teen's face had taken on an unusual expression.
Squall looked at Seifer for a heartbeat, then just as quickly Squall was kissing Seifer hard. The tall blonde was shocked, but managed to shove the younger boy off him.
"Squall!…I'm already involved…" Seifer said. Squall raised an eyebrow.
"Does it look like I care?! I know all about you and Zell" he said. Seifer's expression switched from shock to rage.
"Stay away from me, Squall…" he said.
The new leader of Balamb Garden snorted and shoved Seifer to the ground, straddling his hips. Seifer growled deeply and tried to escape, but he was pinned down by Squall.
"You'll do as I say, Seifer…or I'll send you away, and make things…unpleasant…for Zell" Squall warned. Seifer let out a cry of anger as Squall began placing kisses up his neck.
"How dare you?! He's your friend, Squall! You really are heartless…" he said. Squall paused in his ministrations to look Seifer in the eyes.
"Is that so? Well you won't believe me when I say that I love you, then…" he said, pouting slightly. Seifer laughed bitterly.
"Of course not…if you loved me, this wouldn't be happening" he said. Squall got up off Seifer, and glared at him.
"Make no mistake, Seifer…I do love you. I'm a very determined young man when it comes to getting what I want, and believe me…I won't rest until you're mine…" he said. Seifer got up and began to walk away, but Squall stopped him.
"Oh, and Seifer? Not one word…" he said. Seifer knew what would happen if he opened his mouth…Zell would suffer.
I won't let anything happen to him! He thought.
"Agreed…" he replied, and walked away.
Seifer's mind was racing. He wanted to tell Zell of Squall's threat, but to do so would endanger the martial artist's well-being.
I know Squall is serious…maybe I should let Zell go…that way I can avoid him being hurt any more than necessary…he thought. His heart crumpled like a discarded tissue at the thought of losing Zell.
But it has to be done…
~ * ~
* Back to present time *
So this is how it has to be…maybe…maybe Zell's better off without me…Seifer thought dejectedly. He's leaving tomorrow, despite his illness…I have to break it off with him today. But what can my reason for it be? Oh dammit. This is gonna be harder than I thought…
Seifer got out of bed, and slowly dressed himself.
"Time to find Zell…" he mumbled to himself, opening his dorm room door. He saw Zell on the other side, and his eyes widened in surprise.
"Zell?! Have you been-"
"-waiting here the whole time? Yeah…" Zell finished for him. Seifer scratched his head.
"Sometimes, you amaze me, Zell…" he said. The smaller blonde struck a pose.
"Cos' I'm so great!" he crowed. Seifer frowned.
"Don't get too carried away, chicken-wuss" Seifer said, and Zell deflated. "Sorry Zell…uh, I need to talk to you about something" Seifer began. Zell was tugging at the sleeve of Seifer's trenchcoat, looking at him pleadingly.
"Hot dogs!…please?" he asked. Seifer couldn't help but smile, and take Zell's hand. The energetic youngster practically dragged the other teen all the way to the cafeteria.
Seifer sat down at a table as he waited for Zell. Finally, the younger boy came back, a plate full of hot dogs in one hand.
"Mmm…" Zell said, licking his lips. "So, there was something you wanted to talk about, Seifer?"
Seifer looked at Zell. He was already halfway through one hot dog, mustard on his face, eyes smiling.
I…I can't do this. Not now…he thought in despair. I'll do it later…maybe…
"Oh yes, I wanted to find out more about this mission of yours…" Seifer lied. Zell swallowed the food in his mouth and nodded.
"Thought you might…well, it's a mission to the Island nearest to Hell…apparently the Hexadragons are overpopulating the island, and we need to reduce the numbers a little…" he said. Seifer smiled.
Mr. Know-It-All-Zell…he's always so serious when explaining things…Seifer thought.
"So why is it dangerous?" he queried. Zell pulled a face.
"Well, you can barely walk a step without being attacked by a high-level, powerful monster. That's the dangerous part" he said.
Next question…Seifer thought.
"Who's going?"
"Me, Selphie, Irvine and Quistis…" Zell listed.
So Squall isn't going, huh? Well, that explains why he chose now to pull this…
Seifer took Zell's hand.
"I'm going to miss you…more than you'll ever know" he whispered. Zell blushed.
"Aww…that's real sweet of ya!" he said. He squeezed Seifer's hand tightly. The tall blonde managed to contain his tears.
If only you knew, Zell…
~ * ~
Zell watched his lover curiously in between demolishing his hot dogs.
He sure is being emotional…is this the real Seifer? The one that's been kept hidden his whole life? He mused. Despite his sudden bouts of stupidity, Zell was actually very intelligent. Sometimes.
The two made idle chit-chat, before returning to their rooms. Zell flopped onto his bed with a sigh.
What am I doing?! I'm leaving tomorrow, there's no way I'm sleeping alone! He thought, leaping to his feet. He dashed down the hallway, pausing outside Seifer's door. A devilish grin appeared on his face, and he knocked loudly.
He heard shuffling noises, before the door was flung open.
There stood Seifer, a foul expression on his face, toothbrush in hand. Obviously he was unimpressed with the disturbance of his nightly routines.
The look left immediately once Seifer saw who was at the door. Zell smiled sheepishly and waved.
"Zell…" Seifer said. His face was lit up with a smile. Zell heard noises coming from inside the room, and his eyes widened in shock and disbelief at what he saw.
Squall Leonhart.
Half-naked, and walking over to hug Seifer from behind.
"Oh, hey Zell…" he said nonchalantly. Seifer had pushed Squall from him, and was now yelling something at the grinning teen, but Zell couldn't hear it. His mind was in turmoil.
Seifer, no…this isn't real. Any minute now, I'm going to wake up, and everything will be fine…he thought, pinching himself. His heart sank as nothing changed.
I-I'm awake?! No…how could you, Seifer? You told me you loved me!
"You told me you loved me!" Zell cried, before turning his back and running.
~ * ~
* Earlier… *
After their little chat, Seifer said goodbye to Zell and the two parted ways. Seifer entered his room to find Squall watching TV.
"Hi sexy" he said with a smile. Seifer's eyes narrowed at him.
"What do you want?!" he snapped. Squall slinked over to Seifer, pouting prettily.
"As if you didn't know…" he whispered huskily. Seifer flinched at the feeling of Squall's breath on his neck.
"Go away, Squall. Zell doesn't leave until tomorrow, and I don't want him getting hurt any more than he's already going to…" he said icily. Squall snorted.
"Have it your way, sexy. I'll just wait right here…" he said, sitting back down. Seifer just grunted and walked into the bathroom to brush his teeth.
He had just picked up his toothbrush, when he heard a knock at his door.
That could only be Zell…it's his knock, I know it…Seifer thought. He shot a glance towards Squall, who was moving to open it with a grin. Seifer grabbed him before he could.
"Uh-uh, you hide in here. I don't want Zell to see you" he said, shoving Squall into the bathroom, and closing the door a little. I swear, I'm going to kill him…he thought, glaring one last time at Squall, who simply winked seductively back at him.
Seifer opened the door. Zell stood before him, waving and smiling sheepishly.
"Zell…" Seifer said. Just seeing him makes me so happy…he thought, before being hugged from behind by Squall. Seifer saw the expression on Zell's face. He was in utter disbelief.
"Oh, hey Zell…" Squall said casually. Seifer pushed the boy off him, and Squall stood there, clad only in a pair of silk boxers, and a sadistic smile.
Oh, that's it…he's dead. Seifer thought angrily, before launching into an angry barrage.
"What the hell do you think you're doing? Where are your clothes?!…Squall, this isn't funny! I'm gonna kill you!" he snapped. Squall continued to grin like a madman.
"Wipe that stupid damn grin off your face, Leonhart! This isn't funny at all!" Seifer raged. Squall stayed silent, but the laughter was evident in his eyes.
That bastard…he's…laughing at me! He's happy about this! Seifer realised. He opened his mouth to say something more, when a sharp cry from behind interrupted him.
"You told me you loved me!"
Zell…he thought, turning to see he was gone. Seifer rushed after the smaller blonde in a panic, Squall forgotten for now.
Zell…
~ * ~
Squall stayed silent and smiling as he watched Seifer run after Zell. He laughed softly once he was alone.
"Perfect…" he breathed.
Once he realizes that I'm the only one who truly loves him, he'll be so much more compliant…and that moment of realization is not too far away now…Squall thought, as he flung himself onto Seifer's bed with a contented sigh.
You're as good as mine now, Seifer…
~ * ~
Zell knew Seifer was chasing him, but he didn't care. He continued to run, and dashed into his room, swiftly slamming the door behind him.
He moved his bed in front of the door, to avoid a guilty Seifer entering.
Once he was sure Seifer couldn't get in, he curled up in his bed, letting the tears he'd been holding back begin to flow. He was so incredibly mad at Seifer right now…just thinking about it made him angry.
He could hear Seifer banging frantically on the door, calling his name and asking for a chance to explain.
Zell just didn't care.
"Go away, Seifer!" he yelled. The normally sweet-natured girl in the room next to Zell's banged loudly on the wall.
"Hey! Can you shutup, please?! I'm trying to sleep!" she cried. Zell sighed, curling into a tighter ball, ignoring everything around him.
Why, Seifer? Why did you do this to me? He thought, before eventually sobbing himself to sleep.
~ * ~
Seifer arrived at Zell's room just as the door slammed in his face. He went to open it, and found he couldn't.
Dammit Zell! At least let me explain! He thought. Seifer began to bang on the door frantically.
"Zell! Please, let me explain!" he cried. He heard Zell's muffled reply;
"Go away, Seifer!"
Seifer blushed as he realised that their quarrel was disturbing others, as the girl next door began banging on the wall, and yelling.
But Seifer was determined to speak to Zell. He glanced at the floor in front of Zell's door with a sigh.
Looks like this is where I'll be sleeping tonight…at least Zell won't be able to get past me…he thought. Seifer removed his trenchcoat, and curled up on the floor, using the previously removed trenchcoat as a blanket.
Sleep claimed him a few minutes later.
~ * ~
Zell's alarm clock rang, stirring him from a strange dream…Seifer and he were fighting…
Zell glanced around the room, and noticed that his bed was up against the door.
Funny…that's where it was in my dream…and Seifer was banging on the door…was that real?!…oh, god. It was real. Zell thought unhappily. He showered and dressed, and began to pack his things, feeling the pre-mission jitters setting in.
Well this is just damn great. I'm leaving on a mission today, and Seifer and I are fighting… Zell thought bitterly.
As soon as he was ready, Zell moved his bed back and opened the door. He was greeted with the sight of Seifer, curled up on the floor, asleep. Zell felt himself become angry, and he stepped over him, beginning to walk away.
I don't have the time, the patience or the right frame of mind to deal with this right now… he thought.
A hand grabbed his ankle.
"Zell…" Seifer's sleepy voice reached his ears.
"Don't. Touch. Me." Zell snapped, kicking free of Seifer's grip. He continued to walk away, and heard Seifer leap to his feet and follow.
"Seifer, leave me alone…" Zell said coldly.
"Please, Zell…let me explain! That's all I ask!" Seifer cried, as they approached the Ragnarok. Irvine, Quistis and Selphie were already waiting, casting looks of disapproval towards Seifer.
"Hi Zell!" they chorused. Zell flashed them his patented toothy grin.
"Hi guys!" he said happily. He joined them, and began to board the ship when Seifer grabbed his shoulders.
"Zell, please!" he begged. Zell glared back at him angrily, before abruptly looking away.
"Seifer, right now I'm so angry with you, I can't even look at you. I need some time to cool down. We'll talk about this when I get back"
If I get back… he didn't say. He brushed Seifer off, and finally boarded the aircraft.
He never looked back.
~ * ~
Seifer couldn't believe it. He watched the Ragnarok take off, his face expressionless.
He never even said goodbye…
End of part one.
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T'would be much appreciated.
~ Wannon-chan ~
P.S. Merry Kiss-my-ass!
I want a PS2 for x-mas…I won't be getting one. Damn New Zealand! WHY CAN'T YOU BE BIGGER?! And…possibly Japan? I WANNA LIVE IN JAPAN!
Uhh…sorry.
~ Wannon-chan ~
Hope you liked the start of this fic… I know I did! If you liked this then never fear more is coming as soon as Wannon writes/types it! Please review below – we adore feedback and comments - be they critical or complimentary – are greatly appreciated. No flames please, they waste your time and burn our sensitive skin!
~ Smeegee-chan ~