This is just a short one-shot about how Ally feels about Kira. Its rated T because I used some VERY mild cursing. I don't curse in real life, so I wasn't sure if I should add it, but I figured that I might as well as it adds more power to the story. Its my first fanfic thats in first person perspective. Anyway, Enjoy!

Ally POV

I don't even know anymore…

Him and Kira. Me and Him. Its so complicated. So nerve wrecking. So… difficult.

He's confused. So am I.

I feel…. I don't really know how to explain it. Hurt? Worried? Annoyed? Guilty? I guess a mix of all of that stuff. Its like, I want to be with Austin, but at the same time I don't.

When I'm with him I feel like I'm at the top of the world. He looks at me so sweetly and he just makes me feel special. All I want to do is hug him and kiss him and BE with him.

But at the same time, when I see him with Kira, my feelings are totally different. I see the way she looks at him, the way he smiles at her, the love between them, and I just feel HORRIBLE. Not because I like Austin, but because Austin likes me. I feel like I'm tearing a rip in the middle of a perfectly happy couple. Breaking the bond between a pair of lovebirds. Destroying the joy in a once strong relationship. It makes me sick. I absolutely LOVE love, and it just makes me so upset to think that I am DESTROYING it.

I mean, just put yourself in Kira's shoes. Imagine that a cute guy asks you out, but you turn him down because you know he likes someone else. But he just insists so much that you finally give in. And then, right when you've fallen for him with no chance of recovery, you lose him. You find out that you've been right all along, that he DID like that girl. But its too late to back out now, because now you like him. Now you need him. Now you can't stand the thought of being without him. What would you do? Would you be angry? Hurt? Upset? Of course you would! Who wouldn't be?

I just feel so guilty! To be honest, a part of me wishes that Kira were—excuse my language—a bitch. A mean, nasty bitch who complains for hours on end. Who completely takes advantage of her boyfriend and doesn't really love him at all. I know its horrible to want that, but I just can't help it. It would make it so much easier. Easier to hate her. Easier to take Austin from her without feeling so much guilt.

But she's not a bitch. She's nice. Sweet. Cute. Funny. She deserves more than this. In all the movies, the "other girl" is mean, and over-controlling, and jerkish, and just horrible. But Kira's not. And that makes me wonder….

Am I the other girl?

Am I the bad guy in this movie? The mean girl who tries to steal the boyfriend from the sweet hearted, cute protagonist using her looks and charm? Am I that person? I don't want to be. I don't want to be the other girl. I just wanna be me. The sweet, dorky Ally who's nice to everybody. Not the horrible, bitchy Ally with the skimpy outfits and slutty attitude. And, inside, I know I'm not the person. I know I'm the same old girl I've always been. But when I look at the things I've done, the things I'm doing, to Austin's and Kira's relationship, I'm just not sure anymore.

I'm scared. I'm guilty. I'm confused. I'm torn.

I just don't want to be the "other girl."

I hope you liked it! Just for the record I don't think that Ally is the "other girl," I just wanted to show how Ally might be feeling at the moment. Since she's such a sweetheart, I assume she'd probably be feeling really guilty right now. Poor Ally :(

Anyway, please review!