What will never happen.
[Tales From the Kingdoms] : Sequel to And yet, I am still hoping. AU. OS. Every story can take a different turn from the one we all know. Here are all the detours that they will never take. Lilith/Snow White. Rapunzel/Belle. Toby/Petra. Petra/Belle. Huntsman/Cinderella. Character Death.
OS 1 : What if it ended badly ?
Warning : Depression + Suicidal thoughts + suicide attempt.
Pairing : Snow White/Lilith
Sometimes Snow White told herself she would have preferred to die. If the apple had been really able to kill her, it would have been really better for anyone, even for herself.
For her friends, the dwarfs, of course, who wouldn't have to be afraid for her, or to fight for her, and who wouldn't be threatened by the queen.
The prince seemed to be someone good.
But she didn't love her, would never, for her, there would always only be Lilith who would matter for her, and no one else.
After that she stayed at the dwarfs' cabin, in their little house, and the prince left.
And slowly, she felt herself more and more fall, without being able to do anything.
She was going to die.
She wanted to die.
And since so much time…
In fact, it was even worst than that.
She really was going todie.
She decided it, and it was going to happen.
In not a long time, princess Snow White wouldn't exist anymore.
Taking the dagger her father gave her in the past so she would defend herself, she looked at it for some seconds, with no words, before she put it against her arm, pressing it against her veins.
And then, she directly cut them.
§§§§
There was blood on the ground.
It was her blood, and she wasn't conscious of anything, of who she was, of what was going to happen to her, of what was just happening.
She just knew that she wanted to see Lilith, and no one else.
And then, she screamed.
She called her for help, and the thing is, she didn't know how magic worked, but the fact is that the queen heard her.
"LILITH !"
The dwarfs found her, and saved her in time, of course, but they were afraid by what almost happened to their little princess.
§§§§
The queen woke up with a start.
What the hell…
She heard a voice, right ?
She wasn't crazy, no ?
It was Snow's voice.
The young woman stand up, her step-daughter's despaired voice (former, in fact, as she was a widow, according to what she heard. It was for the best, she never liked her husband, and if this one lived all his life in war, it was in this that he died) still resonating at her ear, making her tremble.
Because there was no hatred in this voice.
And there should have been, after all the things she did to her, this, the queen was clearly aware of this.
She tried to kill her, and even though since that moment, since the princess' awakening, she did nothing to her, it didn't change what she did.
Lilith was the monster of the story, she was the one they all feared and hated, and she wasn't going to be the one who would change things.
If to stay in darkness allowed her not to suffer, then she would.
Everything so she must not accept her feelings for the young princess, she would accept anything rather than accept the fact that she loved her.
Everything but this pain that was in her since she understood what she was feeling, and that she understood that there was no way for her to escape it.
If she had to darken her heart, then she would never stop.
She decided finally to go out of her bed, and to go to walk a little, persuaded as she was that it was just a bad dream.
Well, this, it was before she heard again the young woman's voice calling for help again.
As if, while she was sleeping, Snow White was unconsciously begging her to come to see her, to search for her, to save her.
But Lilith never saved anyone, except herself and her mother, so why would she start today ?
Except that something woke up in her, by hearing this voice, and she couldn't go back to sleep.
Then she went in the woods, searching for something, wandering a little, letting in reality her legs lead her where they wanted to go.
She wandered that way for the most part of the night, and as it was the morning, she saw that she just arrived in front of the dwarfs' cottage.
It wasn't by chance, in fact, as she walked, her memories of the young princess again swirled in her head, making her terribly nostalgic.
And she was hurt too.
She saw one of the dwarfs – Grumpy, if she remembered well – who was going out of the little house, pale, and seeming tired and depressed, with dark rings under his eyes.
He started when he saw her, and after the fear, anger invaded his look.
Before he was able to say anything, she raised up her hands as a sign of peace, showing she didn't intend to use her magic.
"You, Grumpy whistled, not really taking it into account. What are you doing here ? How do you dare ? After all you did !
- I came here in peace, she said.
- I don't care. You're not welcomed here. After what Sow suffered because of you… Really, just go right now."
She expected such hostility, it's true, but she also needed answers. Why did she heard Snow's voice as she was sleeping ? Why did she feel magic then ? Why did the princess' cry seem so despaired ?
Before any of them had the possibility to talk again, or even to act, the door opened again, and Dreamy get out of it. He did cry, it was clearly visible, and he seemed both sad and resigned.
An air of worry appeared then on Lilith's face, who didn't understand.
What happened to the dwarfs so they would be in such a state ?
What happened to Snow White ?
"She is still not really fine, Dreamy said to Grumpy, walking closer to him.
- What happened to her ? Asked the queen, showing her worry for the princess for the first time since some years."
Grumpy looked at her with despise.
"Since how many time are you interested by it ?
- Always. I know I did mistake, but… this night, I heard a scream. Hers. She was calling for me."
The dwarf in front of her took a deep breath, trying not to get angry.
"Just leave !
- Grumpy, Dreamy interrupted him. It's useless. She already knows she is here. She wants to see her.
- Dreamy, this is not a good idea.
- I know you think I am naive, and I certainly am, but I am almost sure that I am right.
- About what ?
- She needs to see her.
- I have doubts about it.
- What happened to her ? Lilith exclaimed, almost with anger, trying to stay calm."
Dreamy looked at her, and smiled to her, before announcing her, direct :
"She cut her veins. She tried to kill herself, because of you. Because of your hatred, because of what you did to her. You hurt her so much, Lilith, so, tell me, what are you going to do now ?"
Lilith started, and became very pale, understanding how far things went.
"I never hated her. What I did can't be justified, but… I love her, and I was afraid… Afraid because this story will have no good end, and because it wouldn't have worked.
- It excuses nothing, Grumpy said."
Dreamy sighed.
"You're lucky… She wants to see you, and to talk to you. And spoil nothing, this time, okay ?"
She nodded.
"She loves you. Really. Despite what you did. It's the reason why she tried to… well, you know.
- Yes, I know, said Lilith, still pale."
She had so much things to fix that it was frightening.
§§§§
Snow didn't blame her, just holding her hand in hers in a strong way, listening to her apologizes that Lilith made without being able to stop.
The princess put one finger on the young woman's mouth and make her shut up softly, and smiled to her.
"You heard me. You came. It's the only thing that matters."
Lilith trembled and smiled.
After all, it didn't end badly…
How lucky they were.