In case you're wondering guys, the song's My Immortal by Evanescence. Beautiful song if you ask me... but anyway.
Max POV
I stared out the window as the rain poured down outside, watching the drops of water race across the glass, fogging it up, making it impossible to see the outside world. In the background, a radio blared, but I paid no attention to the song playing, preferring to be caught up in my own thoughts. One thought to be precise. Fang. Why had he left? Why did he think that I would be better on my own, that I would be a better leader without my right-hand man at my side? It was the stupidest thing I'd ever heard! Sure, I was distracted when he was around, but I was even less able to focus when he was gone. And this time he wasn't coming back. He was gone. Gone. He'd left me with just a stupid note to explain his actions! How could he do that to me? A single tear crept down my face leaving a trail of coolness in its place and I reached up a hand to brush it away before letting it drop again with a tiny sigh.
It was a month after he left and I'd barely left my room the entire time. If I did then I would see traces of him everywhere and I would break down. I know I would. I just wouldn't be able to help it. I'm pretty sure that if I even sighted black then I would burst into tears. Pathetic, I know. But true.
On the radio, the upbeat song that had been drumming into my consciousness ended and a new one began. This one was softer, more flowing, and the piano introduction had an unmistakably sad and yet hauntingly beautiful melody. It suited my mood perfectly. The singer began and I began to listen without turning from the window.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
You're gone, Fang. I know that now, as much as I hate it. But it feels like you're still here. I keep listening for your voice, looking for your black. I can't help it.
These wound won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
You want me to move on with my life and be a leader. But you hurt me so, so badly, Fang. That hurt hasn't diminished yet, and I doubt it ever will. I feel as if you just took a knife and stabbed me in the heart. In some ways, that would have been easier.
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of you fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You never cry and you never scream. But I know what I would have done if you had. You still have a hold over me Fang. If you came back then I'd probably jump into your arms and never let go, regardless of the good arse kicking that you truly deserve.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
I've always been fascinated by you. You would seem so dark and distant all the time and then you would hold Angel, or muck around with Iggy, or sometimes just look at me and I'd see that you weren't some emotionless freak after all. You were beautiful.
You left me, and I don't know what to do without you. How the hell do I go on without my second in command? Iggy's been trying to fill your place, but he's nowhere near as good as you were, and he knows it. He doesn't deny it.
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Will I heal? I don't know. It'll be a long time before I do. If I do. I'm a complete wreck and it's your fault. If we ever see you again, then the flock will murder you for what you did to me. They're hurt too, you know, Fang. They don't understand why you just up and left, with only a note to explain why. They're confused.
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fear
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I won't deny it, Fang. I still love you. I doubt I'll ever get over you. You really were perfect for me, Fang. Everyone knows that to have a good relationship with someone, then he has to be your best friend before your boyfriend. Dylan doesn't come close to what you were to me. Sorry, Dylan.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you still with me,
I've been alone all along
I really have tried to let you go Fang. Really. But it's just so hard to know that every time I go to sleep, I will wish that the next morning you'll come and wake me up, apologise for leaving, promise never to go again. And I'll be happy once more, because you're with me again. But I know that'll never happen.
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
All of me
Me
I turned away from the window as the song ended and sighed. I miss him so much. I can't believe that he would just ditch me like that. It was kinda heartbreaking.
And I know that although on top I couldn't have been more pissed at Fang for leaving, my feeling for him deep down haven't changed a single bit.
I don't think I'll ever get over you, Fang.
Well that was... depressing. Oh well. Review please, peoples :)