Fang's POV

I sat on the edge of the bed, my hands in between my knees and my head in my hands.

I couldn't move, couldn't breathe, couldn't think, and couldn't live. Yet I was for this was my punishment. I hadn't left my bed in hours.

Hadn't slept, hadn't eaten, hadn't done anything but sit here and wallow in my pity. It hurt to move, it hurt to think, it just hurt. All I could do was replay that last scene over and over again in my head and wonder 'what if?' What if we hadn't had that fight before hand? What if my last words to her had been 'I love you' not those hurtful words I had spat? What if I had gotten there quicker? What if I had listened to her? What if?

*Flashback*

"I don't know Fang" Max sighed looking up at me and I saw the fear that no one else could see.

"What are you scared Max?" I teased. "No. I'm just not sure we should be jumping head first into something like this" she said. "Since when did you not want to jump into something?" I asked.

"Yeah but, I just have a bad feeling. Maybe we should go back to mums and plan this out first" she added. "Max it's not every day we get to destroy an ITEX building" I said shaking her.

"True. Ok, I'll go get the others and we'll head off" Max sighed heading for the cafe` that the rest of the flock was in.

An hour later

"Fang!" Max screamed. I spun around and saw her running towards me.

I was so stupid! Of course they had been ready for us. I had led the whole flock into a trap.

We had spent the last 10 minutes fighting our way out of an unescapable trap. All our faces were covered in dirt, sweat and blood.

Erasers and fly-boys were everywhere. We couldn't win.

"Max! Fang!" Iggy called. "I have a bomb!" He yelled holding up a bomb he had just made in like a minute. "Set it Iggy!" I called back and he nodded. He ran into the heart of the fight and lit up the bomb.

The rest of the flock were running for their lives. Max was running behind me and I realized no one had stayed behind to help Iggy escape. I turned and saw Iggy get knocked to the ground. He turned towards the bomb and I yelled his name, but he had already heard it. He looked towards me with sad eyes. Like me he had realized the bomb's fuse was short, and it was about to blow.

Max stopped and turned to look at Iggy. "Max get Iggy!" I yelled for she was closer than me. "Fang, it's too late. We won't make it" she cried.

"Max stop being a bitch and get Iggy!" I yelled at her, crying now.

She gave me a sad look then ran towards Iggy. She pulled him to his feet and pushed him as hard as she could and he half ran, half flew and fell out of the way.

I screamed as the bomb went off. The last thing I saw of Max was her sad and knowing eyes as the fire indulged her.

*End of flashback*

I didn't remember much after that. Iggy and Nudge managed to half carry, half drag me back to Dr. M's house.

I still remember her face as she saw all of us but Max walk back through the door.

I remember how she just fell to the ground and screamed.

I remember Nudge's silent tears, silent for she barely ever spoke for the next few days.

I remember Iggy trying as hard as he could to take control and comfort everyone, but the guilt was getting to him.

I remember how Gazzy spends his time just sitting in the corner, staring at the wall.

I remember how Angel refused to leave her room.

I remember Ella crying nonstop, even Iggy could make her smile again. It had been my fault.

I had killed Max.