Authors notes:
Saddest episode ever :(...Steph's thoughts on the death of her husband, set to the song Far Away by Nickelback.
This time, this place
Misused, mistakes
Flowers blew across the pavement, petals dancing in the wind and spinning through the air, on to the dark tarmac road. Her eyes alighted on the road. That place…It looked no different to any other stretch of road, but it was. That was where it had happened. Where her tears had fallen as the world shattered around her.
Too long, too late
Who was I to make you wait?
If she hadn't been so difficult, so insistent on everything being so perfect. If she had just done what he wanted for once… Niall might not have been there. He might not have been driving so fast. Tom might not have run into the road. Max might have got out of the way in time. They might have saved him. Maybe…
Just one chance, just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
Everything they could have done, the life they could have had, every time she closed her eyes it danced in the darkness. Teasing, taunting, daring her to rage against the cards dealt to her by fate.
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
That day, she had glided. They had flown around the dance floor: floating, flying high. So high…Then they had fallen so, so far. Max even further, away from her, away from everything. And he was never coming back…
Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of it to hold your hand
She closed her eyes, remembering. Remembering it all! The bad times had been there, but they had worked through them. And the feeling…The feeling when they were together and everything was good. She could fight for anything, fight forever, for him.
I'd give it all, I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
Everything they had been through, it didn't matter any more. She would give up everything she owned for one more kiss from his sweet lips. Together they were strong. Alone…she was nothing.
I wanted you to stay
Cause I needed to hear you say
She needed him here, she needed him to wrap his arms around her and hug her tight, press her body next to his warm heart, to hold her and whisper in her ear…
That I love you, and I have loved you all alone
And I miss you, been far away for far too long
Her tears fell faster now, so fast. How could she go on like this? How could she live with this emptiness, this space, this gap where Max should be? How could she live without him?
I keep dreaming, you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing, if I don't see you any more
"Hold me in your arms, Max." She whispered, her words blown away in the wind like so many petals. "Hold me tight and never let me go." Gently laying her flowers down, Steph Cunningham walked away, her eyes lost in the face she could never forget.
Keep breathing, cause I'm not leaving you any more
Believe it, hold on to me and never let me go…