JACOB

Yearning for Learning

When I walked into my dad's, he was already celebrating. Already knew the good news. I couldn't get past it yet. We had defeated the most powerful, well until today the most powerful coven in existence, the Volturi. Per se we did not defeat them but rather used logic, not my logic but Bella's. Today was a great day. Ness would be staying for a long time in Forks.

What I couldn't get over was the fact that Ness had six and a half years until she was fully grown. That meant that after that I could hopefully grow with her. Well, technically before that, she would probably be way older than me because she was way smarter. I mean way smarter. She made me feel so stupid sometimes. Well she would, I should do what Bella said and continue school. Possibly studying at the Cullen's, I could help Ness too and she could help me. It made sense.

Maybe I should talk to Quil about Claire, though he wouldn't understand my view much because Ness was growing at a much faster rate than Claire. He could help, could off insight or rather the other way around. Maybe I should just stop all this and just flow. Flowing made more sense, I should stop analyzing everything.

Falling asleep was much too easy. My mind wondered to Ness. I wanted to make sure that she was okay. That everything was perfectly okay. Someday though, I would know without having to wonder in my dreams. Someday she would be by my side.

The only thing I worry about is the half-vampire. I know she can't kill me but the blood drinking will worry me. Will our kids be the same way? Our kids will be totally weird, half-human, quarter-vampire and quarter-werewolf. School would be totally out. Though that would be okay cause Ness would be totally smart enough to teach our kids.

Another thought, what if we couldn't have kids? That doesn't make sense though. She has changed so much. You have to change to have kids. Why am I thinking kids anyway? Ness is still a baby, no matter how old she looks or sounds. Children are still years away because she is still a child so to speak.

My dreams sure do take a crazy turn. I should really just sleep more often. This must be what sleep deprivation feels like, maybe I am just going crazy.

"So now long has he been out?" Seth asked

"A day." Replied Billy

"Not bad, he must have been really stressing about things."

"Yeah, I think he's getting up soon though."

"Can you two shut up?"

"Told you."

"Hey Jake, Bella told me to tell you that Ness wants to see you. She misses you."

"When did you see Bella?" I asked alert now

"This morning."

"I got to go."

Quickly I changed and left. I was worried about Ness. Had something happened to her? I ran all the way there.

"Jacob. Hello, how are you?"

"Bella, where is she?"

"Across the river with Ness and Edward."

"Thank you Carlisle."

"Is everything okay?"

"I don't know. Seth told me Bella told him Ness wanted to see me."

"Oh."

Then he understood.

I ran across the river, smelling for Ness.

"Jacob, I am so glad to see you."

"Ness." I said as I picked her up

She touched her hand to my cheek and showed me her morning. She had woken up and missed me terribly, had missed me all that day and afternoon, she was worried about me.

"Oh Ness you shouldn't miss me."

"I did though."

"You are talking more?"

"Yes, I want to be able to converse both ways."

"Oh."

It made sense right. That meant she was maturing and what not. Maybe school or tutoring would be beneficial now that most of the threat has ended. I would be here all the time or most of the time seeing Ness anyway. Maybe Edward or Bella could help.

"Jacob?"

I turned slowly, forgetting my own thoughts

"Yes?"

"I would be willing to help, if that is what you want."

Ness looked at me confused, with her hand still to my cheek she wanted to know why Edward had said that

"My dear Ness, if I don't keep on my studies you will be much too smart for me."

"Silly Jake, just read lots. Dad does."

"Nessie, I need to sleep just like you." I said teasingly

"I know. I miss you sleeping so close."

"Maybe tonight I will stay, kind of like an every other night thing."

"Oh would you." Renesmee beamed

"Yes, Ness I would."

"I want to show you something."

"What?"

She showed him this beautiful meadow that she had found exploring close to the cottage. A perfect spot for just escaping or reading, she wanted to help too. It was something they could do together.

"That would be perfect."

I eyed Edward cautiously. It seemed that he was okay with Ness wanting that. Not quite thrilled like I was but okay.

"What will we read?" I asked

Ness showed me everything that had been read to her and everything that she had read.

"That's a lot."

I was surprised, already I felt stupid. Would I really be enough when she got older? Would my mind be as quick? I needed to hurry and get started on this.