Chapter 1
Luke awoke suddenly, sweating and trying to catch his breath. He had just had another dream about the court case and Anna's bitchyness and as much as he didn't want her to get to him, it seemed she had. Even though he had actually gotten partial custody, some of the words exchanged had hit him really hard. For some reason, her saying that he had bailed on Lorelai hurt him deeply. Luke knew it wasn't completely true, but maybe she was right to a certain extend and her words were haunting him at night when he closed his eyes and went to sleep.
Lorelai was lying in bed staring at the ceiling. She knew what she had to do and she was glad that he had accepted it. Even before Chris' disappearance act and hostility towards her when her dad was in hospital, she knew it wasn't right and that she had been kidding herself all this time. Looking back she knew from the moment she walked out of Chris' front door the night after sleeping with him. The night she lost Luke; the love of her life and the one man whom she never thought she would have and when she did, she never wanted to lose him. But she knew that they couldn't go on they way they were and that she had to speak up. She should have talked to Luke about April and all her own insecurities after him not letting her in to this new part of his life, but she had been so scared of pushing him and end up losing him. Well, she thought to herself, I did end up losing him anyway and married Larry. "I am going to miss having a middle with the only man I ever really loved." Lorelai looks at the alarm clock and sees it almost 5 am. She smiles as she remembers the dream she had some years back, before her and Luke had even thought about dating. She was pregnant with his twins and when she later that year told him about the dream he had seemed happy and maybe even wishful that one day that dream would become true. Lorelai sighs deeply and sits up in her bed. It has to go she thinks to herself. Luke was there for her when they went shopping for new bedroom furniture and now she had had sex with Luke's arch enemy Chris in that bed. Come to think of it, she thinks and looks around, everything has to go. Chris has jaunted everything.
Luke looks at the clock and sees it's just after 5 am. Realizing there is not point going back to sleep since he has to be up in about an hour anyway, Luke gets up and goes to have a shower. As the hot water covers his body he thinks of Lorelai and the letter she had written. It was more amazing that Luke had ever imagined it to be and after hearing it he knew that he had never not been good enough for her. But it was too late for them now; Lorelai had married Christopher and even though they had broken up now and on the way to getting divorced, Luke knew that he had lost Lorelai for good. The hot water from the shower has a soothing effect on Luke and as he leathers his body in soap he instantly finds himself somewhat excited and slightly erect. Whether it was the water and him touching himself or it was the thought of Lorelai, he couldn't help but reach down and gently touch his hardness. Lorelai had always been Luke's dream and the only one he saw himself growing old with. She was funny, even though she would she could drive him crazy with her non-stop babbling, and she had the most perfect body and her smile and eyes would light up a room so much that you would need sunglasses to keep the shine from hurting your eyes. Luke groans in the shower and pleasures himself while the hot water covers his toned body. When he gets out of the shower to get dressed he catches himself looking out the window towards Lorelai's house. A smile appears on his face. It's snowing. Luke can't help but feel excited and remembering the night Lorelai dragged him out into the street in the middle of the night because she could smell the snow. He quickly gets dressed and slowly goes outside to feel the cold and the falling snow on his face.
Lorelai gets out of bed knowing she wasn't going to sleep again. After having a nice hot shower and 2 cups of coffee she goes to take Paul Anka out for his morning walk. Though today it was a really early morning walk and Paul Anka didn't seem too impressed with walking before the sun rises. As she opens the door she discovers that it is snowing. She smiles because she normally knows exactly when the first snow is coming but this time she must have had other things on her mind. It's still dark and cold and Lorelai goes back inside to put on a hat and some gloves. Paul Anka loves the snow so despite the fact it's early he is excited to go out. She decides to walk to the town square and let him off his leash there. It should be safe since no one is up this early she thinks to herself, closes the door and takes off.
Luke is walking slowly in the snow thinking about his life and how things went wrong so quickly. He knew he would always love Lorelai but he also knew that she was so hurt by everything that there was properly never going to be another chance for them to work things out and start over.