Author's note: Not every chapter will be Jeremy writing in his journal, although his journal will be more common than the actual diaries in The Vampire Diaries. I'm not as confident in my writing as I'd like to be, but I wouldn't mind any feedback you might have. By the way, Jeremy is kind of out of character, but I tried to make his character somewhat believable. Also, any future chapters will likely be much longer.
Jeremy's Journal: Entry #1
How do I write a date if I'm writing my future?
Why did I cross those words out in frustration? I don't know. Or maybe I do. The truth is, that is the truth. How am I supposed to write a date when I'm writing about my future?
Maybe I should record the date... for Elena, at least. One day, whether it be during my lifetime or not, Elena will think about mortality. She will think about her brother Jeremy, and maybe think a bit more about what I have to say, or at least what I wanted to.
Elena, if you ever do read this, I'm not angry at you. I mean, it's hard not to be mad at you sometimes, but you're still my sister. A sister that happens to be a you-know-what, even though I'm someone who is supposedly destined to kill you.
You know what? I'm not going to just write "you-know-what" whenever I'm writing about a vampire. It's unnecessary, and avoiding the word isn't going to make the difference I hope it might. I don't care if my destiny is to be a vampire hunter, because I'm not going to follow it.
If my tragic and brutal life has taught me anything, it's that vampires just don't "go away". They'll always exist, and I will always have to watch my back. Nothing I could ever do would stop the existence of vampires, and the danger would still be there regardless of whether my memories have been erased with compulsion. There will always be a threat of some sort, even if I don't see my sister as a monster. That doesn't make me a vampire hunter though. If anything, I'd swear it makes me human. If vampires have a "humanity switch", maybe I do as well.
The reason I'm writing all of this is because I have made a choice. I have made a choice to attend the Arts program at Duke University. Elena, I'm sorry I didn't pick Whitmore, but there's a reason. First, their art program just isn't for me. Also, even if I'm avoiding you... I need space. I need to be able to get grades without compulsion, and to study without watching a bunch of vampires party, and to fall asleep without wondering when I'm going to learn about yet another terrifying supernatural being in our world.
I've packed my bags, and I'm writing this at the bus stop heading to Duke University. I'm going to do my best to manage with the threat of vampires at every corner, and I'm going to live my life the way I choose instead of pointless endeavors that have a good chance of killing me anyways.
I can see the bus pulling up from around the corner. I guess the only thing left to say is...
University will be a walk in the park after all that I've been through.