When I met Ponyboy, I knew that he was good friend material. He was quiet and a good listener. But most of al, he had been through almost everything I had.
That night at the movies, I wanted to tell him everything. Everything about my horrible childhood and teenage years up to that very day sat on the tip of my tongue, ready to burst out at the right time.
But that time never came.
As much as I wanted to tell Ponyboy, I couldn't risk Dallas, Johnny, AND Marcia hearing. Marcia may be my best friend, but she has no clue why I've missed countless weeks of school ever since kindergarten or why I'm so sensitive about drinking and death. Bob only knows a little over ΒΌ of my past.
Ponyboy would understand, I told myself. Just ask him to go get a drink with you and ditch the others for at least 5 minutes. So I asked, but before I could tell him, a question popped out that I had been holding in all night.
On the walk home, I learned more about him than I think even his brothers knew. I think it scared him how easy it was to talk to me about everything that bothered him. It scared me too.
Bob and Randy caught up with us and that's when everything changed. Bob's death added to my extremely long (and growing) list of childhood/adolescent tragedies. I still had the urge to tell Pony everything, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. So I kept it a secret from yet another person.
Every day I dreaded seeing his green-eyed, bleach-blonde haired self. I wanted so badly, needed in fact, to tell him and everyday the need intensified. But I wasn't the only one who kept a secret. It seemed to me that everyday since Ponyboy and Johnny returned from Windrixville, Ponyboy had gotten quieter and quieter.
Sure, he would still attempt to say hi to me at school, but I ignored him. I was afraid of the bond. I didn't know, however, that he knew I had a secret.
This chapter was basically summing up the events before she spills to Pony. The story will be mostly in Cherry's point of view, and a few chapters when she starts telling Ponyboy her story will be in Ponyboy's point of view. But assume that it's in Cherry's point of view unless otherwise specified. I hope everybody likes it. I kept thinking about writing something like this, because I realized that out of all the Outsiders fanfics, none were about Cherry's past. Please tell me what you think. I hope nobody had this idea before me. It's my first Outsiders fanfic, so please no flames!