HIRO POV

I sighed while taking a sip of my nice warm coffie... today was a long day. Another day of pretending, another day of loneliness, in this small apartment. I' m not complaining, my life is great. I have friends, money, and a nice girlfriend.

But sometimes, I think about what I don' t have... shuichi.

Don' t get me wrong now. I respect yuki-san, and I love watching him make shuichi so happy. Yet, I still think about this little pinkhaired boy crying, getting raped, and suffering all because of that blondehaired pretty boy. Eiri yuki...

Ding-dong.

(Would could that be? I didn' t invite anyone... )

"Hey baby hiroshi! " Yuuji said as I opened the door. He walked passed me, not bothering to ask if he could even come in, and dropped a bag of booze down on the floor nearest my couch.

"What' re you doing here idiot? " I asked scarcasticly.

"Hey, hey, don' t be so mean, shindou-kun called and told me you were alone and he couldn' t come himself because he was busy on a date with eiri yuki-san. So I came. " My brother said, a huge grin covered his face.

I sighed, "Thanks for the drinks, I was just about to get them myself. "

"No prob. " He replied.

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"Hiroshi, what' s been going on with you lately? "

"Hm? " I said, opening my third drink, or my forth, I wasn' t really sure.

"Shindou-kun has been calling non-stop asking about you. "

"I see, "

"So what' s up? "

I sighed once more, and looked at my older brother for several minutes. "Ni-chan, you said we could talk about anything with eachother right. "

Yuuji stared at me with narrowed eyes, "Yeah... why? "

"You remember when I didn' t know shuichi? "

"How could I not? You were really quiet... "

"Exactly, did you see me act that way in high school? "

"Actually... no. "

I stopped after that, hoping my idiot brother would understand what I said, but he was probably gunna ask what I meant.

"What do you mean? "

Figures...

"I love him alright? " I blurted out.

Yuuji stared, it was then when I thought I had made a big mistake.

"Have you told him? " He asked.

"No. "

"I see... well you' re gunna have to. "

He stepped torwards the door and opened it.

"Yuuji! You have to promise not to tell him! " I yelled.

The older sibling turned around. "Alright I won' t tell him... but you should. " He said.

He left the apartment, leaving me to think.

"I' m sorry ayaka. " I said to myself. "But if shuichi never loves me in return... I can' t ever love someone again. "

THE END.

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(sniff) Poor hiro, if he were real I would comfort him until he felt better! I love him so much! (sob)