On top of everything else.
Story between Emmett and Rose, because their personalities are the best to fit this new idea. Its going to be all human because again that is what will work best for this story. I've been thinking about this idea off and on for a while now and I think it will help me more if I type out a story for it, so … here goes nothing.
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or anything else of Stephenie Meyer
Summary: The what if game that plays in people's minds in life. That game is mean but this is my story.
Rose is Emmett's best friend from when they were all little kids. She knows him better than anyone else and being Emm, well he needs someone that understands his strange ways. Emmett has always been more of a girl chaser and as they grew he turned into a slight womanizer but its not all that simple. He isn't bad or anything he just makes things very complicated for himself. Now they are just out of high school and Emmett went from Mr. Popular to having very, very few friends. Most of which our his family. Emmett also just ended up breaking up with his on and off girl friend, Jade. See, Emmett had a crush on their other friend Grace and as much as he cares for them both things just don't work out well when Emmett likes two girls. Besides, Grace has a boyfriend and things have always been a little rocky between him and Emm. Well with all the stress in his life right now, Emmett has been a total mess for a while and Rose really worries about him.
"Are you coming to hang out tonight or what Emm?" Rose huffed as she sat next to him while he just stared at the floor.
"Probably not, you guys can just go on without me ok." Emmett answered without looking up. "I'm not in the mood to go out tonight. Maybe I'll just sit here and try to think about what I did to make everything so messed up."
From the other chair Emmett's brother, Edward sighed in the back ground. "Come on Emm, you knew nothing was going to happen with you two and it was YOU that broke up with Jade." Edward said sounding incredible bored with his brother.
Rose turned to glare at Edward and he quickly shut up and slid down into his chair. "Oh Emmett, I think you really should come with us. It will be fun and you need time out of the house." Rose tried to reason with him again. "Besides, you know this isn't your fault. You have no control over the stress in your life or who you end up liking or fall in love with so, its not your fault."
"I'm ruining her relationship with him and I completely trashed my friendship with her, how is that not my fault?" Emmett said stubbornly and it was with more life than Rose had seen in days. "Of course this is my fault, its always my fault!"
Alice, Emmett and Edward's slightly younger sister was sitting on the other side of Emmett on the couch. She leaned into him and gave a half hug. "I'm sorry Emmy, I know how you must feel but its all going to be ok. I promise and PLEASE come with us?"
Emmett looked down at his sister and tried to smile, to everyone else it looked genuine and real but Rose could see past the bull shit and saw the pain he was trying so hard to hide. "I know Sis, but I'm sorry I just don't feel up to a movie right now. I can promise you that I will be ok, soon but for now I just want to be left alone. Please guys, can't I just have some time alone?"
Not another word was said, Alice stood up and slowly walked out the door quickly followed by her boyfriend and Rose's brother, Jasper. He was just as worried about Emmett but more worried that Alice worried so much about her brother. It didn't take long for Edward to convince Bella, his girlfriend of 3 years to leave so the only people left in the living room were Rose and Emm; sitting on the couch. Rose crossed her arms over her chest and huffed once, when Emmett didn't bother looking up at her she sighed and just stared at him, unsure of what to do next to help her friend.
"Do you really want to be left alone Emmett?" She asked softly and she hoped he couldn't hear the slight fear in voice.
"I don't know, maybe." Emmett said in a dull and dead voice.
"Should I leave too, then?" Rose asked as she started to stand to leave, knowing he would want to be left alone, but Emmett grabbed her hand as she stood and pulled her back down to sit next to him.
"You don't have to leave Rose." Emmett said softly but he held her hand in his with an iron grasp.
Rose simply placed her other hand over both of theirs and gently squeezed. "I don't mind." She whispered but in her mind she was very grateful, she wasn't as willing as the others to leave him here.
"Why do I always do this Rose? …" Emmett asked after a while of silence. "Why do I always find someone I care about and then ruin everything by falling for her friend? Why can't I just be happy and stay that way or why can't I just be better?"
"Emmett, this isn't your fault. You didn't do anything wrong, everything you've done … you were just trying to do what you thought was for the best." Rose explained to him again.
"It doesn't feel that way to me." Emm said gravely. "I feel like this is all my fault and that maybe I should just give up on everything. I'm not worth anyone anyway."
"Emmett. Cut that out." Rose said sternly but then she softened her voice again. "Emmett you know you are a great guy, you're funny and strong and caring. You're a great friend and you make people smile all the time. What could possibly be wrong about that?"
"HA, caring… yeah, I think that's my problem." Emmett said without an humor even though he laughed slightly. "I end up caring too fucking much and then everything just goes to Hell. I may be able to make people laugh but I barely have anyone in my life any more. Everyone I knew and cared about is gone!"
Rose tightened her hands around his, she hated to listen to his pain, hated to see him like this but even more she hated that she couldn't do anything to help. His words would hurt her much more than he would ever know but all that mattered to Rose was making him smile again and not that fake bull shit smile but a real one. Rose understood that he was just upset and didn't mean what he was really saying but hearing him say that still hurt. How could it not, he pretty much just said that she didn't matter to him. She knew that wasn't true, more than anything she knew that but it still hurt to hear him say. But she would worry about that later right now she had to fix him, as best she could for the time being.
"Emmett you know, you still have people here that care about you. Its not just your family." Rose said with a smile she hoped he would look up to see, he didn't. "I know you lost of lot of people after school ended and that you have a lot of stress right now but you can't just give up on everything. We all need you."
"But what can I do? I can't fix me if I can't figure out what is wrong with me." Emmett said and Rose realized again that he wasn't even listening to her anymore, she wouldn't stop trying. "I mean honestly, I don't know HOW to stop this. I want to be happy and I want to be happy with the girl that I'm with but I can't."
"Well, maybe you just haven't found the right girl yet." Rose tried again, trying anything to help, to get him to listen again. "I'm sure some day you will find the perfect girl for you and that some day everything will be better. Emmett I really hope things get better."
"What does it really matter? I'm a horrible boyfriend and I'm a horrible friend!" Emmett said throwing his arms in the air while at the same time releasing Rose's hands to fall limp in her lap. "I JUST SUCK AT EVERYTHING! I can't do anything."
Rose was getting a little angry now, she hated nothing more than when he would talk down on himself like this. "YOU are not a horrible friend Emmett Cullen and you are not a horrible boyfriend. Its not just your fault that things haven't worked out in the past for you. Like I said, you need to find the right girl for you." Rose had her hands on her hips and stared intently at him.
Emmett finally looked up and turned towards Rose. "Yeah, well what if your wrong? What if there is no girl for me?" Emmett said and then sighed. "I'm destined to be alone and miserable."
"You are not!" Rose said stubbornly now. "Emmett you will find her, just give it some time. Everyone has someone, maybe more than one some ones so just give it some time and things will work out in the end, Trust me and you'll see."
"I hope so, but you're probably wrong." Emmett said simply as he sat back and went back to watching the floor.
"I'm not." Rose said with conviction.
There wasn't anything said for a short moment. They both just sat there in silence. Emmett continued to think that he was the problem and that there was no fixing him while Rose sat back and worried about her dear friend who was in so much pain and she couldn't do anything to help him. She felt so lost and hopeless herself.
Alice suddenly comes rushing back into the room. "Rose are you coming or not? We have been looking all over for you." She said as she pulled on Rose's arm in a hurried motion.
Rose took one last look at Emmett sitting next to her and sighed. "Yes I'm coming Alice. Just give me a damn minute, would you." Rose said sharply and then Alice left the room again.
…
Emmett still refused to come so Rose left with the gang to go see a movie and just hang out for a while. Rose was still thinking about how worried she was about Emmett and how she wished she could be back there with him, to help him. But honestly, what could she do? Everything she tried only seemed to work for maybe a little while but it ended up making things worse later on. She was clueless and it was driving her crazy. She wanted him to get better and just be happy again. She only wanted him to be happy.
"Someone needs to knock some bloody sense into him again." Edward said about Emmett as they were all sitting around talking. "I mean really? … This isn't that big of a deal? Get over it!"
Rose glared at him for a while but then just sighed, she knew she would be thinking the same thing if it was anyone else. But it wasn't … this was Emmett sitting alone at home and that made it different. She couldn't handle this the same as if it were anyone else, to just tell him to shut up. Tell him what his problem was and what needed to be done to fix that problem. She couldn't do that because it was Emmett with the problem and doing that to him would only hurt him more and at this point Emmett wasn't listening to anything she was saying anyway, not really.
"What do you think he is dealing with Edward?" Bella asked as she glared at him but not nearly as much as Rose would have liked. "Emmett is hurting right now and we should be there for him. We should all try and help him because he is our friend."
"Oh I know what he is going through." Edward said confidently. "Emmett always does this to himself. He is self-destructive and he can't seem to help it but its getting worse now."
"Its true, we can all see that." Jasper agreed with a frown.
"Emmett just needs someone to knock some sense back into him. Tell him what he is going and to cut it out." Edward continued on.
"And What would you tell him, Edward?" Alice asked sharply.
"I'd tell him the truth." Edward said simply. "I'd go up to him and tell him straight up, Bro you always do this. You start off with 2 girls, 1 girl you're with and 1 you're friends with. Things start going well and your brain starts thinking 'Hey, this is too good. I should do something about this.' SO you start liking your friend a little more than you should and than a little more, while at the same time things start shaking up with the girl you're with. Pretty soon you have fallen for your friend and have fallen out with the girl you were with. Also for some reason you can't be with your friend so you become depressed and upset."
"Its not all that easy. What about this time around with Jade and Grace? This was different." Bella said sadly.
"No its not really all that different, just that Grace had a doughbag boyfriend and that things between him and Emm have never been good so it blew up in his face this time." Edward answered and this time Rose cringed slightly, no one noticed. "Of course this time I would have to tell him that all that stuff with face book was to blame. That all happened and you obsess over your friend that you can't have and then other girl, the girl you were dating becomes nothing to you. You forget all about everything else around you just because you can't be with this other girl that you fell for. Then before you know it, you really are left with nothing."
"Edward, you can't really tell him all that!" Rose said suddenly.
"Why not? He needs to hear it from someone and it's the truth, Rose. Look back on his history and tell me its not?" Edward said.
"He just needs to find someone that understands him and that knows how to handle his little character traits." Rose said defensively, she didn't like it when people talked down on him, she always felt like he did enough of that himself. "You can't just make him feel worse like that because it won't do him any good. He knows what he is doing he just can't help doing it."
"He just needs to find someone that is worth having him." Alice said cheerfully and Jasper smiled next to her for her.
"How can he do that, when he doesn't think it is worth being with anyone?" Rose asked to herself, under her breath. All she wanted to do was go back home and make sure he was alright, or at the very least call and see how he is now. Maybe she could just text him, leave a message on his phone and just be there for him. So she got her phone out and under the table started typing.
Rose text to Emmett:
Hey : ), how's it gon'?
She though she would have to wait a while but almost intently she felt her phone vibrate in her hands. She looked down to see what he said back, expecting him to tell her to leave him alone.
Emmett text to Rose:
HEY! Haven' fun? I'm ok.
Rose smiled and was about to answer his text when her phone buzzed again, she looked down again but then her smile fell.
Emmett text to Rose:
Well, not ok but I'm not horrible.
Rose text to Emmett:
Aww I'm sorry! I wish you were better! {Message deleted}
Aww, I'm srry Emmy. {Message sent}
Rose wished she could just tell him how much all this was hurting him but if she did she would feel worse. Rose knew Emmett too well and knew that he would be worried about this upsetting her if she let him know just how much it was killing her. She couldn't do that to him, not on top of everything else he has to deal with.
Emmett text to Rose:
You ok, you didn't answer my ?
Are you having fun?
Rose text to Emmett:
No. I'm too worried about you {Message deleted}
Yep, every 1 is haven' a Gr8 time. {Message sent}
U should've come.
Emmett text to Rose:
Meh, I'm fine here.
Rose felt her cell phone buzz again after reading that and before she could answer his message or even read the last message she felt someone tap her shoulder. She looked up to see everyone staring at her now. They all had different looks on their faces.
"Hello, earth to Rose!" Alice said waving a hand in front of Rose's face and smiling. "Having a human conversation here!"
"Rose stop texting your secrete boyfriend and get back into the real world!" Jasper said teasingly with a wide smirk.
"She wouldn't have a boyfriend that WE don't know about, Jazz." Alice said confidently while Bella nodded with her. "WAIT! You don't have a boyfriend, do you Rose?"
"Oh grow up Allie!" Rose snapped while glaring at her brother. "You know, you and Bella would be first to know. I was texting Emm to see how he was doing."
"Just leave him be." Edward said. "There isn't anything you or any of us can do for him so just let him ruin his life!"
Rose felt her phone buzzing again. She couldn't help but looking down again to see the two messages she missed.
Emmett text to Rose:
Are U sure, your alright?
Hey, Rose? … Are you there still?
Rose text to Emmett:
Yeah, srry. Annoying Brother.
I'm ok.
Emmett text to Rose:
U don't seem ok. What he do now?
Rose couldn't help but smile at this text. Emmett always knew when she was fibbing and when something was wrong with her.
Rose text to Emmett:
Joking about me have'n a bf.
Emmett text to Rose:
… a boyfriend? Do you have one?
Rose hesitated before she even tried typing this text. He knew the answer was no because Rose told Emmett everything, or at least he knew everything because most things he dragged out of her but the point was that he would have known.
Rose text to Emmett:
No, of course not. Boys are stupid. ;) jk
Emmett text to Rose:
Ha ha. Yes, yes we are.
A minute passed and no one texted anything.
Emmett text to Rose:
You sure you are ok?
Rose text to Rose:
Yeah, I think we R leave'n ttyl!
Rose couldn't handle talking to him if he was going to keep asking her that question. She didn't want to stop talking to him, that was the very last thing she wanted but she couldn't stand that question. She knew that she asked him the same thing more often then he probably liked but he never ran away from her, he always wanted to talk to her and wanted her to stay no matter what. Even when all he wanted was to be alone, he allowed her to stay. Rose often wondered how much of that was because he wanted her there and how much of it was because he knew she wanted to be there. She often questioned his actions. Emmett could always tell what she wanted or what she needed, sometimes without her having to say anything, sometimes with out her having to be around him. Like when they would text and Emmett would just know something was bothering her. She had never had to deal with that before but she liked that Emmett knew her so well and that she knew him in the same way. They really were great friends for each other. … But what if that wasn't the case? What if it was all just an act, for Emmett at least. Rose was sincere and she felt that Emmett was to but what if him wanted her around so much was just to make her happy? How could she deal with knowing he really didn't want her around him but allowed it anyway to make her happy? Rose just stared at her phone under the table for a while and wondered.
"Earth to Rose. Come in Rose?" Alice called again from across the table and Rose looked up to see what the annoying girl wanted.
"Yeah, what do you want Alice?" Rose asked snapping back to life.
"We are getting ready to leave." Jasper answered in stead.
"Yeah, Emm has had plenty of time alone now." Edward said then.
So, they all went back to the Cullen house only to find that Emmett had left the house and no one knew where he ran off to or why?