Puttin' my defences up
'Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack
I'm Sandra Pullman, I don't do falling in love or anything so pathetic as that. Never have and I doubt I ever will. Don't get me wrong I have had relationships but I've never done the whole love thing. Relationships are just for the fun of it, to have someone there but I don't see the point in any deep connection such as love, maybe that's why I have such strained relationships with those I care about most; like my mum.
Never put my love out on the line
Never said yes to the right guy
Never had trouble getting what I want
I've had plenty of relationships, it's not like I've slept around but I've never been with any one who really made me feel special or who I felt I had a connection with. I can easily turn on my girlish charm and instantly get what I want but I don't want that anymore, I want someone to instantly know what I want and need and if that means doing the whole falling in love thing then so be it.
But when it comes to you, I'm never good enough
When I don't care
I can play 'em like a Ken doll
Won't wash my hair
Then make 'em bounce like a basketball
That was until you, you make me feel like a girl again without having to turn it on and off but I don't feel you want me too, I know you make jokes about how much of a stunner I am. You could never be serious though, I may be blonde and quite petit but I'm not your type and the thought of that just makes me want to give up and I don't know why.
But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear high heels
Yea you, make me so nervous
That I just can't hold your hand
You make me glow, but I cover up
Won't let it show, so I'm
Puttin' my defences up
Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack
You make me feel so happy by just being around and as annoying as your cockney accent is I just want to listen to it all day and you telling me you love me. I think my feelings are starting to show though and now the automatic barriers I have are going down to protect myself. I can't fall in love it's not worth the trouble.
Never break a sweat for the other guys
When you come around, I get paralyzed
And everytime I try to be myself
It comes out wrong like a cry for help
It's just not fair
Pain's more trouble than love is worth
I gasp for air
It feels so good, but you know it hurts
You know something's up, it's not fair that you can see through me so easily. The pain of hiding whatever I feel, which is by no way love as I don't believe in it, is far too much trouble. This isn't me, I'm tough as nails Sandra Pullman the toughest blonde in the met but yet when it comes to emotions and you I may as well be a newborn I'm that weak.
But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear perfume
For you, make me so nervous
That I just can't hold your hand
You make me glow, but I cover up
Won't let it show, so I'm
Puttin' my defences up
Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack
"Sandra? What's going on?" He asks bringing me crashing back to reality.
"What do you mean?" I ask him. I know exactly what he means though, I told you he could see through me.
"You aren't your efficient self, new man is it?" Maybe I'm not as transparent as I thought, he knows there's a man but is seemingly oblivious to the fact it's him and yet that deep down makes me ache.
The feelings got lost in my lungs
They're burning, I'd rather be numb
And there's no one else to blame
So scared I take off and I run
I'm flying too close to the sun
And I burst into flames
I know you're getting closer to the truth but I will not admit it, I can't and even if I did what the hell would I say?! 'Yeah so Gerry I don't believe in love and I'd probably have a heart attack if I did but I feel something about you and it's driving me mad.' Yeah that'd go down well.
You make me glow, but I cover up
Won't let it show, so I'm
Puttin' my defences up
'Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack