Delusions and Dreams

Law stumbled down the streets of Dressrosa. They hadn't won. He walked with no sense of direction. He had promised Sanji, Nami, Chopper, Brook, and Momonosuke that they would return to them. Law didn't know it would turn out like this. Tears flowed down his cheeks as he stumbled though the streets lined with bodies.

His foot tapped a body. Looking down, Law cried even more at whose body was at his feet. He dropped down to his hands and knees before him. Memories of the White Town came rushing back to him. "No...NO! This isn't how it was supposed to go! How could this have happened?!" Guilt hit him like a wave as he gathered the body in his arms.

Law cradled the person's head in his arms. His tears fell onto his face. He was holding the dead body of Monkey D. Luffy. He had finally accepted Luffy as his friend only for him to be slain by the hands of the one he swore to protect him from.

"Luffy-ya, I am so sorry," he cried. "Please, forgive me. I...I didn't want it to turn out like this." He pushed his face into Luffy's hair. "I take full responsibility for this. I was supposed to keep you safe. I promised your crew you would come back." He rocked back and forth as he rubbed his face into his hair. "Please, I want them back. I would give anything to bring them back. GIVE THEM BACK TO ME!"

"Fuffuffu. What's wrong, Law? I thought you would be happy to be rid of them." He heard the footsteps behind him. "Aren't you glad they're dead? Now, You aren't responsible for them."

Anger, grief, guilt, and sadness hit him. "No! I brought them into this mess! I was supposed to protect them! That's why I told Straw Hat-ya to stay out of it! To keep them all safe!" He turned to glare at the man. "To keep them safe from you! You were my responsibility to take care of you! My obsession to complete! Not theirs!"

Doflamingo walked closer to him until he stopped right behind him. He crouched down to his level. "Then why did you ally yourself with weaklings suck as them? If you knew it would turn out like this when you came here and challenged me, then why did you bring them along?" Law closed his eyes and cried into Luffy's hair even more.

"Because I am an idiot that thought I could use them to get rid of the factory while I bought them time," he sobbed. "Because...Because I knew I couldn't get the job done without them."

"Then, yes. You are the one to blame for their deaths." A kiss was placed on his head. "You will have to live with the fact of knowing that you were the cause of such a disaster. No one else is to blame but yourself." Doflamingo wrapped his arms around him. He shrouded Law in the darkness of his coat as he hugged Luffy tighter to his chest. "My special, broken Law."

...

"NO!" Law screamed as he woke up. He felt a hand be placed on his shoulder. Snapping his head to look up, Law saw Nami sitting next to him. She was sitting on a chair next to the bed he was on. Tears poured out of his eyes as he looked away from her with shame and guilt. "I'm sorry...I'm so, so sorry," he cried. He didn't want to face her. It reminded him of his failure.

"Law, what are you sorry about?" She placed a hand on his forehead. "Your fever has come back."

"I...I got them killed. They died because of my stupid agenda." He looked to the side. "My stupid obsession." He went to stand up. "I...I need to leave." Law took a few steps when he was on the ground and almost fell down if Nami hadn't caught him." No. Don't help me." Law pushed away from her. "Don't help someone like me."

"Chopper! Something is wrong with Law! I think he's getting worse!" Law stumbled out of the room. He just wanted to die. It was only befitting for what he let happen.

"Law, who did you get killed?!" Nami called after him. He blindly found his way out of the place he was in. All that he saw before him was the dead bodies of his friends and allies.

"I promised you that they would come bac..." Law almost fell again but grabbed the wall before that happened. "I couldn't save any of them. Your friends died on that island..." He pushed off the wall and continued to walk to the outside.

In his mind, all he saw was his broken promise. The body of Robin was to the left of him on her side with blood pouring out of her stomach while Usopp was face down in a pool of blood. Zoro was a few feet away from Robin, decapitated. Franky was farther down and missing a lot of pieces. He couldn't believe he had let it happen. "Nami! Where is he?!" He heard Chopper but didn't see him.

"He walked outside! Should we contact his crew to get them to come and help us?!" No. I am not fit to be their Captain anymore. If I can't even keep the others safe, the what makes them thing I can keep my own crew safe?

"No. I am no longer their Captain. Not after what I have done." Law saw the ocean before him. It was so close and yet, so far. Just fall over the railing and I meet my end. That's all it takes, right?

"Luffy! Get him to stop! He's heading for the side of the ship!" Chopper yelled.

"Stop! He's dead! I saw him with my own eyes!" He hiccupped. "I saw them all before me..."

"Nami, what's Torao doing?" Law laughed at the sound of Luffy's voice. It was a hollow, empty, broken laugh. The laugh of a broken man that has nothing left in his life.

"What cruel and horrible torture," he whispered. Just as he made it to the side where the ocean was, Law was tackled to the ground. He struggled to get out of the hold. "No! Let me die!" He looked at the person and only saw blond hair. He freaked out. "No! I won't stay with you! Get off of me! Let me go!" He struggled even harder to get away. "I would rather die that to go with you, Doflamingo!"

"Law! Calm down! You're sick and delusional!" That voice was Sanji. He didn't want to face the man. More tears fell down his face. "Chopper! Can you give him something to sleep?!"

"Yes! But that might hurt him right now!" Chopper sounded extremely worried. Law continued to cry and struggle to get away. He even tried to bite him.

"If we leave him alone right now, there is a chance he will try to do that again and succeed!" The weight above him scared and worried him.

"Please, just let me die," he begged in a small voice. All the fight in him left. He didn't want to live if Luffy and his crew were dead because of him.

"No. You're just delusional. After some more rest and something to eat, you'll be okay." Law felt a needle get stuck in his left arm. A kiss was placed on his forehead as his mind started to drift off again. "We can't lose you. I can't lose you. Not again." Law was confused. He didn't have time to think about it before he drifted off back to sleep.

...

"Law, what are you doing up this late at night?" Law turned to the cook. He was smoking a cigarette, as usual.

"I could ask you the same thing." Law looked back out to the sea. "Black Leg-ya, can I ask you a question?"

"Sure. What's on your mind?" He sat next to him as he smoked.

"What about me do you love?" It had been eating at him for a while. Sanji had confessed to him and Law had accepted his love. He had started to have feelings for the cook as well.

"Hm. There are many things that I love about you. I can tell you some, if you like?" Law nodded. "First off, I love your looks. You are handsome but at the same time, beautiful."

"How am I beautiful? I'm a man." Law never looked over to him.

"Well," smoke passed into his vision, "you are handsome in appearance but the way you move and fight is beautiful." Law just nodded. No one had ever said that to him. "Another thing that I love about you is that you are smart and easy to be around."

"How so?" Sanji laughed.

"Well, you understand more things than Luffy and some of the others. Your attitude is fine with me even though you seem grumpy a lot." A hand was placed on his hip. "Plus, you accepted my love even though I am a man."

"I was actually surprised to know that you love me, considering you're always flirting with the women." Sanji kissed the side of his head. Law sighed.

"You are the first man that I have ever harbored these feelings for." He went quiet for a moment. "I was shocked that you like men as well. You look like you could have any woman you want."

"Women are very hard to get along with at times." Law thought about it. "Take Nami-ya for example. She gets angry quicker than anyone I have ever met before."

"Yeah. I have to admit that she is hot-headed at times but she can be really nice when she wants to be." Law saw the smoke stop. He knew he had stopped smoking. "But, you and Robin get along great."

"She's more of a friend then a potential love interest." A smile graced his face. "Add to the fact that I think she either loves Tony-ya or Roronoa-ya, she is more of a friend than anything else."

"I see." There was silence for a bit. "What do you think about Luffy? You two seem to be pretty close."

Law smirked. "Do I hear jealousy, Black Leg-ya?" The hand on his hip tightened.

"So what?" Law laughed.

"Straw Hat-ya is a handful when I come to visit you. He doesn't listen to me all the time and always seems to get me to spill things that I wouldn't normally tell people." He sighed. "He's a good kid and I see him as a best friend or maybe a younger brother."

"Okay." He heard the relief in Sanji's voice. "What do you think of me?"

"You are good looking and polite to me at times." He thought for a moment. "I like you a lot and accepted your love because I have the same feelings." He smirked to himself. "You do tend to get annoying at times when you fawn over women."

"Hey." Law smirked to where Sanji could see it. "I'm not annoying."

"You can get annoying with it." He remembered something. "It got weird when you fawned over me the first time." Law didn't like how the others stared at him like they did. They were all shocked along with him. "Roronoa-ya wouldn't leave me alone about it for a couple of days."

"Sorry. It was my fault. I should've asked if you were okay with it." A kiss was placed on his head again. "I was just so happy that you accepted me that it just happened." Law pushed at his face when he went to kiss him again. "Hey, what gives?"

"No more kisses." Law moved away from him a little. "I accepted you because I had developed feelings for you over time and was glad that you felt the same way." Sleep was calling to him. He yawned. "I'm going to bed. Thank you for your time." He grabbed Sanji's chin and turned it to the side. Law placed a kiss on his cheek before standing up. "Goodnight, Sanji-ya." With that, he left a stunned Sanji on the deck in favor of his bed.

...

Opening his eyes, Law recognized the ceiling above him. His head hurt, his chest hurt, and he felt like shit. What happened to me? Why do I feel so horrible? To be honest, he didn't remember much before he woke up. All he knew now was that he was on the Thousand Sunny. Law sat up.

The door to the room opened and Sanji walked in. He didn't seem to realize or notice that he was awake. "Black Leg-ya? What happened to me?"

Sanji almost jumped two feet in the air. "Shit! Don't scare me like that!" He was holding his chest. After the initial shock, Sanji came to sit in the chair next to the bed. "A few days ago, you got sick while we were exploring a jungle island." Law raised an eyebrow. "We left you alone for a few minutes. Next thing we knew, you had disappeared from the group. The whole crew went searching for you. We split up to cover more ground."

"What happened after that?"

"Well, when we found you, you were unconscious and looked like you had caught some kind of sickness." Sanji took a drag from his cigarette. "You were running a dangerously high fever and were mumbling stuff that made no sense and we could hardly understand what you were saying. When we got you back to the ship, your condition got worse. You started to sweat even though you were shivering and your fever got higher." Law felt bad. "The other day you woke up and started to have delusions about something. We couldn't quite piece it together that well. Something about everyone had died."

Law remembered that. He knew what he had saw. "The...delusion I had was the probably the product of the fever, I believe. In my mind, instead of Luffy-ya defeating Doflamingo, he was killed along with everyone else." He looked away. Tears threatened to fall. "I...I blamed myself for it." Law tightened his grip on the blanket that was covering his bottom half. "I...When I saw Nami-ya, I didn't know how to tell her. I thought it had actually happened. I...I was scared that it was real."

A hand was placed on his shoulder. Law looked to Sanji. "The best thing is that you are feeling better and not having delusions. It wasn't real and you know that."

"Torao! Are you feeling any better?!" Law rolled his eyes as he stayed sitting up. Luffy burst into the room like someone had died. He rushed to the bed side and wrapped his arms around Law's waist. "Torao, are you okay?"

"Yeah. I feel better, if only by a little bit." Suddenly, a violent coughing fit hit him. Luffy let him go and both him and Sanji gave him worried looks.

"Luffy, go get Chopper." Luffy nodded before leaving the room. Law didn't feel so good anymore. It had hurt his throat. "Law, are you okay?"

Looking over to the cook, he saw him going in and out of focus. "Shit." He put a hand to his head. "This isn't good." He coughed again but less violently. "I hate getting sick. I never wanted to be sick after the first time."

"What happened the first time you got sick?" Law opened his eyes and looked over to Sanji.

"I'll tell you some other time." Sanji agreed. Law was thankful for it.

"I understand. You will tell me when you're ready." Sanji sat down just as Chopper entered the room with Luffy behind him.

"What's wrong?" Chopper sounded worried.

"Law started to cough. It's really bad." To prove Sanji's point, a coughing fit hit Law again. "See? Do you have something to help him?"

"I can give him some cough medicine, but that's about it for now." Chopper looked worried. "It will put him back to sleep soon after taking it, though."

"No *cough* I don't want to *cough* face that again," Law said between coughs. His head hurt and his chest felt as if it was clogged up. Another coughing fit made all three concerned.

"Law, you need to take something to get better," Chopper said.

"No! I don't *cough* want to see my friends *cough* dead again!" he shouted. He moved to stand out of the bed. "You don't know *cough* how *cough* horrible that was." He rose off the bed and swayed where he was.

"Law, where are you trying to go?" Sanji stood to help him. Even Luffy was ready to help if needed to. Law was starving, dehydrated, and sick.

"How long have I been *cough* unconscious?" He still swayed. He looked over to Chopper. "After my delusion?"

"About four days." Law nodded.

Taking a few steps, he almost fell to the ground if it wasn't for Sanji. "Torao, I don't think it's a good idea for you to go anywhere. You should get better," Luffy commented.

"I'm starving, thirsty, *cough* and I feel like shit." Sanji helped him back into the bed. "I don't want to be in *cough* bed."

"I will get you something to eat a drink. Just take the medicine and I'll be back before you fall asleep, okay?" Law grumbled an agreement before Sanji left with Luffy trailing behind. The was thankful for their concern but still hated it. Chopper gave him a cup of the medicine.

"You know better since you're a doctor as well." Law wanted to argue. "You know that it will help you even if it makes you sleep." Law took it without saying anything.

When he was finished, he handed the empty cup back to him and leaned back on the head board. He coughed. "Sorry."

"It's alright. You need to get better. Sanji has been skipping sleep and meals because of you." Law looked to him before he left. That stupid idiot. He shouldn't do that because of me. He is neglecting himself and his duties over me. Law didn't like knowing that.

Slowly, his consciousness started to fade. "Sanji-ya, I won't be up when you get back." He leaned over until his head rested on his shoulder. After a second or so, he fell asleep again.

...

"Law." He heard someone calling his name." Law, you need to wake up for a bit." Law opened his eyes and saw blond hair and smoke.

"Cora-san, I told you that I'm not hungry." He pushed at the man. "Just let me sleep." He turned away from him. "I'll eat later."

"Law, get up." Law's eyes shot open. He knew that voice.

"What do you want, Sanji-ya?" He turned back over to face the man. He still felt horrible.

"I brought food and some water." Law sat up. He was so tired. Sanji placed the tray on his lap and sat back down in the chair.

Law put his spoon in his bowl. Soup. Bet Chopper-ya told him that it is all I can eat right now. Law brought the spoon up and ate the first spoonful. "Sanji-ya."

"Yeah?" He could smell the smoke. It was just like Corazon.

"I'm going to hurt you when I get better," he promised as he continued eating.

"Why? What did I do wrong?" Law lifted his head to glare at him. Sanji looked confused and upset about his comment.

"Chopper-ya told me what you did." Sanji paled at that. "You shouldn't neglect your duties and health because of me."

"Sorry that I was worried for you," he retorted. Law reached out and grabbed his cheek. "Ow! Quit it! Let go! It hurts!" Sanji struggled to get away from him as Law finished his soup. He was satisfied because Sanji was always a great cook.

After a moment longer, he let him go and watched Sanji rub his cheek. "That is the most I can hurt you right now." He practically downed the water in one go. It felt better and his cough wasn't back yet.

"It's like Zeff when I was little. He hurt me when he could." Law laughed. He had heard a lot about Zeff from Sanji.

"I bet you deserved it, too." Law looked up to find him glaring at him.

"Not true." Law smiled. "It was mostly accidents."

"Yeah right." Law laid back down. Sanji moved the tray. He set it on the table beside the bed. Law grabbed his arms and tugged him into the bed.

"Law, I could get sick, you know?" Law snuggled up to his back.

"It's just for a little while. Please?" Sanji sighed before turning around in his arms. Law was pressed into the man's chest and arms were wrapped around him. It made him feel safe as he slowly drifted off.

Hope you like this first chapter. There will be more updates in the future. Please, tell me what you think if you like it or find something I could work on. Have a great day and I care about you all. Tatty-bye!