AUTHERS NOTE: hey guys! this is my first fanfic, but I have been reading fanfiction for like a year now. Anyway, Im a fan of Edward and Bella, and as you might be able to tell I'm not a huge jacob fan, but he isnt going to be some monster in this story either, so im neutral on him. My stories can be a bit funky at times, but I hope you enjoy them a lot and I would love reviews to see where I can improve or just your opinions on the story. I already have another chapter made up and Im going to Edit it and put it up soon. Bare with my spelling please, I do my best to spell check and look over it, but there may be a few mistakes I missed. Ok enjoy!

Ch. 1: a marriage or a funeral

Bella P.O.V.

I hope Edward gets back soon. He has been gone for so long, at least it seems like so long. Every time Edward goes hunting with his family I always feel so alone. Since I spend almost all my time with Edward or Alice, I naturally, have very little to do whenever he is hunting. Making the pain of him being gone magnify by 10.

Sitting next to this very old, rarely used, computer made me think about Rene. Every time I get a chance to e-mail her, I always promise I will e-mail more, and end up never doing so. Therefore, when I do go and check my e-mail I have about a million e-mails from Rene asking me how I was and how I was going with my college situations. Fallowed by e-mails that started with "BELLA ARE YOU OK?!?! I HAVEN'T HEARD FROM YOU IN WEEKS!!!" or "Why don't you ever e-mail me anymore?" you know, things to make me feel extremely guilty.

When my computer was all done loading, sure enough, there were 15 new e-mails from her. I sighed as I went and opened the first one. Answering few questions, and when I did, they were vague answers. I wish I could just tell them everything that was going on. I wish we could just be one big family like the Cullens, but alas that has been proven it cannot be. At least not yet. Not with Charlie being, well Charlie.

When I finished responding to the e-mails, assuring Rene that I was alright, college decisions were being made, and Charlie hasn't burned down the house, I went and sat on my bed. I was instantly bored again. I considered doing homework, and that was a bust. I either saw Edward's name all over the page, or Jacob's. I have been thinking about Jacob a lot lately.

I want things to be fixed between me and Jacob. I want Edward and Jacob to be best friends. I want them to grow up like Billy and Charlie and just go to the bar on a Wednesday afternoon, and go fishing on the weekends. Then everything would be peaceful. Jacob Is just so dang stubborn. Which is what makes him Jacob.

I love Jacob, but it has never been a competition between Edward and Jacob. Edward has, and always will, win my heart. He's too perfect, too perfect for me. He's my protector, the only reason I'm alive. Jacob, is also one reason I'm alive. I owe Jacob everything. Its been so hard with him though. I really do love him, and if Edward wasn't so perfect for me, I could guarantee Jacob and I would be together, but that's not the way it is, and I wish he could see that.

Since the thought of Jacob was making me upset, I figured I should do something to take my mine off of him. If Edward were here I would know what I would want to do, but he always rejects me, and says its too dangerous. I wish he would just change me into a vampire already so we wouldn't have to worry, but Edward refuses to do so until I marry him.

Marriage, uh, it was horrifying, but then again, I was starting to warm up to the idea. As Edward said before, it doesn't have to be big. I don't think he would mind if it was a small wedding in Vagas with just the Cullens. That's what I want. That's what I want when Edward comes back!. I'm going to tell him I want to get married as soon as possible. The sooner we're married the sooner I can become a vampire, and the closer we can become, without having to stop.

I was so excited about my revelation that I jumped off my bed and started to run. I was running to the Cullen's house to tell Edward. I was almost out the door when I realized two things. First, I had no shoes on, so running to the Cullen's house would be even more impossible then it would without getting pebbles and glass stuck in my feet. Second, that the Cullens were out hunting.

I sighed again. I slowly walked back up the stairs and sat back on the bed, a bit depressed. I was staring at the floor. I was too busy thinking about how sad I was that he was gone, I didn't even notice someone was in my room.

"Hi Bella" My head whipped up so fast, I cracked my Neck.

"OWWWW!" I shouted grasping my neck. "Jacob, what are you doing in my room?!?" I yelled. He didn't answer. He just ran over to my bed and started rubbing my neck.

"Sorry Bella," he laughed "I didn't mean to scare you"

I shoved his rather large, warm hands off of my neck and hopped right out of my bed. "I wasn't scared!" I shouted "But that's breaking and Entering you know!"

"You don't mind when that bloodsucker does it." he mumbled

I was so full of rage at Jacob, and then I was upset that I was so angry at him, because I had been wanting to talk to him for so long and make things clearer, but rage definitely came out stronger then love.

"Edward is my boyfriend Jacob! And how many times do I have to tell you to stop calling him that?! He stopped the name calling with you, so common, can you be a little more mature please?"

"Fine, fine" he started "for now." He gave his one-of-a-kind Jacob smile I loved.

I grinned back. You couldn't help it. It was hard to be mad at Jacob when he was being like this. this is the Jacob I knew.

"Jacob, why are you here?" I said as seriously as I could

"I'm asking you to reconsider Bella. I know you said you wouldn't, but I told you I would never give up."

"I told you Jacob, no. You need to accept that Edward and I are in love." I said matter-o-factly

"I don't think you are." he said even more snarly

"We are getting married Jacob"

"I know I know but" before he could finish I cut him off

"no, I mean we are getting married in, like, the next month. We are going to Vagas." I blurted. I hadn't even ran this information past Edward, and I was already telling people.

He just stared at me.

"I'm sorry. I want you to be there Jacob, but we've gotta be just friends by then, or else I can't invite you. Ok? Pleas Jacob, it would mean so much to me for you to be there..."

He got up from the bed, very quickly. He started shaking again, his anger was taking over him, changing him, and now Edward wasn't here to protect me.

"Jacob, please calm down." I said begging, but it only seemed to fuel the fire. He changed instantly infront of me. Even his Werewolf self looked furious. Before he could even make a move though, Edward was there.

"Get out of here!" Edward yelled. He used his vampire speed and was right in front of me in a second.

"Seriously Jacob, get out!" I shouted in rage.

He growled at Edward, but then fled right back out the window and through the forest. I felt like crap, I cant believe I did that to him.

"Are you ok Bella?" Edward asked turning to me.

All I did was kiss him, it was a kiss with passion and affection. It was a kiss of longing. He knew I wanted something.

"Something tells me," he started, raising his eyebrow "that you have something to tell me."

"Dang it Edward, what is the point of not being able to read my mind, if you can read me anyway?" I said exasperated

He laughed and carried me over to the bed. Somehow we both plopped down at the same time. It always caught me by surprise whenever he did that.

"What is it Bells?" he asked

Every time he looked at me I just died. His auburn hair, and his color-changing eyes. I felt like a princess when I was around him. He was the knight and has come to save me from my old life, and promised me a new one. One with him.

"I want to get married." I smiled

He started to laugh "have we not already discussed this?" he started "we are going to."

"No" I stopped him " I mean soon, like, next month. That gives Alice enough time to shop and 'plan a party', and that way we are one step closer to changing me, and you will no longer have any excuse not to do so."

He was silent for a long moment. I was nerves for what he would say, I thought it was exactly what he wanted to hear. Eventually a smile crossed his face.

"I would love that more that anything Bells." he said kissing me. His happiness illuminating the whole room.

"Are you sure that's the only reason though?" he said curiously

"Why would it matter Edward? Im giving in, you win! We are getting married." I really was, for the first time, happy to say that.

"There's just one issue." he stated.

I sighed "what?"

"Never mind, its not important." he said teasing.

"Oh common Edward, what?"

"Well, uh, I want a priest to marry us, like a real ceremony, it doesn't have to be big, and it can still be in Vagas, but you know, I want your afterlife to be special."

"Edward, Im not going to have an afterlife, when you change me into a vampire."

"Bells..."

"Oh, alright! Have it your way. Your always changing the rules on me Edward, but ok it can be a priest. Charlie will like that more anyway."

At that moment Alice came into my room, via the stairs, the old fashion way I suppose.

"We have a problem!" yelled Alice

At that moment I found all of the Cullens in my small little room, ready to listen to Alice's new found problem.

"What Alice?"

"There are some new vampires in town."

"Young?" asked Carlisle.

"No, They're just like us, peaceful (to an extent), vegetarian vampires, but they want someone."

There was a long pause, and then they all turned to look at me. Great, as soon as I think my life is going to calm down a bit, another Vampire surprise. I can't say that I didn't like the adventures, that's partly why I wanted to be a Cullen, but it gets tiresome sometimes.

"Me?" I asked flabbergasted "Why me?"

"They don't want you becoming a vampire Bells, they want you destroyed, and anyone who gets in there way is destroyed. They're a group of 15 vampires, 2 families, and they both want Bella out of the picture."

"Why Alice?" Jasper asked curiously

"They're afraid of Bella's werewolf, um, situation, you could say..."

I sighed. Wonderful. Now Jacob is in the picture too.

"And what situation is that?" I asked annoyed.

"Well..." Alice started "they think Jacob is going to persuade you to become a werewolf, and I don't know why that's a life or death situation yet, but apparently it is."

"So its either going to be a Marriage or a funeral." said Emmet Laughing

They were all silent. We were all silent. It blatantly showed on my face that I was very upset. Why did Emmet have to make comments like that.

"Oh, there's going to be a Marriage, don't you worry about that Bella." Alice grinned