This is how the Jacob I imagined should have reacted after the invite, so the monstrosity of him imprinting wouldn't happen. Hope you enjoy.
Disclaimer: Twilight and characters belong to Stephenie Meyer.
She was never mine.
I guess it all comes down to that.
As the saying goes, you can't lose what you never had.
And I never had her...
There was a time where I thought I did
But it was only that, just thoughts in my head
Dreams that I wanted to come true
But they didn't...
So now I'm here feeling my heart breaking in my chest.
Knowing that the girl I fell in love with doesn't exist.
Knowing that he took it all away from me...from her.
She chose to end her life to be with him, because that's what she was doing.
Becoming a corpse for "true love".
And it makes me think that maybe I was wrong for falling in love with Bella...
Bella... my Bella... but no.
She was never mine.
Because the girl I fell in love with cared about the people in her life.
She would never let herself crumble because of a man.
And he's not even a man. He's not human!
The girl I fell in love with wouldn't cause the amount of pain she'll cause on her mother and her father.
The Bella I fell in love with would think about them before making them suffer like that.
The Bella I knew wouldn't have hurt me the way she did.
My Bella would never marry a monster.
But she wasn't my Bella.
That letter her "fiancé" sent me proved it all.
She chose death over life.
Because that's what she would have had with me.
She would be able to keep her friends, her family and most important of all, her humanity.
She would grow older; have a happy life with me taking care of her.
We would get married at the beach in La Push, just our family, none of this fancy crap.
We would have kids, and argue about how to discipline them because I would never get mad at them when they did something wrong.
We would watch them get older as we got old ourselves.
Our life would have been perfect.
But Bella is not mine, and there is no "our".
Because there never was an "us".
And all of this makes me think that I'm making the same mistake she is.
For months I've been letting her run my life.
In my drive to make her see sense I was becoming blind.
But I'm not going to let that happen anymore.
I won't let her do to me, what he is doing to her.
She is not my Bella.
I have Billy, the pack, Charlie and myself.
I won't make them hurt because of her.
I love her with all my being, but I also love them.
And they have never hurt me the way she has.
Because the Bella that I fell in love with wouldn't have hurt me this much.
She wouldn't have told me to kiss her that day.
She wouldn't have broken my heart after the leech broke my body.
But just like I put Bella back together I can put myself back together.
I have the responsibility of my people and the people I love.
If she wants to become one of the walking dead, she is no longer one of us.
She knows what she's getting into and what she's leaving behind.
And she is no longer my Bella.
I'll always hold the memory of the Bella I fell in love with in my heart.
But for that to happen I have to let his Bella go.
I need to listen to my own advice, I keep telling her to live, but I haven't been living.
I've been letting her take everything from me.
I never thought I would be saying this but...
I have to let Bella go.
She won't ever be my Bella.
It hurts so much, but I know that eventually I will get better.
I'll show her and everyone else that a broken heart can be fixed.
From now on, I'm letting Bella go.
I won't keep fighting a lost battle on my own.
She was never mine.