Hello! Yes it's been a while since I wrote a fanfic... but I couldn't resist.

This is planned to be a three part series that progresses through the anime episodes. This first one takes place just post Ep 13, Season 1. It's all in my favorite genre of angst as I dunno, I don't think this pairing could ever be totally happy if we take all the stuff that happens with Mika and other people in the anime as cannon. (And his personality and outlook on romantic relationships.)

It didn't take too long for the gossip to reach Orga's ears. Pretty much everyone had heard by the next afternoon what had happened between Kudelia and Mikazuki.

"Apparently they kissed!"

"Whoa really? Man, Mikazuki-san's really getting in there! What a man!"

"D-do you think they did...other stuff?"

"Huh? Like that?"

"Y-you know..."

Orga managed to walk by to overhear the conversation by some of the younger boys. Infact, it had been the 3rd time today he had heard someone talk about the happenings between the black haired boy and the princess, though it had ranged from they hugged to they had full blown sex and everything inbetween.

It did sound a bit like simple gossip with no ground to it, like what happened a lot here but for some reason it made him irritated. He was aware it was unreasonable for him to feel this way, as Mikazuki's best friend he should be happy that his friend seemed to be developing a romantic relationship with someone. But it was bugging him and as the day went on, his mood was being eaten away more and more by the feeling in his chest and by evening people seemed to get wind of his mood and were trying to avoid him.

Orga felt like that was a good thing- he wasn't in any mood to talk to anyone anyway as he probably would end up snapping at them and he knew that wasn't fair. He pretty much locked himself in his office, only engaging in the minimum verbal contact with others when it was absolutely necessary.

Get a grip on yourself... This isn't what real men do...

He waited until everyone had eaten to go and grab some food, not that he really felt hungry even though he hadn't eaten all day. He just felt like it would be bad to go all day without so out of necessity rather than need he made his way down to the canteen.

Atra handed him the tray she seemed to have dished up prior specially for him, like she knew he was going to be late. Well it wasn't too unusual he didn't eat the same time with others. She had a weird look on her face too and an uneasy, awkward air around her. Like she was pretending everything was okay but it wasn't. Like she knew she had no right to be upset or anything but couldn't feel like that from the bottom of the heart.

You and me both huh? Though I guess she probably has more right than me to feel like this...

Atra was hovering around idly as Orga ate.

This is kinna awkward in another way...

"Hey Atra, you can go. I'll wash up after myself, don't worry about it."

"Are you sure? It's no problem I can..."

"Nah, I might be a while so go ahead."

"O...okay..."

Now he was alone, he let out a slow sigh. When did it become like this? He had never imagined he'd be left feeling like this till now.

You knew one day this would happen. It's meant to happen. We are almost adults now.

He knew this. He thought he knew this. He thought he had been prepared for it too, though maybe not so suddenly...

"Here you are."

Mikazuki's voice cut through his thoughts. Orga looked up from his plate he had been staring at for a while now.

"Mika."

"Orga."

The white haired man's heart jolted painfully when their eyes met. He had successfully avoided the other the whole day but well time was up, he had to face him now. They simply spent the next few moments in silence, Orga's hand still toying with the food on his plate with the fork.

"...you were looking for me?"

He finally said to break the silence as he looked away and down to his plate.

"Didn't see you all today. You really busy?"

"...yeah... I guess...I was..."

Why do you look so normal? Like nothing changed?

"I see."

Orga put down his fork and got up to throw the food away. It was a waste but at the same time he knew he wasn't going to eat anymore of it. After hastily washing up, he turned to leave but Mikazuki stood in his way.

"Why are you angry?"

"H-huh? What do you mean? I'm fine."

"No, Orga you are angry about something."

"I'm not."

"You are angry with me."

This guy was unbelievable. How did he see through the taller man's heart like that? They had only exchanged a few words... It made him feel so vulnerable, weak.

"I'm not."

"You are."

Orga shook his head, walking around Mikazuki and towards his room. He had just reached his door and was about to open the door when a hand grabbed his sleeve from behind. Mikazuki had followed him. Bright blue eyes locked onto his own and he felt even more vulnerable, like he couldn't get away.

"Why?"

"Why what?"

He knew what Mikazuki was asking but he didn't want to answer.

"Why are you angry with me?"

"...it's nothing."

Orga mumbled as he pulled his arm to break free so he could go into his room. He didn't want to have this conversation. Not now. Not ever. He'll be fine by tomorrow. He could act like everything was okay if he was given one night.

Please, please leave me alone for today before I say something I'll regret...

"Tell me."

"No."

Orga growled, shaking Mikazuki's hand from his sleeve roughly and opening the door to his room and darting in. He should have known the shorter boy would follow him, as "Personal Space" wasn't an entry in Mikazuki's dictionary.

"I don't like Orga being like this."

Mikazuki frowned as the door shut behind them. Orga had his back to him now, his shoulders were shaking slightly.

"We... can't always have what we want, Mika."

Came the uncharacteristic reply from the tall man. What did he mean?

"That's not the sort of thing Orga says."

"...well it is now. And... you should go and get what you can get and develop them. Spend...more time with her rather than bother with me."

Mikazuki's frown deepened. What was his friend on about?

"Cos you want a wife and kids and stuff in the future right? We... aren't gonna live forever so you probably should start relationships when you see the chance."

He had no idea why his friend was saying all this now, it seemed so out of character for Orga. They had never spoken about stuff like this infact.

"I don't know what you are talking about."

"I'm talking about Kudelia."

Orga's voice was shaking. Why was it shaking? Why wouldn't he turn around and look this way?

"What about her?"

"DON'T ACT DUMB NOW MIKA! WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT!"

Oh.

Mikazuki tilted his head to one side. So Orga was for some reason angry that he had kissed Kudelia. But why? Was he not meant to have done that? Should he have asked Orga beforehand? He did own Mikazuki's life, afterall. Mikazuki wasn't all that knowledgeable about romance and stuff like that, he was just doing stuff on instinct. Was that wrong?

"If Orga doesn't want me to kiss anyone anymore, I won't do it."

So it was just a kiss. He knew Mikazuki wouldn't lie to him as he had no need to. He felt a strange mixture of relief that it wasn't anything else and a searing pain as he had now received confirmation rumors were true. It hurt now more than it did before. A fresh, raw pain like his heart had been pierced and he was bleeding.

"THAT'S NOT WHAT I SAID!"

Orga turned to face Mikazuki, to the pilot his friend looked like he was crying. Not on the outside, but his eyes looked so pained... He didn't like that look. It didn't suit Orga.

"I DON'T WA-"

Orga's words were cut off suddenly as Mikazuki closed the space between them, pulling the taller man down and crushing their lips against eachother. Even the black haired boy didn't know why he did that. He just felt like it was the right thing to do. Kissing felt good and he thought it might ease the pain Orga seemed to be feeling at that moment.

They stayed connected for a few moments before the tanned man shoved the other off him.

"W...what are you doing Mika?"

"I kissed you."

"I know that... but why?"

"...I thought it might make you feel better."

The words felt the acid being poured into his wounded heart. This wasn't what he wanted. He didn't know what to say. Should he shout? Cry? Why was Mikazuki so casual about it?

"Did you not want me to? I like you Orga. If this makes you feel better I'm happy to kiss you anytime."

"...Mika..."

Orga closed his eyes, taking in a long, shaking breath. They were not on the same page. But he knew this would probably be an issue from before, anyway. Mikazuki didn't seem to think of relationships in the same way as everyone else.

"Please... leave me alone for today..."

He managed to choke out. It was hard to breathe. What he wanted was infront of him but at the same time, it wasn't what he wanted. And he knew now he probably never will have what he wanted. It was hard to accept.

"Please Mika."

Mikazuki studied him for a moment before turning and leaving, the door closing with a click. Orga sank onto his bed, feeling numb. What had just happened? Oh right, Mikazuki had kissed him. But apparently that's what he did to make people he cared about feel better. Meaning it was nothing specially romantic or anything. And in Mikazuki's heart was he on the same level as that woman? His mind felt like an unrecognizable mess.

"W...why Mika..."

Orga Itsuka now realized he was ensnared in the trap of emotions known as Mikazuki Argus and saw no way out.

What did you think? Let me know via review~ And it just gets more murky from here XD