Chapter 1: Kaiya
Rating: K+
So, this is pretty much my first fanfiction ever to be posted *-* Bear with me now, I know I'm not too good with
grammar and whatnot, but I think I captured the characters fairly well. If you catch me switching person views
please alert me because I'm terrible about that D*: Anyway, I hope you enjoy the story! Oh btw, in this story Akito
is a boy o_o sorry if that like, makes you not want to read it ? rotfl, but yeah(: enjoy now !
I think, more than anything, that I was put on this earth for the sole purpose to die and live miserably. That was the thought that always ran through my head, and as I made my way down the darkened streets I had for so long forgotten, that was all I could think about. I shoved my hands deeper into the rough pockets of my jacket, and felt the slow drips of rain that started to sprinkle from the sky snip coldly at my bare neck. I paused for a minute, bringing my eyes up to look at the dark sky, and just as I did it began pouring.
"Great" I muttered sharply, "Just frickin' great"
I pulled the ruffled hoodie of my jacket over my head and forced the long locks of dark hair out sprawling messily across the open flaps of the jacket. Akito wouldn't be angry if I came home soaked, would he? I rolled my eyes, and clasped my hands against the fabric in my pockets. No, he'll expect me to be perfect, as always.. I sighed, bringing my hand up to push away the tips of my bangs that as always, seemed determined to hide the pained, soulless blue eyes that I knew were still glossy with remorse, just like they had been for so long. Maybe it won't be so bad? Akito loves me, after all, we're soul mates. He's never done anything to hurt me before, in fact I don't think he's ever even gotten mad at me. But... I felt my body cool over as a sudden thought rushed to attention, but what if it's not me he'd take it out on? What if he took it out on Haru or-
"Hey beautiful," The sudden raspy voice cut through my thoughts like a knife, and I slowed my pace, raising my eyes to look and see who had spoken. I saw a wide, rusted red mini van halted near the curb, the front tire so close it could of been on the sidewalk. A scruffy guy with gray eyes and thin locks of blond braids has his head poking out one of the musty windows, a disgustingly cool smirk across his lips. And I realized that he wasn't talking to me.
That's when I noticed the girl.
She was standing there, gripping two bags of groceries in one hand, and a damp, leather satchel in the other. She turned her wide blue eyes towards the van, and her face froze in what I though was confusion, before it lit up in a smile. A smile? Why is she smiling? Is this girl stupid? The thought crossed my mind only breifly as I watched her turn to face the van. It was about then that I noticed the boy had gotten out, and was now standing inches in front of her, though now he had brought a friend along with him. I hadn't realized that I had stopped walking until he started speaking again. I lifted my eyes to look at them, the rain feeling heavy against my legs.
"So, what do you say? You want a ride?" One of the boys asked, a faltering smile flickering across his lips.
The girl's eyes widened again, which seemed impossible since they were already so big, and she shook her head quickly.
"N-No! No, I couldn't! That's very kind of you, but I'm just on my way home and I'm fine with walking, thank you!" She said, her tone a bit high pitched as she took a cautious step back.
I heard myself snort at her obvious lack of slickness, and intelligence. I slowly began to make my way past them, trying to keep my distance and walk close to the wall. It's none of your business, Kaiya. Don't get involved with it, she'll be fine. Their probably just amateurs, anyway.
"Awe, come on sweetheart, I think you could use the lift" One said with a smirk, I watched as he reached out to grab the girls hand.
I looked at her just long enough to catch the terror that flashed in her eyes.
"O-Oh, no please, I don't need a-" The girl attempted to stammer out, but one of the men cut her off, and I noticed for the first time that he was looking directly at me.
"Hey gorgeous, would you like to join us? I hear four can be better than one," He snickered and winked at me. I can feel the furry creeping up my spine.
No, stay calm and walk by, he's just an idiot. Just an idiot, okay?
"P-please, let go! I don't need a ride!" The girl cried again, trying unsuccessfully to pull her hand away from the boys grip.
Just stay out of it, I continue to chant to myself, It's none of your bus-
"Help!" The girl turned to look directly at me with icy fear written across her face, and I felt myself freeze against the wall behind me.
"P-Please, help me!" She yelled again when one of the boys attempted to tug her forward.
"Yeah, help her, gorgeous" The guy cooed at me, and briskly steped forward with a confidence that sent anger shooting into my pulse. Even with the hard rain beating down around me, I can feel the heat of adrenaline steaming against my eyes, and knew what was coming.
I don't know how to explain it.
The furry that came over me, the way my whole body began to heat up at an alarming rate, and the flash in my eyes when I grabbed his hand, and effortlessly slammed him against the pavement by just a single flick of the wrist. I don't know why the terrified look on the girl's face didn't stop me from slamming my foot into the face of the other one, and coiling him in a rather painful position on the curb. But before I knew it, or even realized what I had done, I felt the pain surge through me.
"Ugh!" I gasped, felling the pavement greet my knee as I stumbled down against it. The wet concrete was rough against my skin, but all I could focus on was the pain that stung like a shard at my heart strings, pulling at them and twisting around them. "No.." I muttered through my teeth, "No.."
"A-Are you okay?" I heard the girls voice called near me, and I felt something warm press against my back.
I jerked my body sideways to make her hand drop,
"Don't touch me" I hissed coldly under my breath, and felt my free hand grasp at my chest. The aching in my heart surged through my finger tips as if it could spread at any moment, and more than anything I wished it would stop. It kind of felt like someone hat set fire in my chest, to tear whatever kindness in my heart to shreds.
"Please, let me help you!" The girl said, her voice soft and kind. I felt her touch my shoulder once more. I ground my teeth together and was prepared to swipe her hand off me again, when I realized the surging pain in my chest was gone, just like that. Almost like a rubber band snapping back after being stretched to it's limit.
"W-What?" I mumbled, feeling my hand clench tighter to my chest.
What is going on? Who is this girl? Why did the pain go away?
"I said, please let me help you! Are you hurt? It looks like you cut your cheek there. O-Oh! Thank you so much for helping me I-I! I mean! Uh!" The girl stepped back from me to repeatedly bow, her thick brown locks flinging against the rain and eventually soaking against her shirt.
I stood up, and slowly let the hand that had been so desperately clutching my chest drop. I brought it to my cheek and felt the sticky wetness of blood dab at my finger tips. The girl's eyes widened when she saw the sick expression that must of been on my face.
"Oh! I-I-I'm so sorry! It was my fault! If you hadn't came and helped me y-you wouldn't have-!" She tried to muster up the courage to speak correctly again, but I turned abruptly and began walking before she could find it. Dealing with people was obviously not one of my strengths.
"Don't mention it" I heard myself mumble over my shoulder.
It only took a second for her to rush up to me again, and grip my shoulder once more. I turned around and felt a heave of breath escape my lips,
"What?" I asked sharply.
Her hand seemed to remain in mid-air where my shoulder should be, but she once regained her posture, her head dropped to stare at the concrete.
"I-I just wanted to say thank you, I-Uh-I," She started, and took a deep breath, "I-I..My name is Tohru Honda! I would like to thank you properly for saving me!" She turned her wide eyes to look up at me again.
"Y-You look hungry! Would you like to join me for some dinner? It's the least I can do, so please!" She let herself trail off and bowed again, she brought her big, hopeful dark blue eyes to meet mine once more and a smile broke across her face again.
I sighed, turning my gaze away from her,
"No, thanks." I muttered, and began walking again.
If I waste anymore time I'll definitely be late, and I can't have Akito angry with me. Ugh, if she'd only understand. If someone would just understand. I could practically feel her warm gaze on my back, tugging at whatever compassion I may still have.
Man, what the heck is with this girl? I sighed, and paused in my step. It wouldn't hurt right? I could always tell Akito that I just stopped to rest. That wouldn't be pushing it would it? I turned to look at her again, where she hadn't moved from her spot, the same kind smile across her face.
"Okay" I sighed. Her smile broke wider, and she grabbed her fallen satchel before rushing up to me again.
"Thank you!" She said cheerfully, before stepping in front of me and beginning to lead the way, "You won't regret it!" She said happily.
I couldn't help but feel a small smile turn at the edges of my own lips.
Maybe it wouldn't be such a bad idea to rest for a little while. I fell into step behind her and peeked over my eyelashes to watch her nearly skip down a turn in the sidewalk.
And with someone this nice, maybe it wont be so bad.
It wasn't long before I started to feel uneasy. Sure, Tohru seemed nice and all but she was leading me through the woods, in the middle of the night, in blinding rain. Weren't those the qualities of a good horror movie? I felt my fingers clench at my palms, I would be okay. I had sensei's training to back me up, didn't I? And even if she did happen to have a couple of beefy guys waiting, I could-
"Onee-San! Watch out!" I heard Tohru yell, and suddenly realized I was one step away from ever-so-gracefully toppling over a log.
"Aha, thanks" I said, stepping over it and giving her the best smile I could muster. Kindness should be returned with Kindness, right? Tohru mirrored my smile and began walking again, and I trailed rather lazily behind her. Then, I remembered I hadn't introduced myself yet.
"Oh, yeah," I said, and raised my head up to look at her again, "I'm Kaiya. Call me Kai." I said simply, giving her a sheepish shrug. She didn't seem to notice my reluctantness, and instead gave another bright smile.
"Nice to meet you!" She said kindly, and in the process nearly slipped against the mud under her feet.
I stifled a smirk, "Hah, you're kind of prone to accidents aren't you?" I asked her, and couldn't help but laugh.
Tohru's face lit up a bright streak of pink, and she smiled nervously, "Y-You think so?" She asked.
I laughed at her obvious embarrassment, and casually patted her shoulder.
"I like you anyway, Tohru Honda" I smiled kindly to her, and instantly felt myself freeze. What the-? What am I saying? I looked up to see her reaction and she just gave me another smile,
"I like you too, Kai-San!" She said brightly over her shoulder.
I quickly fell back into step with her, I've never been so nice to anyone and suddenly I'm throwing out compliments? No. I can't start a friendship with this girl. I can't get her hurt too.
"Uh, look Tohru" I stopped in my place, and she turned to look at me, her face fidgeting with concern.
"Yes? Is something wrong?" She asked a bit too fastly. Ugh, she's too kind.
I stared at her for a minute, and pulled my hood off of my head, pushing my hair back so she could see just how cold, and serious my face was.
"I don't want to be friends, so don't take everything I say so seriously." I said flatly, "I...I just don't think I'm the right kind of person to be messing with." I added, and watched as Tohru's eyes softened, seeming for once to match the sad gleam of the midnight crescents that were her eyes.
"I see." She said simply, and a small smile rose across her lips. "That's okay, just please allow me to repay you for your kindness so far" She insisted further, and began walking again.
I rubbed my forehead and sighed, I really didn't deserve the kindness from this girl. It felt so unnatural for someone to seem so..so concerned, about me. I stared at the back of her head once more as I began trailing behind her again. Even watching the cheerful skip she seemed to have in her step as we walked, I couldn't help but feel a cold, familair feeling that settled in the pit of my stomach, begging me to turn around. And I had never been so scared in my life.
"T-Tohru?" I asked, and she peeked over her shoulder at me, "Where exactly do you live?" I asked casually.
Tohru gave me a bright smile, "I live with Shigure Sohma, the house is just a little ways over there! You'll really like him, Kai-San, and Kyo and Yuki live there too!" She said cheerfully, and suddenly the cold reality hit me harder than it should have. Why hadn't I noticed before? I thought frantically, and stared at her back again, This is her. This is the girl that I had to go away for. This is her. I felt my eyes turn cold, but never stopped walking behind her.
This is the girl that ruined my life.
Was it terrible? Did I make you gag D: ? WAHHH! I'm so sorry, don't hate me! Naya-Chan said she really liked it, but I should of known not everyone would be like her!
But maybe you did like it? What am I doing? I'll just read your reviews! Please don't be unkind, I don't know if my gentle heart can take it D:
Laina: ...Gentle heart? SINCE WHEN!
Me: }: don't be so mean! i'm gentle!
Laina: pbft, more like emotional.
*sniffsniff* she can be so rude can't she? *sigh* well, I'm waiting for your reviews, they'll make me feel better so hurry D: !