Disclaimer: Saiyuki does not belong to me. They belong to their proper owner.
Title: Golden Creations
Anime: Saiyuki
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: PG-13
Status: Complete
Author: Fuji S. Yuki
Stupid.
Things were just so stupid where ever he turned he saw things as being stupid.
Surely to those around him-they thought he laughed with them joke with them
found things interesting. However behind that mask, he was crying, being put
off shoved away made fun of, and even getting slapped around by that large fan
of Sanzou's.
Inwardly Goku was crying and no one in the world could hear him at all.
There use to be this tale of nothing-ness. A tale of where the world did not
exist until the shedding of tears and blood by some unknown force maybe
kami-sama created it into a black mass. The blood itself wasn't blood of normal
men, but those of light and sparkles.
No one would have thought a being could shed blood of this finest quality, but
the blood itself was due to the pureness and goodness of Kami-sama of this
deity perhaps being. Yet--at this time no one existed and when they did the tale
was passed onward spreaded through out the galaxy.
Aliens, children of difference races conformed and switched the story around to
fit their own image until the tale of blood was nothingness and that only
Kami-sama created the world in a mass of seven days.
Nonsense, if only people knew that Kami-sama was a being that was a being of
pureness and yet one day Kami-sama became lonely and created things in the name
of love. Yes Kami-sama was that pure and he didn't want to be alone for being
alone was something that a single entity had to live with.
No one really understood that was why Kami-sama decided to join the world to be
born from a place as a Earth Spirit one cherished dearly by the mother Earth.
For she inwardly knew of who Kami-sama was and throbbed with motherly love and
concern for him. Humbled that one of such purity that had created her from his
own blood would be willing to be born as her own spiritual children.
So it was said that mother nature conformed and twisted the soul of Kami-sama
placing him into a age old rock to be born from when the time was right. When
the world might need the cleaniness of such being. For Mother Earth knew that
the world was becoming greyer and there will be a time when corruption of
beings like Youkai and Humans would rain upon her soil and there would be a
need for a cleansing purity of this being once again.
In light of all that happen eons went on, years passed by and the season of the
Earth changed in all regions, until a shattering filling cry of the Gods in the
Heavens of Mother nature's skies rumbled with thickening hatred and blood of
deities. The skies cried tears of blood and essence and the morbid evils raged
upon the landscape due to a foolish human being that let open a box that was
created to contain the good and evil of the world.
Where peace rain upon Mother Nature's soils came the birth of such a box and a
mortal of human quality lifted it open and she was named Pandora. The spelling
of dread and hatred, fear, and remorse flocked through the harbor. Borning the
creatures of half faces to racism and hippocricy and so a darker quality with a
brighter quality came. But-still the rock remain on the mountain top through
everything soaking the sunlight and nurtious spring of water the rain. Even the
blood soaken skies did nothing to impenetrate the pure rock due to the range of
where Mother Nature set up her barriers making the area rural and baren so that
only the spirits could help protect such purity.
So through the ages this went on toils of wars came and went, human and youkai
fought, and the gods continuously went over their own pious nature of greed,
selflessness, and wars for areas. While laughing in faint amusement at the
mortals below though until, the setting of the Godness of Mercy that was chosen
for her sacrifice to the goodness of her heart. One spiritual being that Mother
Nature had looked after, until she had flown the the heavens and became a
deity. However, even the harshness and seductive powers came to take over that
child, but still the quality of mercy still existed in the child. That was all
Mother Nature could hope for and so time went on, and when a birth of a deity
called Konzen came, mother nature notice the child's seriousness and sadness.
Surely such a being whom reminded her of the sun would be perfect for the child
of earth that she babed since the beginning of time-and so-the egged had
hatched. Releasing like a crackle of thunder the child of stone and earth
raising upward, that it shook the very core of the heavens. The gods and
goddess quickly forge across to look upon the Earth from whence the disturbance
had taken place. There they spotted a monkey but no ordinary monkey but a
Monkey King at that borned of stone. His eyes were piercing gold and his hair
long as brown, the bronze of his skin sparkled and so the voices all cried out
the name of such enormous power 'All Hail SON GOKU!'
-Yet- These Gods and Goddess instead of being happy with the newly arrival of
Mother Earth's children casted their arms together in fear and shock of the
powers. Then set upon the plan to seal away the powers of this heredict as they
deem to name him.
However-this tale wasn't known by the child born of rock and Earth. He had
forgotten and only those that had remember this tale so well were gone. Passed
away only one knew of the true story and that was Mother Earth. Though she
could not contribute her knowledge to those of Heaven and Earth and by the time
when her child was taken from her. She had mourn greatly the bias and hatred of
those in the heaven's.
How she mourned for the pure being that she had love so dearly which was taken
away to the heaven's above to where even her tangles of tree's, vines, and
rocks would not reach. Only thing left were the skies that she produced, and
yet the calling of her wind spirits could not reach such a place and so she
grieved for three nights and three days, until a voice called from the heavens
kindly. 'Do not worry-mother I'll look after him.' The little girl she had also
grew fond of-remembered and would help protect her Earth brother.
Year's past by and when the child Son Goku was returned to the Earth grounds he
was broken and place into a cave with wards left alone. Mother Nature weeped
for the bright golden eye boy she weeped for the lost look in his eyes that
never dull of the innocence and purity. She weeped for the true being that was
born from her folds and all that was left was a face a facade that held the
true being inside.
This being was human on the outside and the real Son Goku was sleeping away in
his heart held away by that ring that was casted and forged by the God's. This
sadden her greatly and even though she try to reach him he was deafen to her
cries of the truth that -he- was love greatly by her.
So day past by day, night past by night and all that was left until the day
arrived was a young monk with golden hair and cutting purple eyes. His face was
cool and impassive and a chakra of red adorn his forehead, he called out
quietly, "Were you the one that call to me?"
In the end Goku the child went with him and Mother nature was gladden, yet in
the present right now she weeped for the child.
For he believe he was all alone that his sun could no longer hear him. Mother
Nature wanted him to know that she was here with him through his toil she was
everywhere for her children. Yet-her voice was not heard and she too grew
sadder by each tear that was shedded from those golden orbs.
"Why was I born?" The boy would ask to no one in particular during
colden nights when he would take a midnight stroll without his guardian and
companions.
All he recieved were the call of the wind that came from the spirits that try
to reach him. The boy was lonely and the one reason this being wanted to born
was to not be alone, and now he was--surely Mother Nature knew of the priest
Sanzou's problems. She even knew why he acted that way or why he was submitted
to the waters.
It wasn't so hard for her to figure many things out since she was there when it
had happen. The calling powers created were gifts by her to each one that she
bounded to hear, to be heard by someone of the quality soul and heart to be
wanted and not alone. To be saved- from their misery, and now that power was
ignored.
Goku the child was crying for Sanzou and yet the one he love did not hear him.
Did not hear the pleadings of his child heart or goodness. Konzen was the same
when he wanted to deny the truth that he love the little saru very much. And-so
the voice were not heard and in turn the power forgotten due to deafen ears.
Mother Nature could not bare this anymore she was unhappy with what had happen
to the pure soul. He was becoming darker and she would not could not stand this
any longer. The one true being that was gifted to the world was being shunned
and that was it. If she had too she would take matters into her own hands, and
so she began the trials of her preparation in silence.
Goku by this time had fallen asleep underneath a tree on a hill over looking
the view of the forrest vines grew quickly around the boy sheltering him from
the cold. The full moon casted halo of light onto the figure bathing it with
blessing for it too had been watching over this boy. It agree with Earth on the
treatment and too wishes for the happiness of such a wonderful being.
And-so the night passed onward time slowed down and the Mother of Earth waltz
into the dreamland of the one she seeked. Until reaching the trouble young man
huddled in a puddle of blood.
"You really are pathetic." Speakng softly she kneel beside him,
violet eyes turned onto her with pain.
"Who?"
Carmel hair flocked forward in the dreamland of the one called Genjyo Sanzou.
"Who I am is none of your concern, but--you may call me Erutan." Her
fingers crept forward to lift up the boy cover in blood. "Kouryuu. Come
with me." She held out her hand to him, "If you wish to stay here in
this endless cycle I won't begrudge you this but--there is another waiting for
you."
"What? But my master?" Kouryuu looked torned between the body of his
master and the Emerald eyes that peered him with kindness of the sapphire
cloacked individual.
Erutan lean forward more, "That's just a past memory Kouryuu, but that one
special person is crying now."
"Who?"
"Open that heart of yours and seek him, open your ears and listen
carefully." Erutan spoke softly as she lead away Sanzou with her,
"Listen to the bleeding in his heart, for centuries, eon's he cries for
you. For the past you, for the future you, but only for you--when he was born
he was born into my folds. A babe in the woods someone of purity, and now-he
needs you."
Faint trickling light lit up the area of darkness a sobbing sound came through,
"Sanzou--Sanzou don't leave me...please make it go away. My sun
sun..."
"Goku?" The violet eyes turned to Erutan suspiciously, "Is this
some trick?"
"Sanzou--make the hurt stop onegai." The voice called out more
and slowly the light faded bit by bit, "Sanzou..."
"No trick, but listen to me Kouryuu. I had shelter you from the harshness
of the world let my waters flood you forward toward your destiny to your
precious one, and for that you should heed my words." Emerald eyes sparkle
with fury, "Go to him, make it right love him for he is a treasure of
light. Do not dim his light any further if gone then the heaven's will weep,
the moon will fall into darkness, and hope fades." Then just as quickly a
gush of wind flew through the air and Erutan disappeared.
Sanzou woke up breathing slightly eyes looking around frantically wondering
what that was about. "Sanou. Alone--their laughing their stupid
laughing."
That voice again Sanzou stood letting his white robe fall into place, he walked
open the door and went across the room where Goku would be sleeping in. Opening
it he notice the untouch bed and the window flung open to the light of the
moon. Frowning he mutters quietly, "Where is that baka saru?"
So lonely.
It was that voice that he heard before that annoying voice that told him he was
not alone, before he remember it, remember how it call him out of his bout of
depression.
Endless cycling yet the stupidity I feel. The stupidity being casted alone
unatoneable for my deeds. Yet-being born of this world this world I myself am
in.
Those faint whispers crept into his ears and he followed onward toward where it
lead him. That voice that kept calling him that he never thought would call
from need again since he was here.
Insulted, taunted, is this the regular befitting trials I face? Alone before
I was alone I never minded and now the emptiness is unbearable to be alone.
Always that way betrayed by those that are friends, alone. Zutto-Zutto
Sanzou finally reached the area on a hill wondering why the hell the baka saru
was here of all places in this cold windy area where anything could attack.
Didn't that baka saru know that he could be attack by creatures of the night
like bears that were hungry. Surely so if he was defenseless right now
depressed. He frozed slightly wondering about that the depressed part he never
realize it but lately Goku's smiles were empty.
This morning he didn't even say he was hungry instead he joked around but those
lighted eyes that were playful and happy were dulling. He had look into them
when the saru had gripped onto his clothes tugging on them and looking up at
him. Normally he would see his reflection shoning in those depths but all he
saw was a endless void. At first he didn't notice thinking it was a trick of
the light, but now that he think of it--
Paddling onto the green grass he lean against the tree and noticed the vines
that were growing strangely wrapping around Goku posessively. The moss had
blossom covering the Saru like a warm thick blanket, yet the one thing he
didn't like was how the vines were wrapped around the thin neck of the boy.
Almost as if to choke him in his sleep to take away the life filled in it.
The wind gathered closely swirling the leaves here and there playfully almost
communicating something that the monk could not hear. Yet through it all the
boy slumbered almost like an angel of someone brinked on death in acceptance.
Sanzou couldn't image Goku in that format to just die peacefully gone without
any life in him. Goku was the embodiment of life and energy. Energetic genki
and yet lately he depict of a more subdue version and now it seems there was
nothing.
And I bow to my fate to be a outcast by nature, The voice crept onward
more and finally Sanzou recognize a form that was standing some way far away on
a encrop of rock his head tilted upward ot the moon.
"Who are you?" Sanzou narrow his violet eyes his hand going to his
gun and pointing it upward at the form. Yet the form did not hear him at all
instead it's back face him onward.
To be without purpose aimlessly wandering, how I wish for the Sun to guide
me to the horizon of my desires.
'What?' Sanzou thought totally befuddled noticing finally that it was Goku's
voice in his head speaking and that the individual on the encrop was Goku but
as the shadow passed onward and the moon once again lit up the area it was the
real form of Son Goku, without the limiter.
And I walk this travel of pain journey toward a brinkness of destruction.
Without my sun no more calling, no more hoping and all he could think about is
himself. Yet I love him. Love him the man that can't hear me anymore the sinner
the heredict the being that has no memory of his past.
A soft chuckle filled the air of the full form of Son Goku as he turned around
to stare at the tree before him, golden eyes lighted up with anger fury
unhappiness. Claws held upward to the sky while howling rage echoed in Sanzou's
mind and in turn the monk clutch his chest feeling the pain echo through.
The pain of so many things that had befallen this Son Goku this form so long
ago, the true person that was made from stone and rock. Almost as if sensing
him the form turned to look at Sanzou in amusement. Why are you here?
"What?" Sanzou shook his head, while slowly standing up to look at
the being that once try to end his life the animal beast he believe to be once
ago, and yet it now formed words in his head?
Honestly why are you here? Son Goku leaped and stood in front of Sanzou
pressing him to the tree with seductivity, Sanzou remain impassive. You
don't want to be here go away. Laughter shatter the silence from those
curved up lips that were in pleasure and yet inwardly Sanzou felt the pain the
other carries. Go away. Leave me be.
"Goku--stop this." Sanzou whispered in the emotionless voice even
though his inside beat down with pain of emotions from not himself but the one
in front of him. This had never happen before, and yet it wasn't a dream some
dream that he was having or to be exact a nightmare.
Goku? The laughing continued, What about the whole baka saru part? Or
maybe stop saying I am hungry Baka Saru. Your giving me a headache you stupid
monkey? Then just as quickly the form disappeared a distance and reappeared
at the ledge. Why now?
"Goku wake up!" Sanzou shook the boy on the floor cover with vines,
his fingers tangled around trying to break the chains of the greenery.
It's hopefuless. So stop it human. The voice now was cold in his mind
and he turned to look at Son Goku whom was now perched on top of a branch
leaning his back against it looking outside. Stop pretending you care about
us or rather me.
Sanzou frowned, "Who says I care?"
Leave us then! The voice shifted now and he started when he saw another
Goku standing before him the human one his golden eyes watering with tears. Leave
us alone then! Just like before LEAVE US. I hate you! GO AWAY! If you don't
give a rats ass about me GO AWAY! The tears trail down the Goku standing
before Sanzou, while the one wrapped in vines didn't stir and the vines seem to
tighten more choking the one in the bind and hte pain in Sanzou's chest
exploded.
"Ugh." Sanzou grunted while clutching his chest, "Damn it baka
Saru."
Do you always mean it when you call me that? Goku back away slowly, from
Sanzou tears slipping freely more then ever trailing paths of light onto the
floor forming foot steps. Do you really hate me so much that we can't be
together Sanzou? I'm five hundred and eighteen now, do you honestly hate me
because I am not acting like you? A burst of anger exploded from the human
Goku, I hate you! Why can't you love me Sanzou? I've try to be adult like
before, but that hurt too--I promise to do everything protect you love you. BUT
WHY Won't YOU CARE??
"NO Goku I!" Sanzou reached toward the other boy, the vined Goku
breathing sounded harsher like he couldn't get enough, somehow things were
linked everything was. "It's a habit but I--" He felt himself slammed
against the tree by the Fully formed Son Goku.
You what? Son Goku mocked, You can't even show emotions and you call
yourself human. We are tired Sanzou very tired. Then both forms disappeared
until only one being stood before him sadden with eyes that were so old and a
hand that bleed blood of light.
As each tear drop of blood feel small galaxy spin around the form, I was
lonely. So I wanted to be born again. We were lonely and one day it happened.
Confusion etched across Sanzou's face, "What?" This was just too
bizarre everything that was happening the anguish that seem to trail across the
being before him. How the camel hair shone brightly like amber and golden eyes
stare at him with frailty.
We were before everything, we were of a tale known so long, now forgotten
except by those ageless immortal. Then slowly hands spread out and the
galaxies of light swirl around the being that was breeded between Youkai and
Human of divine powers. So I formed galaxies of galaxies by accident when I
bleeded I do not know why I exist, but I was happy no longer alone when I heard
the cries of birth in these. Fingers trail into the liquid quality of
galaxies scattering them around him merrily in explosions. Then they expanded
surrounding both Sanzou and the being whom now sat in a chair, I was happy
but yet I was still lonely so--a pact was made. Golden eyes light up
cheerfully but then fell, Yet things aren't what they turn out to be.
Once again the lights dimmed to shone four candles in the room where only
Sanzou stood and finally Goku appeared once again this time sitting in the
chair in his human form. Four candles. The saru stroke his finger
against one tip of the flame then look at Sanzou with molten gold, Then
three more candles joined and happiness was ensured, but without hope it is
gone. He pointed with one finger, This is mine, this is yours He
pointed to another candle.
"Goku I don't understand?"
Will you mourn if I was gone? Goku whispered gently as he crept onto the
chair some more to reach Sanzou's face stroking it, Your so beautiful like
the sun. I was surrounded in light before and in darkness but you -I love you-
at first sight. The you that I watched in my dreams when I was sleeping the one
that I was destined for that kind soul that the cat we call 'Tama' saw as
caring. Then the fingers withdrew quickly, Is it so hard to love me?
The hand gripped onto the candle as Goku pulled away hopping away onto the step
that appeared like fragmented tile.
If you don't want me. If you wish it I will give you whatever I have Sanzou.
The hand caresses the candle while he look up the the darkness of the
empty-ness of the room, If you wish it I would snuff out my life just for
you. His lips curved upward into satisfaction the golden eyes light up with
joy and one half of it turned into Son Goku while both spoke together If you
only you wish it we will end it all just for you.
"Goku don't!" Sanzou walked toward them but found his feet cemented
to the floor.
Why not Sanzou? Innocence puzzlement flooded onto that angelic face
almost not comprehending why he shouldn't do such a thing. Wouldn't it make
you happy?
"No it would not baka saru." Sanzou called out jerking his feet and
trying to get to the other, "Damn it let go you stupid floor!" He
cusses in many forms of language that shouldn't be heard by someone so young,
but then Goku was use to such vulgar language. He had after all lived with
Sanzou for so long normally he didn't feel anything to it.
The Saru eye the candle then his guardian and hopping down one step until he
was eye level with Sanzou whom found the distance shorten. 'Was the Saru
controlling things?' He wondered the state of nature toward Goku's powers it
seem limitless. "It would make me unhappy." He mentions softly he
didn't want to admit it but he felt something for this saru. The mystery that
enshrouds the boy was immensely strong and even though Sanzou didn't want to
admit it he was intrigued.
Why would it make you unhappy? Goku clearly not understanding anything
in reason behind Sanzou's statements, After all no more noises that you
claim you hate. No more problems with me, you don't have to lose your temper.
Heck you would even be more happiner.
Sanzou let his golden locks block his eyes as he felt the shuddering emotions
in his chest, whereas the calm empty face of Goku smiled inside he knew the
other was shattering with pain for it echoes in him. "I'll be alone
then." The stone cemented floor gave way underneath the pressure of
Sanzou's will and he stood up and grab onto the Saru drawing him into a tight
hug, making sure not to snuff out the light. "I'll be very alone, I can
take the noise even though I complain about it, it makes me less lonely."
His fingers ruffle the carmel hair that slid like silk, "I don't want to
be alone saru." His voice softens slightly, "And I know now that you
don't either."
Sanzou?
"Sshh just come back so that I won't ever be alone." Violet eyes
crept onto the boyish face with caring, "Come back Son Goku for I do feel
love for you even if I don't show it. I do -care- I guess I just never admit it
til now." Softly he slid his arms to wipe away the lighted tears,
"Your not alone anymore this I promise you."
Sanzou--arigato. Slowly the darkness fled quickly and Sanzou felt his
world tilted a bit and he lean onto a tree for support realizing that he was
once again on that hill where the tree stood and the little saru slept soundly
in the blanket of moss. Eye sliding down he breath a sigh a relief to notice
that the vines were gone sliding down the tree he lean his head forward to
watch the monkey a faint tilt of his lips symbolized his happiness that the
other was indeed here.
"Good job Kouryuu." Erutan appeared again as the sun slowly rouse and
the moon embedded in her slumber.
"It's you again." Sanzou slid his gun upward and pointed it at the
lady, whom seem to laugh softly and held up her hands in a mock gesture that so
resembles that of the Goddess of Mercy.
Erutan shook her head slowly, "I am here in peace though I do have to tell
you something interesting."
"What--" Disbelief arouse in those violet eyes slowly, "do you
have to tell me?"
"Goku is Son Goku and yet he is also of another--make him happy and hope
won't fade, hold him to you and let him not cry or bleed from that wound in his
heart. For that would is your own as well as -his- it might seem odd but Goku
choosen you to be his." Erutan slowly back away as the sunlight filter
more strongly blinding Sanzou, "Take care of my Son--Konzen. I'll be
watching." Then just as swiftly she was gone.
Sanzou blinked quickly and sighs softly wondering why it was people like to
butt into his business. Taking a glance at Goku his lips twisted upward, then
again having Goku was worth a little bit trouble from whatever force of nature.
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