While this fic is very personal, I applied it to Fai and Ashura because I also think of it as a new approach to what may have gone on between them. Read, review, enjoy.
Authors Notes: This fic is personal. I dedicate this to one of my best friends. She is totally awesome, and I really do love her (as a friend). I just...I don't know how to say this any other way. I'm not good with confrontations. THIS IS THE SECOND VERSION, with added things. I deleted the first, but it's all the same except the end.
Disclaimer: I do not own Tsubasa. I'm not even sure if I own my own brain right now, I'm so messed up.
Surely, it has happened to everyone not just me. Surely everyone has felt the pain of what I thought was a deep, close friendship gone sour. They all say they understand, but I guess not because I don't see them crying when they think about it. To understand that you are the favorite, to believe that they trust you to the fullest but you can't love them because the love is gone. The love is gone. You wonder why they're abandoning you. Best friends always stick together at least until one of them finds someone better. You won't admit it. You just laugh it off without noticing I'm not laughing it off with you. You're indecisive. You don't want to have to choose between me and the other. But I so hate being alone and even though I've told you a thousand times I still get no lasting response. Surely, everyone knows how I'm feeling. Surely everyone knows what it's like to be the cast off. I think I'm still hoping that it was just me being stupid, that I'm not doing the right thing. I was content to let it go, to hide behind this mask with my frustration, my emptiness bottled inside. I was content to blame myself for being selfish and insensitive as long it let you still love me. I hated confrontation so I'd wait with it holed up in my head because I know I have almost too much self control for my own good and too much fear that you won't love me anymore. I don't want to let go--I still love you, my best friend.