He knew what was going on.
He knew.
But he choose to ignore it.
There was no way he would say it, never even though Matt had said that he made it obvious for everybody.
That was not true.
He didn't.
He woudn't.
He had been driving with his motorcycle for a while now to clear his thoughts but it didn't help at all.
How come he had been so stupid.
He had made sure to never let his guard down for all this time, made sure to keep everybody where they should be, in the position they should have in his life.
The white haired Boy should have been his rival, the one he was supposed to surpass.
Everything had changed and for the first time he didn't know what to do.
Now he's thinking about the boy all the time.
Sure he could still pretend to hate the other but still... something inside him made him want to tell everything to the world and live a happily mushy gay life with the other boy.
He hated that.
There wasn't even a proof that Near liked him back.
Matt had said he did but what did Matt know?
Nothing.
He didn't know if he hoped Near would like him or not.
If he did what would happen then.
He was afraid... afraid of the future.
What would happen if Kira killed Near?
He couldn't let that happen.
He just couldn't.
Still there was no way he was gonna admit that out loud.
He just couldn't.