Hi! So… I decided (sort of? XD) to write another story.
It seemed that someone (AHEM Hollow Ichigo- Ichigo! Lol! ^^) wanted a HichiIchi fan fiction from me badly. Haha XD
This is what I've been writing in my language someplace else.
I decided to...translate it to post the story here. I'm not even sure if the translation is done correctly o.o LOL xD
I hadn't gotten so far in developing the story, so please don't ask me too much for the next story or for longer chapters. I am working on other stories, and this is just an extra to what I am writing. I may update late, and I may have shorter chapters. Please forgive me for that. You have to have these things in mind when you are going to be reading this story. So- No complaints.
Well About the ratig, I always mark it M for some reason :P Maybe because of…cursing? Violence? Idk XD haha
This is the Prologue.
My Only Ray of Light
Prologue
…
I never got to say that I love him.
Until the day I had died…Not even a word…
Why had I stated a line full of hypocrites…?
I only stroked pain that will leave him scars
I only gave him disappointments about me.
…
What's left… is only guilt.
However… after a hundred years have passed
The only emotions that are left are…
Hatred…
The feeling called hatred…is roaming in my mind…
I never got to solve the misunderstandings…
What's left… is regret.
One poor soul wandering around in vain...
And…
Because he is not a human
He who could not die
And because he could not abandon the strand of hope
He who decided to live…
Is a stupid living dead.
'I never…loved.'
'Those craps are all trash.'
'They will get in my way.'
'Throw it away. It's only the past.'
Humans… Who have led me to fall.
I will feel pleasure my giving them agony,
And I will replace my rage with that kind of lunatic emotion.
And…
I would later…
Fall into deepest darkness.
Haha….ha…
I would fall more than the bastards
And fall to the bottom
And then – When I cannot manage myself anymore
I would…
Eventually become a monster…
'As I have burnt my chest
As if I have dug it with tear
The inerasable wounds are painful…'
(It's a Korean Drama OST XD haha I just translated it however I wanted it.)
(After the "... ..." typed in two lines (or what is it o.o), it's a different perspective.)
I am just so brainless
And I want to sigh as I pull out my hair with my own hands.
Dare? Omae wa…
(Who are you?)
Naze…Naze Omae wa ore ni…ittai ja ne ga?
(Why…Why are you causing me so much pain?)
Doushidayo?
(What's the reason?)
Doushida kimi ni…
(Why must you…do this to me?)
Boku wa kimi ni suki ja ne da.
(I love you.)
Demo…anata wa… boku ni suki ja nai ga?
(However…You…don't love me?)
Itte yo..Itte..ITAI!
(It hurts…Hurts…HURTS!)
Boku ni Taskete…
(Save me…)
Boku no "MU" ni tasketekure!
(Save me from the nothing I'll become!)
Boku no kokoro wa itai ne…
(My heart hurts so much…)
DOUSHIDAYO?
(WHY?)
Kimi wa boku ni taskete ja nai ga?
(Aren't you going to save me?)
Suki…?
(Love…?)
HA USAGENNA! URUSAI!
(HA! STOP SHITTIN' AROUND! SHUT UP!)
BAKA YARO! KOREWA TACHI WA USO DA! USO! USO! USO! BOKU WA ANO AHO NI SUKI JA NAI! DATTE YAMERO!
(STUPID BASTARD! THOSE CRAPS ARE ALL LIES! LIES! LIES! I DID NOT LOVE THAT IDIOT! SO STOP!)
Suki? Boku wa itai…
(How can I love when it hurts so much…)
SHINE… (AU: Not "shine" In English. It is pronounced as Shi-neh.)
DIE…
… (No Romanized Japanese here)
Along with that "Love" Crap that you blabber about…
…DAMN IT!
...
... (AN:That's a new perspective)
Sou..Sou deska…
(Is..Is that so...)
You want me to die...
If that's what you want me to do then I'll gladly do that for your sake.
demo...
(However...)
I cannot obey your commend of having to desert my love to you.
Ah...iie...Nande monai.
(Ah...no..It's nothing.)
I'll just reverse this feeling to hatred.
Boku wa ano "Suki" ni chiisai des.
(I'll abandon the feeling called "love".)
OMAE WA HITORI!
(You are alone!)
Sore wa watashi ni kizutsukeru yo, demo- Boku wa Anata ni chiisai...
(With tear trickling down my cheeks...I will abandon you.)
...
... (Another)
..Nani…
What...
Nani ga kimi ni itte da ne des ka?
What's causing you pain?
...Oishite jane des ka?
Can't you tell me what's going on?
Onegaishimas! Oishite kudasai!
Please! Tell me!
Kimi wa boku ni shijitte ja nai des ka?
(Can't you trust me?)
Anata wa ano nin-gen ni suki ja des - wakara des ne.
I know you love that person.
Demo-
But-
Ano Ottoko wa...Kimi ni suki no hitori ja nai.
That man...Isn't the only one that loves you.
Just know this: You are loved.
Sore wa uso ja nai.
Don't doubt it. (It's not a lie)
Kimi wa Hitori ja nai des.
You are not alone.
Boku wa kimi ni gokago.
I'm with you.
..Boku no shiro angeru...sama...
...My white angel...
datte-
So-
Watshi ni shinjitte kudasai.
Trust me please.
I won't ask you to love me,
I will ignore my feelings, and hide it deep inside my heart-
As a friend…
Yogatta ne...
It's a relief...
That I can be next to you...
Even if it might cause me pain...
na...Betsuni..iin ja ne des.
Well...It's really...Nothing.
Nazenara...
Because..
...Suki des. Anata wa.
I…love...you.
...I won't hold back my tears, I won't stop them from flooding down my eyes if it is caused because I love you.
Orewa wa Teme ni Suki ja nai.
Boku wa omae ni Suki ja nai.
Watashi wa anata ni Suki ja nai.
(ALL)
I don't love you.
I don't love you.
I don't love you.
I-with you,
...
"How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core where I've become so numb
Without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
(Wake me up) Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up) Wake me up inside
(Save me) Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up) Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up) Before I come undone
(Save me) Save me from the nothing I've become."
-From Evanescence, "Bring Me To Life"
When you are without hope…
You need to ask someone to hurl you out from the dark.
OMG I had a hard time translating and editing this XD haha
I had to delete all the Korean I've written while rewriting it in English ^^;
Well don't mind the horrible Japanese, for I SO know that it is terrible.
I just wanted to combine it with the English a little to make it sound...o.o I don't know XD haha Romanization XD
I never learned Japanese, so I'm requesting; no flames about that please ^^;
I know I may have a lot of errors.
As I've said; I didn't plan everything out completely.
And this can be a bit confusing. There are three people speaking.
This is a little based on the anime "Inuyasha" ^^ lol weird right?
It's like… If you have to compare them,
Inuyasha would be: Hollow Ichigo
Kikyou: :D Kon
Kagome: ICHIGO MUHAHA
Naraku: Aizen
Kouga: GRIMMJOW MUHAHA
And…More revealed later XD haha
I just set this up as I've always fantasized as a child. ._.
Well since I am a young girl, I've always had a "crossover" type of thing in my mind. But this is not a complete crossover since only the storyline is a BIT from Inuyasha, and the characters are all from Bleach. And I just set Kon as Kikyou type of character since Kagome is Kikyou's reincarnation? And Ichigo looks the same as Kon (when Kon's in Ichi's body XD LOL NONSENSE I KNOW JUST PUT UP WITH IT SORRY FOR THAT XD). Well I don't want to change their personality based on Inuyasha too, so I don't think I should have any OOC- ness. This is just...really nonsense, come to think of it. O.o LOL. So don't expect anything awesome from it. Well if anyone did read it, thank I give you my applaud XD
The characters are really not talking to anyone here. It's just their state of mind.
The Orange guy (LOL YOU SURELY HAVE TO KNOW WHO THAT IS XD)'s quote is later on, not right now. (Sorry it's confusing.) I'll just post this as chapter one since…yeah o.o Hard to explain why. Haha… UH TALKATIVE ALERT! O_O I gotta go now..bye guys! xD I don't even know if I'm gonna update now…o.o Sorry.