Lifeline
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Bruce
''Ugh'' Jason hisses as he finally stumbles into his safe house. He throws his jacked stained with blood away and makes his way to the bathroom. Counter to your belief it is his own blood. The joker escaped, again and this time decided to kidnap all the robins so that batman would appear. Batman, like always when it comes to him, was late and the joker came at him with a crowbar. He just lost it. With the dagger from Talia he cut himself lose and hit the joker in his face, he took the crowbar from him and hit him again and again all the while the clown kept on laughing. That laugh, Jason always hears it wherever he goes, in his nightmares, it makes him go nuts. In the end batman didn't save him from the joker, no, he saved the joker from him. They got into a fight, having the whole killing is bad discussion again. In the end Jason fled the scene while no one stopped him.
He hisses again from the pain when he sets foot into the bathroom. He collapses on the floor. He is just so tired…so tired of it all. No matter what he does nothing ever changes. He still is the black sheep, he still hears the laughter of the joker, still sees green from the pit, still can't control his anger, still doesn't understand Bruce's rule, still means less than the joker to batman. Did Bruce even really care about him at all? Probably not, basing on his actions.
He was never Never a son to Bruce was he? He was a failure and he is sure that Bruce regrets taking him in and training him even if Alfred says he doesn't. He is his greatest failure, a mistake, he should have never been robin. He was not chosen to be robin to become a hero, but to not become a villain. He just can't understand Bruce, did he ever really? He was broken, tainted, nothing like the golden boy at all. Everyone loved to remind him of that. Bruce doesn't love him, if he ever even really loved Jason it would have been the Jason that died, but he isn't that Jason. Not anymore and he will never be. He crossed the line once and there is no going back. Why did he even try if it is pointless in the end? He never listened to batman, he wasn't really a good soldier, but maybe to batman he was. A soldier, something that can easily be replaced. A son, like golden boy he never was. Tears leave his eyes as he cuts his flesh of his arm. Bruce ever caring about him was just one big illusion and the joker opened his eyes. The pains makes the green fog over his eyes, the voices that he hears at night… Go slightly softer.
Author's note
I started this new fanfic serie. I do not know everything about the batman canon so this might be ooc. If anyone can tell me about Jason's and barbara's relationship that would be most helpful. I really hope bruce's and jason's relationship will be more explored in the red hood and the outlaws and that we will see talia and Jason interact. Please review.