Bones wasn't sure what to do when she first heard it, whether to be logical or emotional. She knew that logically there wasn't much she could do to stop it. Yet that didn't stop her from wanting to scream, to ask 'why me?' If it were anywhere else she would be able to compartmentalise, but this was her brain. The brain was one thing she valued the most, her intellect was the thing that made her bones and without it what would she be?. So as she sat in front of the doctor she asked, she asked the one thing that would change her life.
"What grade is it?" the doctor looked down, as if preparing herself for the worst.
"At the moment it is grade three but by the looks of it and the time length of your symptoms it will quickly progress to stage four. At that stage there will not be much we can do. Right now, there are two things we can do, you can have surgery which we think will be the best option. This is then followed by a round of radiotherapy to make sure we have killed off all the cancer cells. If, during surgery we find that the cancer has spread then the only course of action is chemo-therapy." Her doctor explained all this whilst Bones just looked on, her face vacant. When the doctor was done Bones took a deep breath.
"May…. May I have time to think about it?" she asked. The doctor frowned
"You may but we recommend that you don't take too long. This cancer is known to spread rapidly" Bones nodded and thanked the doctor before grabbing her things and leaving.
When she got to the car she placed her head on the wheel and tried not to cry. She would not let this hurt her, she was Temperance Brennan and god damn it she would not cry. She took a deep breath as her phone rang. She looked at the ID and calmed herself down slightly. It would do no good to worry him.
"Hey Booth" she said as she answered the phone, trying to keep her voice steady.
"Bones, where are you? Cam said that you weren't coming in today?" Bones wanted to cry at the concern in his voice.
"I'm okay, I think I have food poising, I have been up most of the morning being sick." She was impressed with the lie. There was a moments silence before the agent answered.
"Do you want me to come around? I can bring some medicine"
"There is no need Booth, I have adequate provisions and besides without you who would catch the bad guys?" Bones could hear him sigh on the other end of phone.
"Okay but call me if you need me or… or I don't know you run out of books to read or something" Bones laughed
"That would be impossible Booth, there a trillions of books that we know of in the world, not to mention that ones that we don't know about, it would take-"
"You know what I mean Bones… look I got to go, get better soon."
"Bye Booth" and then she hung up the phone. The rest of the day she sat at home debating her position. She didn't know what to do, having the operation would give her the best possible chance of survival. If the operation went wrong however it mean that her brain would die, or at least aspects of it. If that happened she could lose her memory or not be able to do her job and if she wasn't a forensic anthropologist then what was she?. As she was debating this there was a knock at the door, reluctantly she went to open it, only to find Booth stood there, soup in one hand and medicine in the other.
"Hey"
"Hey, I thought you were on a case"
"Yet here I am, how are you feeling." She wanted to say that she felt like her world was being ripped into two but instead she swallowed that and answered with a
"Better than before." Booth smiled and walked into the apartment, he placed the soup on the table alongside the medicine.
"I know you said you may have food poisoning, but I thought maybe if you could stomach it then maybe you could eat some soup. I wasn't sure what you needed either so I just kind of got you a bit of everything" he said pointing to the bag of medicine. Bones smiled
"Thanks Booth" and as the settled down onto her couch Booth put on crappy TV and gave Bones her soup.
"So have you been to the doctors?" he asked. Bones nodded
"Well, what did they say?" he inquired. She shrugged
"Not much, they gave me some medicine and told me I'd be okay" She cringed technically she was telling the truth, they did give her some medicine tell her that it would be okay. Booth seemed to except it and launched into a tale about Parker wanting to become a 'squint' and Bones had laughed. As Booth continued on saying that it was an atrocity that they'd turned his son into a geek Brennan smiled and made a decision. As of right now she couldn't tell anyone about her situation. Not until she knew what she was going to do.
