Welcome.
...Ah, Please forgive me for my pathetic greeting, but...honestly I do not know how or where to begin the story...
Lets just start from the moment everything changed, in the most unpredictable way, then.
How should I say it...
Well...
I died. Congratulation.
Suprise? Maybe not. And no, this is not a joke.
I died, on a snowy day in December, in a car crash. I was walking on the street like a normal person would do in a normal day, trying to get back to my warm, comfortable home. I was crossing a small park before someone shouted out loud across the street, which made me turn back, annoyed and were about to tell them to keep quie-
And I understood why they shouted.
A car, suddenly and madly, dashed towards the walkway. The people around me quickly reacted: they screamed and panicked, fighting for a chance to run away from the out-of-control car, pushing and cursing at each other. However, there was an exception.
Me.
I fell down because of some bastard's push, and just simply stayed there, a statue, completely still and quiet, staring at the car with wide eyes that filled with shock. In just a few seconds, the car was in front of me.
And it hit me.
Pain. Pain exploded over all of my body. I heard a sick bone-crashing sound; probably my bones in all of my body. The big tyre was devoured my legs like an hungry, outrageous beast. Red, the gorgeous bright color, painted my sight, and I was flying from the power of the crash-
Splash!
Water.
I realized, with my strangely calm mind, I was surrounded by water. Right, there was a lake near where I walked. I always play with the ducks and fishes in that lake, enjoyed some rare peaceful moments that my mind would allow me to have...
And now, it has turned into my grave?
How sad. I hoped the fishes would not eat me...
Water filled up my lungs that has been damaged badly because of the car. I was alive, I still do not undertand how could I, and that was not a pleasant feelings.
It...hurted.
So bad. Worse than anything I had ever felt. My rib cage was definitely shattered in pieces, pulverized, maybe. My legs, as I could see in this vision, were curled in some weird angle, the part from the knee down had gone because of the tyres . The skin was ripped open, showing the pale reddish meat and some milky white bones, mixed together with the blood rich liquid. In conclusion, my body was destroyed
Such...a disturbing view. Ugly and scary, like a view from a cheap horror movie.
I was crushed and now drowning... I kept drowned down, down and down to the bottom of the lake. The normal, slightly muddy water has turned red because of my blood. I did not know a human body can lost so much blood. Cold water choked and strangled my poor lungs when the broken bones tortured me with the white hot pain. Ice and fire, burning in my veins.
Why couldn't I just die already?
I did not want to live with so much anguish.
"Let me die..." Somehow, I heard the muffle sounds that was my voice came out of my bloody mouth in form of some bubbles and blood, getting more water inside the body. But I do not care. The quicker I die, the lesser pain I feel. So, I opened my mouth and let the cold, dirty water chased away the precious oxygens and then despoiled every left spaces in my ruined body, and also my thought.
I was losing everything of myself to the water and death.
...It was...terrible.
Please, please please...Let Me Die. Let Me Die In Whole.
I did not want to lose every pieces of my mind like this...
Ohpleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease
Then, like an answer for my petty prayer, darkness devoured me.
It was over. No more white hot pain, no more red muddy cold water, no more ripped flesh and ruined body and blood...
Finally.
I could rest i-
Wait. How could my mind still work after Death?
Oh no.
This was not good...
Before I could clearly think about this... illogical situation, light came into my sight
No no no no no no no.
I did not want to feel that pain again...
I did not want to be alive.
I struggled and tried to move my body; the key word was 'tried'. My body was not follow my order. It felt numb. I could not fight, no matter how much I tried, the light kept pulling me towards it.
No no no no no no no no no.
"Wahhhhhhhhhh!" I opened my mouth and cried, as loud as I could when the light touched and covered me. Frustation, pain, sorrow, wrath...Everything, I put it in my little childish tantrum and threw it back to the world. There was another sound next to me, but I did not care about that.
Let. Me. Die.
"Oh my god, look at them. Aren't they adorable?" A loving , tired woman's voice cooing above my head while I was being lift up in a soft matterial, warm and comfortable. I tried to move, but found myself unable to do that.
Oh. My. Freaking. Gems. Of. Diamonds.
I...I...
Please, God, do not tell me that...
I was reincarnated?!
Right when the woman-no, there was a possibility that she is my (new) mother- curled around my (toosmallunnormalillogicalwrongwrongwrong) body, I did the only thing I could, at the moment.
I cried.
I cried and cried and cried, screaming to get away from everything that was hurting my too young brain right now. I cried, begging for some invisible Gods or Goddesses that this twisted reality was a dream, a painful nightmare. I kept begging and whining and pleading. Please Please Please...
Just. Let. Me. Die.
But no one answered me.
No one.
"WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!"