Why I Love Her
Author: Nitrowugs
Rating: G
Pairings: B/A implied
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Written: 02/09/2014
Summary: Angel explains why he loves his slayer.
A/N: AU take on Angel's reaction to Buffy's death, assumes that there was no resurrection spell.
After she returned from Los Angeles to inform Angel of Buffy's death, Willow and Buffy's family and friends, including the members of Angel Investigations, gathered at Buffy's house to say a final goodbye to the slayer. Angel could not stand to stay and listen to the others share their fondest memories of her. He wandered around the house reacquainting himself with the place where she had lived, memorizing the things she had touched. He couldn't stay here; he had to leave. As he came down the stairs and entered the living room, he heard someone say -
"I don't get it. I understand that he loved her, what I don't get is why. What made her so different from the thousands of women that he's known over his lifetime? I just really don't get it."
"You don't get it."
All faces turned to Angel; they had not heard him enter the room.
"None of you get it. To me Buffy was the kindest, sweetest, most caring and loving person I've ever met, not to mention the most beautiful. In my eyes no one else could ever compare to her. It was only with me that she could let her guard down and be herself. With me she did not always have to be the slayer, the strong one; she could just be Buffy, the woman that I loved, that I treasured above all else. It was only with me that she could lay open her heart, her soul, her spirit and share her innermost self.
"I am three times her size, I don't breathe and my heart doesn't beat, yet, whenever she put her arms around me, I could feel her essence warming me from within. She made me feel like I was wrapped up in love and I felt more alive than I ever have in my entire life, even before I was turned.
"Even though I know that I shall never see her again, I will always consider myself blessed from having had her in my life and I will always know that for a very brief moment in time, I was truly loved.
"My wish for each of you is that you someday feel the kind of love that I shall always feel in my heart for her."
He turned and left the house. When his team returned to the Hyperion Hotel, Angel was already gone.
He never returned.
The end.