A/N: Thoughts and prayers are with Roman Reigns as he fights Leukemia. Kick its ass and come back stronger, Roman.

2/8/06, Amanda's perspective…

Somehow, I knew I had to be here… I knew something wasn't right.

We're all surrounding the ring as Matt is talking to us and the fans… and then his eyes lock with mine as tears fall.

"Mandy, come on in here, kiddo." Matt whispered after lowering the microphone, Phil and Maria helping me up onto the ring apron and me getting into the ring… and Matt pulling me into his arms, me burying my head into his right shoulder and sobbing.

"I don't… want to lose you…" I said in between sobs, Matt gently tilting my head up so I can look at him.

"I know, sweetheart. I'm gonna beat this thing and I'm gonna come back stronger… because there's still a lot that I haven't accomplished. And I want to see you live out your dreams, Mandy…" Matt whispered, brushing my tears away and kissing me on my forehead. "And if you ever feel like you're in over your head, call me." He responded quietly before we all headed to the back.

Matt's right arm remained around me, physically holding me up… I want to be strong for him because he was strong for me when we all lost Eddie.

But I don't know if I can be strong.

"Hey…" Matt whispered, gently turning me to him. "It's gonna be okay… they caught it in time and I'm gonna make it through this, kiddo." He responded quietly before we embraced each other again, neither of us wanting to let go.

But eventually, we do because I have to get ready for the next event and he has to go home and start the chemo.

I'll have to be strong… we'll all have to, he needs that strength.

At the hotel, I find it impossible to sleep… standing up, I pull my thick coat on and walk outside onto the balcony.

The snow falls around me, becoming heavier as I rest my hands on the freezing railing.

Why can't it just swallow me up with it?

Too many are gone and we're gonna lose countless others… life truly isn't fair.

I opened my eyes again to see Ash, who's tucked me into the bed.

"It's not fair… Capp just wanted to wrestle here, not have his career cut short." I whispered.

"I know, kiddo." Ashley responded before she stretched out next to me.

"What do we do now, Sis?" I asked.

"We stay strong… we're all a family." Ashley replied before we hugged each other…

Present time…

Nearly 6 months along, Amanda Rose Balor rushed down the hallway as fast as she could… the text she had gotten from Roman sent a bad feeling through her.

'No, no, not again!' Amanda thought as horrible memories flashed back to her of Roman being sick when he was 22.

When she got to the Shield locker room the brunette busted down the door and saw Braun, Hunter and Stephanie not too far away.

"What's the emergency?" she stopped short and saw all of the guys with tears in their eyes. "What's going on?" She asked.

Roman walked over… and Amanda knew, tears running down her face and Roman pulling her into his arms as she cried.

"I can beat it, kiddo." Roman said. "I beat it last time and I can do it again." He responded as they looked at each other and he brushed her tears away before he rested his right hand on her stomach and felt Liam's tiny feet hit against his hand. "For you and him."

"Just promise that you will make it out alive and not leave us, I lost so many people in my life and I don't want to lose you either." Amanda replied before they hugged again.

Roman nodded and kissed her forehead. "I promise. But now I just have to break the news to everyone."

"You want me to go out there with you?" Amanda asked.

Hunter sighed and placed his hand on her shoulder. "As their sister you hold your head up high: because you are the Shield."

Amanda nodded as she and Roman let go and she hugged Dean and Seth before Seth decided to guide her back to Finn.

When he did, Finn saw that Amanda had been crying and pulled her into his arms.

"Roman?" Finn responded once they were alone in the locker room, Amanda nodding.

"He's… he's been around me since I was 12 years old. Why is it that when things are going right that something terrible happens?" Amanda replied as Finn brushed her tears away.

At that moment, a knock sounded at the door… but it went unanswered and Ashley turned to Paul Heyman.

"I saw her walk in here with Finn, tears in her eyes… something hit her hard, Ash." Paul explained.

"And what you doing here exactly? You and your half ass client need just to fuck off for good." Ashley said as she folded her arms.

"Because Roman-" Paul started to respond before the door opened and they saw Amanda.

"It's back, Ash… Roman's sick again." Amanda replied, Ashley pulling her into a hug.

"It's okay and you-" Ashley said before letting Amanda go. "There is no way that Brock will get that title back. A half ass prick doesn't deserve another chance."

"And a guy who busted up his shoulder-" Paul started to respond before Amanda slapped him hard.

"I suggest you run before I beat your ass!" Amanda growled threateningly, Paul running off and Finn walking over and pulling Amanda into his arms as they embraced each other.

"I'll leave you two alone." Ashley said.

Ashley left and Finn closed the door before he and Amanda kissed.

"A family… that's what we all are." Amanda whispered.

Meanwhile Ashley found herself alone in the hallway before she felt she was safe to cry. She eyed a production crate before grabbing it and throwing it across the hallway.

"This just isn't fair, damn it!" Ashley screamed before she felt Seth's arms around her and let him hold her close to him. "How did you know where to find me?"

"Because I know you don't cry in front of anyone else." Seth said.

"Life is supposed to be finally going right…" Ashley responded as they look at each other.

"Roman's gonna beat this damn thing… he has never given up on anything." Seth whispered, Ashley brushing his tears away.

"He's our brother… we're all a family here." Ashley responded quietly.

"Yes we are." Seth replied.

A long night laid ahead for everyone.