So a few words about this story. First off at the end of Sensitive Pornograph the author had Kamezou and Tsuruta as seventeen year olds. She said one was quick and simple and the other was cold but warm hearted. She was very vague about who was who so in this story Kamezou is cold but warm hearted and Tsuruta is quick and simple.

Also I didn't exactly know what quick and simple meant so I translated that as blunt haha. So Tsuruta is blunt and he's pretty fun loving. Not how I pictured him being but I imagine he likes to mess with his quiet, stoic brother. And Kamezou isn't as stoic as he should be but I chalk that up to him being with his brother and being more open with him than anyone else.

Also this was named Cathedral because of the moral battle between our favorite twins ^_^

And there we have it! This is gonna be at least a two parter haha. I hope you all enjoy!

Kamezou slowly stirred awake as he felt some movements in his bed. He blinked a few times and groaned, already knowing who the invader was. The other person snuggled close to him which only made him let out another groan.

"What are you doing, Tsuruta? I'm trying to sleep."

"Go to sleep," Tsuruta said in a whisper. "I'm not trying to bother you."

"If you're not trying to bother me then why are you here?"

Tsuruta let out a chuckle. Troublesome was the perfect word to describe him. He often liked to tease Kamezou on anything and everything and tonight was no exception. Kamezou loved his twin brother, but once again he was just being a little too troublesome.

"I just remembered when we were kids and we used to share a bed. It was nice always having someone there. I miss those nights when we would curl up and talk about nothing until we fell asleep."

That was another thing that Kamezou found a tad bit annoying about his twin. Tsuruta wore his heart on his sleeve and everyone around him knew it. However, thanks to being so quick-witted Tsuruta never had to worry about anyone taking advantage of that, but this wasn't the first time Kamezou found himself in a situation where his brother was trying to pull at his heartstrings.

Perhaps annoying wasn't the right word for it though. Kamezou found it more…endearing. Him and Tsuruta were different and yet exactly the same. They both knew that Kamezou had a heart of gold; he just never showed it on the outside. It never took much for Kamezou to feel for someone especially if that someone was his brother.

Without saying a word he wrapped his arm around twin, bringing him closer to him. Tsuruta rested his head on his brother's chest and brought his arm around his waist.

"I knew you would give in, brother."

Kamezou said nothing still as he closed his eyes, enjoying the feel of Tsuruta's light breathing on his bare chest. He ignored the not new, but still unfamiliar flutters in his stomach as he drifted to sleep.

The following nights had been the same. Tsuruta actually started showing up to Kamezou's room early so they could chat before they went to sleep. Kamezou had been sharing a bed with his brother for the past five days and he was starting to wonder when it would end. Their parents worked very hard to move to an apartment with three rooms just so the twins wouldn't feel so cramped. Every so often though, he would find himself debating as to whether he really wanted Tsuruta to leave or not. He loved his twin and frankly he didn't mind him sleeping with him, but at the same time it did feel a bit odd. They weren't children anymore. Sleeping together wasn't so much cute anymore as it was strange.

"I'm actually getting tired! Let's go to sleep early tonight."

"You go to sleep early tonight."

"Come on!" Tsuruta whined. He was sitting indian style on the futon while he watched Kamezou work on a laptop (one that a friend had so graciously let them borrow). Kamezou rubbed his eyes and put his head down on the small desk in his room.

"I'm doing schoolwork, Tsuruta."

He heard Tsuruta stand up and then felt his hands on his shoulders. He could only roll his eyes as he felt his brother start to give him a massage.

"We're both straight A students, Kame! You can slack off on one assignment."

"No, I can't. This is a big one, Tsuruta. It could break me for this class. I don't want Papa to be disappointed."

Tsuruta just shook his head. "Papa will never be disappointed. We could be failing students and he would still tell us how proud he is of us."

A sigh escaped Kamezou's mouth as he rubbed his eyes again. "We need to get good jobs so we can pay him and Gouzou-kun back for everything they've done for us."

"See? You pretend to be so mean and cold, but you're a good person, brother," Tsuruta told him. He playfully kissed him on the top of his head. "This massage feels good, right?"

It did feel good. It felt really good and Kamezou couldn't deny it. He didn't know whether he wanted to respond to Tsuruta's statement about what kind of person he was or about how the massage felt. Just to be safe he decided to keep quiet. Silence got him everywhere in the world and he trusted it, although he knew his brother well and he knew it wouldn't work with him. Still it was always worth a shot.

However, he wound up wishing he had just answered him. In a matter of seconds Tsuruta had stopped massaging him and had easily shrugged him out of his shirt.

"What are you doing?" Kamezou asked, shocked.

"Lie down on the futon so I can give you a proper back massage."

"Excuse me?"

Tsuruta rolled his eyes and stared at his brother for a few seconds. "You heard me. When I finish your massage you can go back to your schoolwork. Promise."

The two of them stared at each for a moment before Kamezou just shook his head and went back to his work. Yet, he knew his twin wouldn't let him off so easily. He yelled as Tsuruta grabbed him under his arms and hoisted him upwards.

"Would you just go lie down?"

"Leave me alone!"

"Nope! My twin senses are tingling and they're telling me-hyah!" Tsuruta gave a triumphant yell as he threw Kamezou facedown onto the futon. He straddled his waist and held his arms down so he wouldn't be able to move.

"They're telling me that you are very stressed out. I don't know about what, but I do know that you are tense! Just relax!"

Kamezou struggled to turn his head so he could look at his brother. This was definitely one of those times were Kamezou would use the word "troublesome" to describe his brother, although that was him being nice. However, Tsuruta was a determined person and considering how tired Kamezou was there was no way he would win this battle. He eventually slowed his movements until he was completely still. Tsuruta had managed to tame the lion.

"That's a good boy," Tsuruta whispered while he stroked Kamezou's hair. He ignored the groan Kamezou let out and began to gently rub his brother's back.

"Just relax, Kame," Tsuruta said in a gentle voice. He could tell by the way Kamezou's muscles felt that he hadn't relaxed at all. Tsuruta hoped his massage would help with that. He rubbed his brother's back and over time noticed his muscles were starting to feel less tense. He began to use his elbow to hit particular pressure points and doing that truly made a difference.

He heard Kamezou whisper his name as he lay there. A smile formed on his face as he kept the massage going.

"You know ninety-eight percent of all back rubs lead to the two participants having sex," Tsuruta said with a large smile.

Kamezou just scoffed. "I guess we'll be in the remaining two percent."

"Hey now, I've read manga where two brothers fall in love. It happens!"

"Not to us."

They were silent for a bit after that, but only because Tsuruta wanted to gather his thoughts. He didn't want to wind up saying the wrong thing to his brother and scaring him off. He had been surprised he had been able to get him to agree to the massage at all. Now was not the time to mess this opportunity up.

"Just think about, Kamezou," Tsuruta said quietly as he rubbed his brother's back. "You and I have a connection no one else has. I don't think other twins even understand how close we are. I think if we fell in love it would make a lot of sense. We're soul mates."

"Soul mates, hmm?"

"Oh yes. Soul mates…."

Kamezou didn't respond to that. The theory wasn't completely far fetched. Anyone could see that the two of them cared about each other more than anyone. When one wasn't around the other felt lost and scared. It was as if their world had disappeared.

"What are you thinking about?"

Kamezou didn't want to add any fuel to Tsuruta's fire, but he was thinking about something in particular that the conversation reminded him of.

"Do you remember two years ago when you went on that trip with the volleyball team?"

"Of course I do! We won the championship!" Tsuruta answered proudly.

In that exact instant Kamezou changed his mind about continuing. He wasn't as good as his brother about expressing what was on his mind. His logic was that if he stayed quiet things would always work out. Also when it came to his brother, sometimes words just didn't need to be said. He stayed silent and just focused on the feel of Tsuruta's hands running over his back, though after a few moments Tsuruta spoke.

"I missed you then too, Kame."

Kamezou felt his body get tense again. Sometimes he just never knew what to expect out of his brother.

"I thought I wouldn't be able to focus on the volleyball games. I spent all my time thinking about you and missing you. My teammates made fun of me. They knocked me back into shape for the games, but I was so desperate to see you again. I don't want to be that far away from you again."

Kamezou jumped as he felt a breath on his cheek. When had Tsuruta gotten that close to him? He tried to hide his face in the pillow, but Tsuruta actually turned him around fully so he was lying on his back. Tsuruta didn't move from on top of him so they could clearly see each other's faces. For the first time in his life Kamezou wasn't able to tell what his twin was thinking or feeling.

"Did you miss me too, brother?"

Kamezou just stared at Tsuruta for a few moments before turning his now red face away and nodding slightly. He couldn't hold in the gasp as he felt his brother start to rub his hands around his chest and stomach. This definitely wasn't a massage anymore.

"I'm glad." Tsuruta said he leaned down and kissed his brother on the cheek. He kissed him again before slowly making his way to kiss the edge of his lips. The point of the massage had been defeated as Tsuruta felt Kamezou tense up even more, however his kisses weren't going to stop there. Tsuruta put his hand to his twin's cheek to turn his face around. They stared at each other for a moment, Tsuruta face showing not a lot of confidence, but plent of determination and Kamezou's face showing nothing but confusion.

At first it was just a peck. He barely grazed Kamezou's lips, but just the feel of lips sent him to a whole other world. He kissed him again, this time running his tongue over Kamezou's lips. Tsuruta was more than shocked when Kamezou actually opened his mouth fully and allowed him entrance. He didn't hesitate to explore the inside of his brother's mouth, tasting him and relishing every moment of it. It was when Kamezou wrapped his arms around him and broke the kiss, whispering his name in his ear that Tsuruta knew there would never be anyone else for him. He loved his brother and no one else and he wanted desperately to be with him.

He took a chance and ran his hand down Kamezou's chest to the waistline of his pants. Tsuruta figured since he was so aroused his brother had to be too. He took the chance and let his hand fall to his brother's very hardened member, however instead of that sealing the deal it seemed to break it.

Kamezou suddenly seemed to snap out of it and he stared at his brother with a lost look. He looked around quickly before pushing his brother off of him and sitting up, holding his head in his hands.

"Kame?" Tsuruta said to him. "Kamezou?" He gently touched his twin's shoulder only for him to harshly shrug it off.

"Get out."

Horror instantly jumped into Tsuruta's heart and he couldn't help but touch his brother's shoulder again.

"Kamezou, please-"

"I said get out." Kamezou said in a shaky voice. His body was also shaking and Tsuruta could only think that this had all been a mistake.

"No, Kamezou, we need to talk. Just calm down and-"

"Tsuruta, I said leave." Kamezou refused to look at his brother as he tried to gather his nerves and calm himself enough so he wasn't frantic. "I want you to leave, Tsuruta. Leave now or I'll scream. I'll scream, Tsuruta, just get out."

Tsuruta didn't know what to say. There was nothing he could say. If he did try to say anything his brother might possibly start screaming at him and the last thing they needed was a hysterical Kamezou and their parents running in to see what happened. Tsuruta regretted everything that had happened as he slowly made his way to the door. He regretted even thinking his brother could love him in that way. He regretted trying to make a move on him to show the way he loved him. And as he shut the door behind him he regretted more than anything leaving his beloved brother on his own.

Kamezou did his best to hold his tears in as he leaned against the wall. He wasn't sure what had just happened. He was disgusted and ashamed. How could Tsuruta do this to him? He wasn't sure if he should feel betrayed or flattered. He and his brother may have been close but…not like this.

However there was still another problem. Kamezou groaned at how aroused he was. Tsuruta really did a good job of getting him excited like that. Even more shame filled his body as he reached his hand into his pants and began touching himself. It made him…almost angry to be thinking about Tsuruta while he was doing this. He found himself wishing his brother was there. He wanted his brother's hands on him and his lips against his. When did he start thinking about his brother like that?

"Tsu…Tsuruta…." He whispered.

He held in a cry as he came into his hand. He just shook his head as he curled under his sheets not even bothering to clean himself.

"Dammit, Tsuruta…."

Kamezou spent most of the night cursing himself and his brother. He wasn't even sure if he wanted to see Tsuruta, but he didn't have much to think about it as morning came a bit too quickly for him. He didn't want to face his brother; he didn't even want to face his parents. He shook his head and just hid under the covers, calling himself a coward as he did so.

"What am I going to do?"