A big thanks to CherryBlossom713, since she created this part in the first place. I will continue the story she started. This was posted by her, so I take NO credit for the first part. Anyways, here it is.
I don't remember much about when my parents died, except for the fact that
my very lifeforce was in pain and fluctuations because of the fact that my
spark still hurts now, especially every time that I think about them. Through
our bond, I also feel another terrible pain from one of my big brothers. The
one that I'm talking about would be Optimus or Oppy as I have nicknamed him, and the pain I'm feeling from him is enough, dare I say, to send me into stasis lock because I can also feel him blaming himself and his own spark taking the stress of that self blame. I think there's more to it than our parents. I also think that Oppy's condition
has to do with our other brother: Megatron or Meggy. Speaking of my other brother...
I don't know about what happened to Meggy, because I can't feel him through our family
bond, so I don't even know if he's alive or not. We didn't bury him with
our parents and Oppy doesn't talk about Meggy any more. I'm afraid to ask
Oppy what happened to Meggy because I don't want to hurt him, because he and
Meggy have always been so close even though they aren't really brothers. I
have the distinct feeling he's still alive though, but what could be coming
from his end feels very much dark and scary and sending my spark into
dangerous fluctuations once more, and couple that with everything I feel from
Oppy, and everything I feel, I'm seriously stressed out and don't know how much
longer I can hide it from him and keep myself from going into stasis lock.
And even though it's been two vorns(years) since my creators' deaths, nothing on
the outside has really changed. After my creators died and Meggy went missing, Oppy
and I have been in somewhat of a daze. Because we're there, but we're not
really there. We go about our lives according to our schedule without any
change and without any real thought at all.
We wake up from recharge, have our morning energon, Oppy goes to work and I
go to my lessons at the academy, we come home, we have our evening energon
while we watch the news and other shows on the TV in the main room, then we
recharge for the night and start the whole thing over the next day.
But lately my big brother's has been acting more random, like today he
picked me up early from my lesson for afternoon energon and then for a whole
cycle we just walked around in the city going here and there and just enjoying
ourselves. Just like we use to do, I can't believe how good it is to hear
Oppy's laugh or to laugh myself.
And he's been like this for a couple of mega-cycles now and it's all
because he meet Elita.